YuGiOh is not owned by me… if it was I would be rich and YGO would be on late night T.V

Chapter 1: Life

It began when I was younger than I am now, and considering im still relatively young I suppose you can say I haven't changed. Im still growing and learning new things... and this is one of them...

Life, is never what you want it to be.

I sometimes find it the most amusing thing in the world, faced day to day with the most excruciating pain I could ever imagine… ever… and it isn't even remotely different from day to day. Ive tried, I really have, just tried so damn hard and im so damn tired all the time, like ive been on drugs and decided to go cold turkey… I crave it, even if he beats me at least he's touching me. The only family I have left… and he hates every single bone in my body… hell… every single atom.

Every single breath I draw is like fire in my lungs, like the fire that took her from me. I curse myself day in day out for not being there for her. She needed me and I wasn't there, trust dad to run out as soon as he saw the smoke, not even caring that she was trapped in her room, blind and helpless, as I came up the street I saw the flames began to run, dropped the groceries and flew up the steps only to be held back by a fireman who thought he knew best.

I remember screaming and not much else, except for when I woke up in the hospital, 'that' I remember all to well.

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Light streamed in through half open eyes which immediately closed again. He felt stiff, unable to move without hurting somewhere on his person.

"oh! Your awake honey!"

The light dimmed somewhat and he opened his eyes, a woman in her early twenties stood before him a bright cheery smile on her face. Her eyes widened with her grin when his eyes opened fully.

"My, what pretty eyes you've got there!" she smiled cutely a dark brown bang hanging freely when she tilted her head.

"th- the better ta see you with miss"

Her eyes opened wide with shock before she giggled "I think im a little old for you honey, but thanks for the compliment"

Two seconds of silence passed before Jou suddenly sat up "where is she? Where's my sister?" He could feel the panic rising in his chest worry eating away at the little strength he had left.

She blinked and her eyes filled with sudden worry "what's your sisters name?"

"Shizuka…" he swallowed past the lump in his throat "Jonouchi Shizuka"

"I'll find her for you okay? Stay here!"

'I promise I'll find her'

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She left me sitting there until my father came and dragged me away saying I was better and he wasn't going to start paying bills. We moved and for the whole time we drove he never offered a single word of comfort, knowing his only daughter was going to be buried in a grave I would never see, at least I managed to tell someone her name, I just hope they gave it to the right body.

Dad didn't even want to touch me till we moved into our new home… then he touched me too often and too much, I didn't want to admit to myself that I knew it was wrong… but inside I knew it was. It was the only comfort I had though, the only apology I ever received… if you can call it that.

If the screaming back pain and the dryness of my throat weren't enough to convince me then the belt was, the endless guilt was, my failing grades were, my friends finally seeing my father for who he truly was but never knowing the full horror of my story… How many times has Honda told me 'I got your back' or Anzu said that 'we're all in this together guys' or Yugi… how many times has he and his other half… the Pharaoh guy told me that I need to continue fighting? That I need to believe in myself to carry on… and it aint about duelling this is 'life' and the same rules apply.

So I decided to leave.

So I did…

Maybe that's why im standing here, knowing he's probably looking into a screen over his desk, fingers laced together under his chin watching me. He's the only person I can go to, no one else has enough room and its not as if I want to bother them anyway, its 2:30 in the morning and there all probably sleeping. I don't want to stop them from sleeping... hell... even the gangs aren't out cos its so late, they are all sleeping in their homes under sheets which are probably better than any ive had the fortune to see... they can sleep...

Not him though… never him.

Im biting my lip, fist raised to knock before the door swings open and he's standing there, in all his ice prince splendour looking down on me like the drab water logged puppy that ive always been.

I met his eyes for a second before lowering mine, holding tightly to my rucksack, knuckles turning white. He stares for what seems like an eternity, merely a single heartbeat of time but the simple fact that he hasn't told me to leave or slammed the door in my face is a good thing, tells me he's considering it. If he tells me to leave I will, I only came here for one reason and that's all, to see him, even if its for the last time.

I feel his eyes burn across my cheek and the fresh cut that follows my jaw line and he sighs, a disbelieving guilt laden I-know-your-story sigh

"If you want to stay just say so… and close the door behind you mutt, I don't want the cold getting in"

My eyes close and I feel a sigh fall from my lips, my muscles relaxing immediately, his voice is the richest, deepest, most beautiful ive ever encountered I could die like this and be forever happy, just to know that he wasn't being horrible to me that time, the dog joke affectionately posed but not said so… there's still a problem though.

"I cant"

He stops on the third step and looks across at me, eyes slightly wide at my tone, I know what it sounds like, dead and broken, dusty and rattling in my throat.

"what do you mean, you cant?"

"I'll bleed all over your carpet…"

He turns fully as I begin to fall.

I never manage to hit the floor.

Thank-you for reading the first chapter of All Over… I hope to update soon. R&R please! Arigato