How could I be so stupid?
by LiltingBanshee
Author´s note: peeks ot from bombshelter sorry, I know it was an evil cliffie to leave you with for so long...
Anyway, I´m going to Paris for a week (no I´m not pregnant and looking for my baby´s father) so I hope you can entertain yourselves with this chapter for so long:)
Shdwcat27: definitely not cool:)
Twinkle22: Thanks, I think he does too:)
phantomann: sorry, I´m sure he´ll try and make it work:)
Phantomandvampirelover: Maybe he will...:)
you´llbemyangel: thanks, Giselle is not very popular:)
potophan1010: there you go:)
Lady Skywalker: Agree with you on the pregnant girl thing;)
tink20: argh please don´t hurt me:) here´s the next chapter:)
A.D.Chandler: It´s not good...
Gottogirl: No, Giselle comes from a really annoying girl I knew once...Erik is not that much of a stud, something else attracts Giselle to him, you´ll see later...:)
erik´sangel527: thanks for all you reviews, I´m so glad you like this.
satinzevi89: Giselle had been around for a while, you´ll see:)
Bre: Here you are:)
trisana: Yup:)
The soft knock on the door was followed by Camille´s friendly face peeking into the room.
"Christine dear, there´s a gentleman here to see you" she said softly.
"I don´t want to talk to him" Christine hiccuped from the bed and pulled the covers futher up around her body.
"He´s very upset, I think you should talk to him"Camille tried.
"He´s upset?" Christine exclaimed. "Funny, because he seems to have things going for him. Just tell him to leave me alone" she said.
"Christine come on! We need to talk" Erik´s voice sounded quite desperate in the hallway.
"Fine" Christine sighed. "Tell him to give me 5 minutes Camille."
Erik found her standing by the window as he entered the room. She had tried to freshen up, but her eyes were still red and puffy from crying and he felt bad for being responsible for her tears.
"Christine..."he attempted.
"Why didn´t you tell me?" she snapped.
"It didn´t seem important" he knew it sounded lame.
"Not important? Look at me Erik! I´m 17 years old and pregnant with your child and you didn´t think it was important to tell me you were engaged?" she spat.
"I´m sorry Christine..."he said softly.
"How long have you been with her?" she asked.
"About 3 years" he answered.
"Great! So you were engaged when you seduced me? You´re some kind of man Erik! I thought you´d never known affection in that way, but appearently that was just a part of your plan to get into my pants!" she yelled.
"Christine don´t be ridiculous! You´re getting it all wrong. Giselle and I were having big problems when I stayed in England. She had sort of broken up with me" he explained.
"Oh, so I was your rebound fuck? Thanks a lot Erik" she huffed.
"Would you stop Christine! You know I loved you. Giselle was the first woman to ever show me affection in that way yes, but I never felt the way about her as I do about you!" he said raising his voice.
"Really? Because you looked quite happy together earlier" Christine said.
"She cares a lot more for me than I do for her trust me" Erik said.
"So are you going to break off the engagement?" Christine asked.
"I don´t think I can..."he trailed off.
"You can´t or you won´t?" Christine spat.
"Christine, it´s complicated..." he groaned.
"Well, it´s about to get a lot more complicated. I´m giving birth to your child soon. What do you suggest I tell the kid when it asks about Daddy?" she asked angrily.
"I didn´t ask you to get pregnant!" Erik was getting frustrated.
"What? Do you think I asked for it? I didn´t get myself pregnant! You played quite an important part in this as well" she said hurt.
"Well maybe you should have told me earlier so we could have made the decision together. Maybe you should have gotten rid of it" Erik said.
"You said you were happy about the child and now you wish I had killed it? Get out Erik! Now!" she screamed.
"Christine I´m sorry! I wasn´t thinking. Please, I didn´t mean that!" he said and tried to put his arms around her, but she avoided him.
"No! I´m serious. Get out!" angry tears were rolling down her cheeks.
Camille opened the door.
"Monsieur I think you should leave" she said.
"Please Madame, stay out of this" Erik said rudely.
"Monsieur you´re disturbing the other tenants. I shall have to call the police if you don´t leave willingly" Camille warned.
"Christine please..." he tried again.
"No Erik, just leave" she said weakly.
"I love you..."he said sadly as he went out the door.
"Stop lying to me and leave" she said firmly and Camille shut the door after them.
Christine was curled up on her bed and had been for hours. She didn´t even move when she heard Camille enter the room and place a tray of food her her table.
The older woman sat down on the edge of the bed and began rubbing Christine´s back gently.
"Don´t be so sad my dear. You´ll see he´ll come around eventually" she soothed.
"No he won´t. He doesn´t care about me and the child. He´s going to marry someone else" Christine sniffed.
"But he said he loved you dear. He was very sad that you threw him out" Camille said gently.
"If he loves me why won´t he break off his engagement? I can´t live without him, I love him!" Christine began to weep heavily and Camille didn´t know what to do.
"Maybe you should go back to your home. Give him some time to think"Camille suggested.
"But I have nowhere to go! My parents kicked me out and my friends are busy in school. Erik was all I had and now I don´t even have hime anymore" Christine wailed.
"Try and eat some of the food and get some rest dear. I´m sure things will look better in the morning" Camille said with a little smile before leaving the room.
"Meg! What are you doing here?" Raoul asked surprised as he answered the door.
"Hey Chagny, you got an A in French right?" the young blonde asked.
"Yeah I did. Why do you ask?" Raoul was at a loss here.
"Great!" Meg exclaimed and grabbed his hand. "We´re going to Paris and I really didn´t pay attention in French class" she said and started dragging him out of the door.
"Whoa, hold on a second Meg! Why are we going to Paris all of a sudden? Are you so eager to see the romantic city with me?" he winked at her.
"Don´t flatter yourself pretty boy! We´re going to see Christine" Meg huffed.
"Christine is in Paris?" Raoul really looked confused.
"Ok, Chagny, make me some tea and I´ll explain things to you" she said and walked into his house.
"...and now he´s probably going to marry Giselle and Christine is really out of it" Meg finished.
"Bastard!" Raoul growled. "Why doesn´t she just come home?"
"What would she do here? My Mum tried to talk to her parents, but they are sticking to their decision. I think her Mum would like her home though, but her Dad is really tough. Besides she wants to stay in Paris and be close to Erik" Meg sighed.
"But how will she manage there? Does she have a job and a place to live?" Raoul asked.
"She has a place to stay for now and Erik will have to pay some kind of child support I suppose – if he doesn´t coe to his senses and leaves that woman. I don´t know what she´ll do about work..." Meg said. "She´s really down Raoul She was crying when she called me. I know it sounds crazy to just go to Paris, but she really needs her friends" Meg pleaded.
"When do we leave?" Raoul asked and Meg smiled relieved.
"Bonjour Madame, my name is Raoul de Chagny. Does Christine Daáe live here?" Raoul asked in such perfect French that Meg nearly threw up.
"Oh, you must be her friends! Come in come in" Camille smiled.
After introducing themselves Camille took them upstairs.
"She will be so happy to see you. She has spent the past couple of weeks in her room, poor girl. She´s been so teribly let down by that boyfriend" Camille sighed. "There you are, just go in I´ll be downstairs if you need me" she said and left them outside Christine´s door.
When no one answered their knocking Meg carefully opened the door.
Christine was breathing softly in her sleep.A book about baby-minding was falling from her hands and Meg felt like crying.
'She´s trying so hard! Why can´t this be just a little easy on her' she thought.
She kneeled down next to the bed and pushed the curls out of Christine´s face.
"Christine...?" she said silently.
Christine´s eyes fluttered open and she smiled. "Meg! You came!" She sat up nd the two girls hugged fiercely.
"Of course I came. Do you think I´d leave you alone with this?" Meg said. "Look who tagged along".
"Raoul!" Christine exclaimed.
"Hi Chris" he said with a little smile
She rose from the bed and went to hug him as well. "I´m really happy to see you" she said through the tears that had begun to run down her cheeks.
Raoul hugged her back and then looked at her. "Wow, you´ve gotten really big Chris" he grinned at her.
"Yeah, the kid is growing fast" Meg joined in.
Christine smiled. "I know, I feel like a whale! Oh I´m so happy to see you both. This means so much to me" she hugged them again.
"Why don´t I go out and find us a place to have dinner. Then you two can talk while I´m out" Raoul offered.
"That would be lovely Raoul. There´s a couple of cheap places close by" Christine said gratefully.
"So, any news?" Meg asked carefully when Raoul had left.
Christine sighed. "He has sent me letters and called begging me to meet him so he can explain".
"And?" Meg asked.
"I´ve told him I won´t see him until he can tell me he´s going to leave Giselle" Christine said.
"And what does he have to say about that?" Meg asked feeling angry with Erik on Christine´s behalf.
"Well, he keeps telling me that it´s complicated and he needs to see me to explain things. I just don´t see what can be so complicated! Yes, she´ll probably be heartbroken, but what about me? I´m the one having his child shortly! The only reason I can see is that he loves her and really doesn´t want to leave her" Christine finished.
"So what will you do if that´s really the truth? Are you just going to stay here and raise the child?" Meg asked.
"What else can I do? I can´t really go home and I´d want the child to be close to Erik. I´m sure he´ll want to see it once it´s born" Christine said.
"Mum offered that you could stay with us if you´d like to" Meg smiled.
"Thanks Meg. I really appreciate that, but she has already done so much, speaking to my parents and everything. I will just stay here for now" Christine said thankfully.
"Just don´t hesitate to aks for help Christine. Even though things do seem hard there are people who´ll help you. You don´t have to be alone with this"Meg said kindly and put an arm around Christine´s shoulders.
"Thank you Meg, that´s good to know" Christine smiled and hugged her friend.
Meg and Raoul stayed for as long as they could before they had to go back and prepare for their college starts.
Christine had throughoutly enjoyed the company of her friends and she had even had a good long talk with Raoul about the tention there had been between them since she had broken up with him
Their company had kept her mind off of Erik and she had felt happier than she had in quite some time.
But now when they had gone real life returned to her.
She had been in Paris for a long time now and she was slowly running out of money.
Though she had brought all of her savings when she came it wouldn´t last forever.
She also knew that with the baby due soon she probably wouldn´t be able to get a job.
Who would hire a heavily pregnant teenage girl who were just beginning to understand the French language?
She would most likely have to swallow her pride and ask Erik for some money to support herself and the child.
'Erik'. Just thinking of him brought tears to her eyes. She had really thought all her problems would be over once he got involved – how wrong she had been.
She couldn´t for the love of God understand why he couldn´t leave Giselle.
He had loved her – she knew he still did.
People left each other all the time these days. Whay was it so difficult in this case?
He kept talking about explaining, but she had been too stubborn to listen. Maybe she should hear him out, she couldn´t stay mad at him forever.
It was too late to call him now, but she would definitely do so in the morning.
She got up to close her window for the night when she felt a stabbing pain in her lower back.
She gasped and sat back down on the bed squeezing her eyes shut to make the pain go away. It subsided after a moment and she let out her breath.
'Could this be what she thought it was? No, the baby wasn´t due yet, she was sure of that. Her body was probably just reacting to the stress she had felt the past few days'.
Her body was uneasy all night and she slept very bad. She looked exhausted when she came downstairs the next morning and Camille eyed her with concern.
"You look very tired Christine. Didn´t you sleep at all? She asked.
Christine shook her head weakly. "I wasn´t feeling well. I couldn´t sleep. I´ve had these terrible pains in my back all night" she sighed.
Before Camille could comment on that, another wave of pain hit Christine and she doubled over moaning in agony.
"Good Lord child, you´re in labour!" Camille gasped.
"No, I can´t be. It´s too soon!" Christine panted.
"Your baby doesn´t seem to think so dear. Come on, we´ve got to get you to the hospital" Camille said.
Erik put the phone down and didn´t hesitate for a minute before grabbing his keyes and heading for the door.
'He was never going to forgive himself if something had gone wrong!'