A/N: Thanks for the reviewing. I had three exams today, thanks to those who wished me good luck. I have more coming this week but I decided to get a chapter out for you guys! So here it is…chapter three. Italics are Veronica's visions of Lilly in the chapter. By the way…upon request, Twinkletot69 is my beta. Question to all the readers, do you think Logan and Veronica will get back together in the show? Well, just curious of your opinions. Thanks. And onward with the chapter…
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Veronica drifted to sleep that night as Lilly came to her in her dreams.
"Veronica, why are you so worried" Lilly asked her best friend.
"I'm not, I just, I don't know. Logan Echolls. Again. What about when you said me and Duncan were meant to be and what about that psychic?" Veronica asked. She needed to know what Lilly thought. That's how she would make up her mind. Through Lilly.
"Veronica, hello? Where have you been the last two years? You are so not that Veronica anymore. Damn girl, sometimes I wonder why you weren't like this when I was alive. And as for the psychic, who do you think knows me better? You or some old lady? You, Veronica. You."
Veronica smiled to herself. She knew Lilly. She reminded herself of their friendship. Sometimes, she hated these dreams but loved them at the same time. If this was the only way she could see Lilly, she would take it.
"So you like this Veronica better?"
"Yes, and hell, I think you should go for it…with Logan. I mean, after all, Duncan can get a little boring. And you're just not into boring guys anymore V" From what Veronica could see, it looked like Lilly really wanted this. Lilly really wanted her to go after him. God, she loved Lilly. And at that moment, she realized, that maybe, just maybe…she loved Logan too.
Veronica's POV:
I was getting ready to open my door and leave for school, when there he is. Offering me a ride.
"Need a ride?" He looks sexy today. Like he woke up early this morning in attempt to get me to lust after him. Mission: Success.
"Do you think that's the best idea? I mean, everyone will see us show up together" Yeah, he looks fucking hot today, but I still have to think of school. Of the people. Of Duncan.
"Veronica, I know I once said 'secrets are kinda hot' but they're not. Not with you and me. Were not good with secrets. I told you that I'd back off if that's what you want"
I have to make this decision and now. I think back on what Lilly said. I think you should go for it…with Logan. I lean towards his lips and he bends down to meet mine. This is something I've truly missed about Logan Echolls. The way his kisses weren't always deep and so damn soap opera-ish. When I need them to be, they are rough and bold. Our hands are roaming and after that kiss, I contemplate skipping school. Fuck Neptune. But for some reason, I wanna go. I wanna get it over with. Duncan will be there and we'll have to talk. One less thing I've got to do tomorrow.
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Logan's POV:
Despite my plans, Veronica and I decide to walk into school separately. On the way over, she said some shit about needing to talk to Duncan first. I understand that. I get it. Part of me thinks I should be the one talking to him, but she insisted.
Damn, I forgot. Meg. The baby. I forgot to tell Veronica. Fuck, I need to tell her. It's not really my place though. Duncan should have told her. He should have told her a while ago. The only reason I know is because I overheard Meg's teary-fucking-eyed confession. Duncan was such a dick about it too. He looked sincerely over-whelmed for about a whole two seconds and then he told her to keep it quiet for a while. She was fucking hysterical and all he could say was, "Hey, could we keep this on the DL for a little while longer." And that's around the time I wanted to vomit all over him. I mean, I know I can be a dick too, but if some girl told me she was having my kid, damn, I'd take the prick mask off at least for her. Oh well, all in good timing. Veronica will find out one way or another.
I look around and mentally curse myself. I can't get Mars off my mind. I spot Wallace and figure its time to see what he thought of dinner last night.
I see Dick coming up to me and I feel like I don't have time for this. This 'were in eighth grade' shit. I know what he's going to say. How much of a bitch Veronica is, how many girls want me. How I should be with someone, anyone but her. I don't give a fuck. He'll see it one day. I know he will. Someday, someone is just going to walk into his life and not give two fucks about his feelings. And she'll be the world to him. Just like Veronica is to me.
"I know you heard and I'm not ready for your shit, so save it" I say it with some anger. I feel like I owe that much to Veronica. I owe her so much. I know that if she hadn't been there for me when she was, I would be six feet under. Right next to my mom.
"What the hell dude? I didn't even say anything?"
"Yeah, but you were going to. Something's about Veronica." My voice was getting increasingly louder. I couldn't care less. "Fuck it Dick, I want the whole world to know. I fucking love her. Yeah, me…Logan Echolls. I love Veronica Mars. So fuck you. Don't you ever say anything about her."
I felt like it needed to be said. He needed to hear me say that. I look around and notice, stares. Everyone's looking, looking at me like I'm insane. Sometimes I hate that people exist. Why cant it just be Veronica and I…without the constant shit from our friends. She gets it from her dad and Weevil and Wallace, and I get it from all the 09-ers. Fuck the 09-ers. They have no damn clue how fucking incredible she is. That's why I was such a jackass to her. I knew I couldn't have her. It killed me. Not having her was the death of me. I had to be an ass. To keep me from demanding her to take me back.
Dick's just staring at me. He looks pissed.
"Alright, dude, chill. Listen, if you love her, like for real, then I ain't got shit to say" Damn, finally. Finally someone backs the fuck off.
"Thanks man" That's all I say, that's all I need to say. He gets it. He knows. Somewhere in that small brain of his, he gets that I love her. He gets that I need her.
Just as I turn around, my face connects with someone's fist. What the hell? I look up after falling to the ground and see Duncan. Shit, I should have seen this coming. Veronica is his girlfriend after all. I mentally cringe. His girlfriend.
"Logan, what the fuck?" And I honestly think that's the first time I've ever heard him say fuck. I try not to laugh, but hell, it was kinda humorous.
And then I realize, he thinks I'm laughing at the situation.
"Duncan, I was laughing cause you said 'fuck', that's all" My voice sounds as though I surrendered, but I mentally make note, that this time, I will fight for her. "Look, D, I'm sorry. Really. But you get it right? You have to. You have to know. She's not yours anymore. She can't be Duncan. Damn, wake up. She's changed so much since Lilly died. She's different. I love her Duncan" And with that, I think Duncan just shit himself.
"Love?" He questions. As if my answer will change.
"Love. I have this weakness for her Duncan. She's the fucking fire inside of me I can't put out. Hell, I don't want to put out. And as much as it killed me to see her move on to you, I'd rather see her move on then never see her again. She's like my forbidden fruit. Damn, I know I am not allowed, but I have to. I have to have her Duncan. Do you still love her, honestly" I ask. I'm pleading. My eyes are saying 'Please don't love her'
"Damn Logan, I don't know. How can I think when you say something like that to me?" He sighs and it seems like he's come to a conclusion. "I know this much, I do love her, but its sure as hell not as much as that confession I just heard. I don't think I've ever experienced something like that" He kinda looks sad at his last remark. And there we are, in the middle of Neptune High. He's letting go of her.
"You'll find it man, in right time. You'll find it" He will. He'll find the girl who brings him to his fucking knees. He'll find his very own Veronica Mars.