Title: Second Chances

Disclaimer: Well, if I did own Underworld I wouldn't be writing fan-fiction now would I? Nope, hence, I own nothing. So, unless you want a popsicle stick and a cat I have nothing to give you if you sue me, so don't.

Summary: Sometime you don't get it right the first time. This is true for Kraven and Soren and now they get another chance to change what they did wrong, if they can that is.

Chapter 8: I'm talking to myself again

He hung up the phone and pulled back into his parking space. He ran back into the hospital and up the stairs, not bothering to wait for the elevator which seemed to be taking forever.

Upon entering the hallway leading to Soren's room, Kraven stopped. His mother was standing outside the room, reading over something on a clipboard.

"Mum," he said quietly. "What happened?" He tried to get in the room but she stopped him.

"You can't go in yet," she said, holding his shoulders.

"Why the fuck not?" He asked, looking in the room. Soren was awake, his head resting in his hands. "He's okay?" She nodded.

"When Doctor Mackenzie comes out you can talk to him. Until, you're stuck out here with me." She looked sadly into the room. "The poor boy, unconscious for over a month and now," she stopped and let go of her son as soon as her coworker came out.

"Soren!" Kraven said, bounding into the room. Soren's head shot up, his eyes red. Kraven stopped next to his boyfriends bed. He kissed the other lightly on the lips. "You feeling okay, love?"

"Oh, yes, just peachy. I've been unconscious for a month, I can't leave this hell hole for another two weeks at the least. Oh and I can't forget, I'm going into rehab. Not to mention, I could have gotten you killed. Did I leave anything out?" Soren snapped, anger apparent on his face. Kraven's face fell, and Soren looked over at him again. "Sorry, but finding all this out the minute I wake up is not something I wanted to do."

"It's okay, it's not your fault." Kraven assured his boyfriend, kissing him again.

Soren pushed him away as best he could. "But it IS my fault, Kraven. If only I wouldn't have been so selfish, and let you get into this mess. You wouldn't have been in that bed for any amount of time. If I would have staid away like I planned on doing, then none of this would have happened. Now, thanks to me, I almost got you killed. This always happens to the people I love," he said, head in his hands again. Kraven looked sadly at the other boy and placed a gentle hand on his shoulder.

"It's okay, babe. I hate seeing you like this. It's my own fault that I got hurt, not yours. And I would do it again too, I'd die for you, I hope you know." Soren looked up at him, pain in his eyes.

"No, don't you die for me. I don't want to be responsible for your death. You'd be so much better off without me fucking your life up for you. I'm just going to drag you down with me."

There's no arguing with him at this point, Kraven thought to himself. "Look, I promised myself I wouldn't love anyone after what happened to me before, but I found myself drawn to you the moment I set eyes on you. I can't help it, and I'm not going to stop it, I love you Soren. That's all there is to it."

The other was sitting there, not making eye contact with Kraven. "Look, I know how you feel. I promised myself not to get attached to anyone, and yet, I find myself hopelessly in love with you. And I'm going to do the right thing for once." Soren said, looking ahead of him to the wall. "I'm going to let you go, let you live your own life. A better one without me in it."

"And what about you, what are you going to do?" Kraven snapped, getting angry at the other. He was being a coward. "I'm not gonna let you do this to us," he said, crossing his arms over his chest.

"I want what's best for you, love. That's all I've ever wanted. I'm not gonna put you in danger just because I want to be around you 24/7 if I could." Soren said, leaning back onto the pillow, trying not to look at Kraven, and the sadness in his eyes.

"That's not a good reason," Kraven said, trying to get Soren to look at him.

"Yes it is, you fucker. I don't want you to get killed, can't you get it through your thick head? If you stay with me you're as good as dead." Kraven just looked over at his boyfriend Ex you mean. He just broke up with me. He thought to himself.

"Okay, Soren." Kraven said, standing up. "When you stop being an asshole and come to your senses, we'll talk again. Until then," he kissed him on the cheek. Kraven stopped and looked over at the other boy who's eyes were closed, tears falling down his face. He kissed him once more on the lips and felt no response from the other. "Good bye, love. I'll see you soon."

As he walked out of the room, he saw Erika walking down the hall. "Your mom called me, she said he's awake." Kraven nodded and continued walking down the hallway.

"See if you can get some sense in the guy, he won't listen to me. Fucktard," Kraven said venomously.

"What the hell did you two do?" She asked, pushing past Kraven and left him alone in the hall.

He just shook his head and went to the elevator. "I'm such an asshole," he said to himself, hitting his head on the wall.

"You're going to give yourself brain damage if you do that kid," someone said in his head. "I know what happened just now, and if you ever want him back, then stop being such a whiner."

Kraven looked up into the reflective wall and saw himself, and another him standing next to him. "I've gone insane," he said to himself.

"No, I'm you, or more like you're me. Your my reincarnate. The dreams you've been having, that was my life." The other version of him said in his mind.

Well, that explains a lot, I guess.

Now, what your going to do, is come in tomorrow after you let him cool off, and beg him to take you back.

I don't beg, especially to someone who just broke up with me.

I messed up with Soren too, and I got him killed. And he forgave me. I didn't deserve it, but he did just the same. You deserve to be forgiven because you admitted you loved him. Something I almost didn't do, because I was so stupid.

What does this have to do with me and Soren? You had your chance, and I had mine and I fucked it up. Not like he did much better, by the way.

You don't have to be such an asshole. I was and look where it got me. I fucked up royally but he was always there for me. I know your mad, but don't lose him. He's up shit creek right now. Believe me, it happened to my Soren too. I did exactly what you're doing, and I almost lost him forever. I had never seen him cry until that day, and I promised myself I'd never let that happen again.

He doesn't seem to show emotion very well, until...well, you know. I am an asshole. I wouldn't drop it and let him rest. I made him cry.

Kraven looked down. "Shit, I really screwed up didn't I?" He asked himself.

You could say that.

I wasn't talking to you. Besides, you can't talk, can you? You did the same thing I did. Maybe we just weren't supposed to be with him.

But you feel utterly alone without him. I've seen you two together, I was there the day you got mad at him and your mom. We did that, we didn't want it to happen again. There's only so much we can interfere though, and this was one of those things we couldn't stop.

Why? Why couldn't you stop him from getting hurt? I can't even protect my own boyfriend.

Funny, he said the exact same thing. He was protecting you, by not telling you about Dimitri. I know it's bizarre, but that's Soren for you. Crazy Irishman.

Kraven smiled. I knew he was Irish.

What gave it away?

There's no need to be sarcastic.

Just don't screw up this time okay, grovel if you have to. Don't be too proud, it gets you nowhere in life.

Kraven nodded, starting his car. The two of them had talked all the way to the parking lot. That was, by far, the strangest moment in my life. I was talking to myself, having a conversation with my past self. I need to see a shrink.

He turned on the radio and drove out of the parking lot. He was almost home when his cell phone rang again.

"Hello Erika." He said, reading the call display. "What do you-"

"What the hell did you do, asshole?" She hissed at him. "I got in that room and there were tears running down his face. I haven't seen him cry since we were six and he had to move away."

"I know I'm an asshole, thanks for reminding me. I had a long conversation with myself and I have a plan. I'm gonna beg and plead, and let him do what he thinks is right." Kraven said to her. "I left a note in there last week. Can you just try to get him to read it, please?"

He heard her sigh on the other end. "Okay, Kraven. I'll see what I can do. I'll talk to you later, okay?" She hung up after, and Kraven's heart sunk.

Soren was in a similar situation that Kraven found himself in earlier. Erika walked back into the room, gave him a gentle hug, and a kiss on the cheek before leaving. "He wants you to read this, I know you two are mad at each other, but read it, please."

He nodded, taking the note that Erika handed him on his bedside table. "Thanks for listening, 'rika. I'm gonna rest for a while after I read this okay. Come and visit me later, all right." She nodded, hugging him again.

"See you tomorrow," she said, leaving. "Good night."

He looked at the piece of paper in his hands, debating with himself weather he wanted to read it or not. He decided to read it after all.

Soren,

I know that you've been unconscious for some time now, and that the doctors are worried that you may never recover. But I just want you to know I believed you could. I got let out two weeks after we got in, and I came back every day, hoping that it would be the day I could see you awake again.

Since you're reading this it means you've woken up. I'm so happy, I just want you to know that. I've never felt like this in my whole life. You do something for me, I don't know what, but it's good.

While I was writing this I'm watching you sleep, you truly are something amazing you know. You're gonna hate me for this, but you truly look beautiful. Like a fallen angel that decided to grace me with his presence.

I guess I just wanted to tell you something. It's been buzzing around in my mind ever since I lost consciousness, there were so many dreams with us in it, which I'm sure you already know. That's besides the point, the point is very simple. Three words, three syllables, eight letters.

I'm sure you've guessed it by now, you're really smart. I love you. Plain and simple. I love your smile, your laugh, your eyes, your spirit, everything about you. It sounds too cliché, but it's true. You complete me in every way possible. You're the air I breathe. I know it's over used, and I'm probably freaking you out right now, but I just want you to know.

It's getting late and I'm kinda tired. I hope you wake up soon, cuz the waiting is killing me. I'll be right here waiting for you, love.

Love you,

K

He set the note down and wiped his eyes with the back of his hand. "I really messed up didn't I?"

Yeah, you did, but that's okay.

What the fuck?

Language. You're my reincarnate, Soren, don't worry, you're not insane. Well, maybe, but it's not my fault. I came here to talk to you.

About what, may I ask?

You and K. I know how you feel, Kraven can be a dick if he wants to be.

Tell me about it.

I don't need to. Besides, I'm not here to talk to you about how much Kraven is stupid. Well, maybe a bit. I've know Kraven a lot longer than you have. Trust me.

How?

Don't think that he and I -my Kraven, not yours- were never together. The Kraven I know and the one you know are really one in the same. It's confusing, I'm not going to try to explain it right now.

Okay, so explain away self.

There's no need to get cocky. Well, I know you're mad at him. But you need to see it from his point of view. He comes in and sees you lying there, bleeding and unconscious, his reaction was understandable. But I'm on your side here.

That's nice to know.

Shut up. Okay now, I know you don't want him to get hurt. Just try to explain it to him, slowly, so he gets it. I'm not saying he's slow, but I know Kraven and he won't want to see it your way right away. If you need to break it off, please get back together. Don't make the same mistake that we did.

And what would that be what?

You've had dreams about the plan to kill the elders right, well, one day K was off with Lucian...well let's just say they didn't get back until late. That was just the beginning. He then proceeded to tell me that Lucian was better. That was the last thing he said. I knocked him out and left him down in the sewers and went home.

Ouch. That stings.

When he woke up he came back to the mansion and tried to find me. I was in the dojo, shooting at ceramic heads, and about turned the gun on him.

I would have.

I know, I'm you remember? Any way, he took the gun out of my hand and led me back to his room. He actually gets down on his knees and is groveling. It was kind of pathetic, to tell you the truth.

It turns out that he was drunk, the two of them did do something but he wasn't thinking clearly after, he was mad he told me. I don't know why, but I forgave him for it.

Why?

Because he told me something he'd never said before. He looked me in the eye, and with the most honesty you could imagine, he told me he loved me.

He told me that today too, well, I guess two weeks or so ago, but yeah, you know what I mean.

Yes I know. So promise yourself that you'll give you and him another chance. Don't screw it up like we almost did. Okay?

Okay. I'll try.

Good night Romeo.

Go find K and fuck his brains out.

Will do. Ciao.

"I just had a conversation with myself. Do you think I'm crazy?" Soren asked the man in the bed next to him.

"Yes. I don't know what happened with you and that other boy, but need to work over your differences before you both get hurt."

Soren nodded and picked up the note off his lap and read it over once more before putting it back on the table. "I guess you're right. Good night sir."

"Night kid." He said, turning out his own light, and Soren doing the same.

A/N: Thanks to Louis du Lioncourt for reviewing my fic. Here's the lolliepop I promised for the last chapter. This chapter is longer than the last one...which was one of the shortest I think I've written for this fic yet. So I made up for it in this one. The next chapter may take a while seeing as how I haven't written it yet. I've finally caught up to myself, and now I need to get writing again.