Chapter 14 – Why is it so hard?

Summer woke up of the sound of her cell phone. She quickly got out of bed and answered her phone.

"Hello!" She said with a sleepy voice.

"Hi Summer! I'm sorry if I woke you up."

"No, it's okay. I didn't even realize that I fell to sleep before. I must have past out after talking to you before."

"I just wanted to call you, but I can call you in the morning instead."

"No, I want to talk to you. I have all time in the world to sleep later. So, are the kids sleeping?"

"Yes, they are. I had to read the whole Winnie the Puh, but they're finally asleep."

"I wish I could kiss them goodnight."

"I know, but you know what? Let's talk about something fun!"

"Okay, like what?"

"Eh...What are you gonna do tomorrow?"

"Fun huh, I think I'm going to the hospital. I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. I mean should I meet her?"

"Only you can decide that Summer. Do you want to see her?"

"No. I mean yes. I don't know. She left me when I was six years old and she never came to visit me. Why should I help her when she never was there for me?"

"Sum, I'm not saying that you should see her, but you would have wanted her to come to you right? So I bet she wants to see you. After all she was the one to write your name as closest relative."

"I know, but I don't know if I can forgive her just like that."

"Who said you have to forgive her? Maybe you also need to see her."

"I have needed her, my mother, so many times. She called me on my birthdays for a couple of years, but then daddy wouldn't let her call me any more. I guess he wanted to protect her. I was always pretty messed up after she called. You know what the worst part is?"

"No, what?"

"I don't know why she left. I was six years old and I adored my mother." Summer felt a few tears slide down her cheeks. Those were angry tears but also sad. She had missed her mother.

"Sum, maybe you've got your chance to find out why now."

"Yeah, maybe. It's just so hard. She fucking left me the day before Christmas!" Summer yelled into the phone and made Seth have to take the phone away from his ear for a second.

"Whoa, calm down Sum."

"I'm sorry."

"No, it's okay. I wish I was there with you. Are you sure you can do this on your own? Because Summer, I would come down there if you asked me."

"I know, I can do this. Well I have to do this. But I'm glad that I've got you."

"Hey, I'm here for you."

"Seth?"

"Yeah."

"She left the day before Christmas. I had no idea. I was going downstairs because I heard something. I thought it was Santa, but it was her leaving." Summer's voice was calm and full of sadness.

"I'm sorry Summer."

"It's not your fault."

"I know, but I'm sorry anyway. I love you."

"I love you too. I'm gonna go to the hospital tomorrow and see how it feels. Maybe I'm gonna see her, maybe not."

"Sounds good. Just call me if you get upset or call me anyway. Just call me."

"I promise I'll call you. But now I should let you get some sleep."

"You should also try to sleep."

"Yeah, it won't be the same though, without you next to me."

"I know."

"I love you Cohen."

"I love you. Bye and goodnight."

"Night."

They both hanged up and fell back in their beds. Things were hard. Seth wanted to be there with her and be there for her. He knew that she had a harder time than she ever showed, he knew her. And when he heard her upset by the phone he felt so helpless, because there was nothing he could do to help her. She was right, she had to do this on her own, but he wanted to be there to help her.

Seth was right; Summer had the chance to ask her mother the things she never found out. She had the chance now and she had to take it. Her mother could die. Summer knew that cancer wasn't to play with; her grandparents had died in cancer when Summer was very young. She hated when people left. And this time was like every other time; she couldn't do anything about it. But this time it wouldn't be because of her. God would want them to be taken away, they wouldn't choose it themselves.

To be continued…

I'm not proud of this chapter, but I had to post it.

I'm thinking on writing a new story, though I will keep writing on this one. It's just easier to write if you can vary. The story will have adventure in it, I think. What do you think? Is it worth writing or not?

I'm sorry if I haven't updated for a while, but now I am.

Check out my new story "When you say nothing at all"