If my mother knew I was in love with a married man, she'd be devastated. Worse yet, to someone I worked for, it would just kill her.
"Where do you get this from," she definitely would ask. She did not raise me to be a mistress, the other woman. Or is this some sort of a hereditary trait? As much as I love her, I'm just glad she's not in her right mind at this very moment. I can't stop my heart from loving him. I have no control over that. Hey, I'm a surgeon. But, it's not like I can rip my heart out and replace it with a cold-hearted one, someone who has no feelings at all or no remorse of my inner conscience.
If I was Addison, I just don't know if I could be like her to hold my head up high knowing my husband was in love with someone else. I won't be settled upon. I'd want to come first in his life.
Dr. Derek Shepherd! The hell with him! He came into my life suddenly and took me by surprise. I never believed I could be so happy, so in love with someone as I was with him. Everything was just perfect. I had the perfect life! The perfect job! And most of all, he was the...PERFECT MAN!
But, he tore that away from me when she came into the picture. When she approached us that very first day I set my eyes on her, for a split second I had actually thought Addison, with her long luscious red hair would be Derek's beautiful sister. I sure was wrong! I wondered if she hadn't appeared, how long would it have taken him to tell me about "HER"? He could have prepared me for it.
"Look, honey, I...wait a minute...I love you...but, there's one teeny weeny bit of a problem I need to clarify to you. I...well...you see, I...have a ...WIFE!"
Just exactly how would he have come about in telling me. Well, there's nothing I can do about it now. He chose her, not me.
How do you move on with your life when the person you're trying to move away from is around you everyday...in the cafeteria, in surgery, around the corner and down the hall. Even in my dreams, I'm never free of him.
"Pick me. Choose me. Love me."