A/N: I do not own the Teen Titans. Trust me, you'd know if I did.

Chapter 5: Breakdown

"I see your thinking spot hasn't changed much," said a voice from behind him.

He quickly turned around and saw Raven, holding her arms against the cold, wet air. "Yeah, well, why change a good thing?" he said with a fake smile.

"Starfire said you looked a little upset," she said walking over to him.

"And they sent you out here to make sure I was okay, right?" he asked with a bitter laugh.

"Pretty much," she said sitting down next to him. She tucked her knees up under her chin and looked out over the gray horizon. "So… what's going on?"

"Nothing," he lied with a sigh.

"You've always been a horrible liar, Beast Boy," she said dryly. "Tell me what the matter is."

"I don't really feel comfortable talking to you," he said in an almost cold voice. "I mean, it's not that you really care."

"I care," she said, but her voice suggested otherwise.

"Yeah, right," he said in a chuckle. "I'm sure you wouldn't have come out here if they hadn't made you."

"Okay, that's true," she sighed. "But it's not because I don't care. I just… I don't know how to deal with you."

"And what's that supposed to mean?" he asked a little offended.

Raven sighed sadly and closed her eyes. "Beast Boy, you know that we don't have the best of friendships. I mean, we almost did, but time… time just pushed us further apart. We're two different people with different ideas of how life should be lived. You like to drive around in a fast car and play video games. I like to sit in silence to read and think. That's what I mean by I don't know how to deal with you. We don't have any common ground."

"So why did you come down here to make me feel better?" he asked in an almost angry voice. "You're not one to be made to do anything you don't want to."

"That's true," she said feeling the anger venting through him. "So obviously I must want you to be okay. Like I told you in the hospital, I'm your teammate and your friend. It's my responsibility to make sure you're alright."

"You're responsibility," he smiled bitterly. "Well it's so nice to know that you care so much about me." He didn't know where this was coming from. He had come out there to get rid of the guilt he felt for her. Now he felt anger that he couldn't control.

"I didn't come out here to fight," said Raven trying to suppress her own anger. "I came out here to see what was wrong with you. Obviously… it's me." She stood up and shivered in the cold. "I'm sorry I make you so upset. I'm sorry that you feel so much anger towards me. I know it's well deserved and if it will make you feel better I'll do my best to stay out of your way. I hope you feel better." And with that she turned and started climbing the rocks back up to the tower.

Beast Boy felt horrible now. He had gone beyond asshole at this point. First he acts like a pompous jackass, her own words, then he almost kills her, now he was making her feel guilty for no reason. This was too much for him to handle.

"Raven!" he shouted and turned around. She nearly slipped on the wet rocks she was so startled. She turned around and stared at him.

"What?"

He wanted to say so many things. Where should he begin? What should he say? Did she even care? Had he gone too far? "I'm sorry." It was the only thing he lips could form.

"For what?" she asked, her teeth nearly chattering she was so cold.

"I'm sorry… for everything," he sighed.

Raven heard the sadness in his voice, which confused her since only seconds before it had been filled with rage, and started walking back over to him.

"You're not what's wrong with me," he said looking down at the rock he was sitting on. "I'm what's wrong with me. I'm such a horrible person."

"Now why would you say something like that?" she asked crouching down next to him. "You're not a horrible person."

"Yes I am," he said, nearly cutting her off. "And I am so sorry, Raven. I've been nothing but an asshole to you these past few years, and I shouldn't have been. I have a choice about my personality. You don't. You have to be quiet and reserved because of your powers. But I had to be selfish and act like it was your fault you were the way you were. And I even felt anger towards you for it." Then he felt his throat close up and his face grow hot. "And then I nearly killed you. I almost fucking killed you." As these words escaped his mouth his voice cracked and tears filled his eyes.

Raven had really never seen him like this. She wasn't sure what to do. So she did the one thing she felt was right. She wrapped her arms around him and brought him close to her. She was now sitting up on her knees and Beast Boy's head rested on her chest. She caressed his head soothingly and tried to calm him down.

"I'm sorry," he said again and again into her chest. "I'm so sorry."

"Oh Beast Boy," she said in a quiet voice. She lifted his head from her chest and held it in her hands. "You have nothing to be sorry for." She wiped his tears away with her thumbs. This didn't help him much and he just cried even harder. She put his head back to her chest and rocked back and forth trying to hush him. "Ssh, you can't help feeling resentment towards me. I've said my share of mean things to you. It's just the way our weird little friendship works. And I know you never meant any harm to come to me."

He had never really cried like this before. He felt like he was letting out all of the repressed emotions he had kept over the years. From all of the sadness that had occurred in his life. Between the sobbing breaths he took he listened to Ravens heart beating. Her chest was warm and her heart was soothing. He realized that he had almost ended that. He had almost made her heart stop beating forever. He had almost made the warmth of her body leave her, never to return.

Raven could feel all of the emotions he was feeling and she did her best to distance herself from them. She couldn't afford to feel all of this sadness, this regret, this mournfulness, this guilt. This wasn't the Beast Boy she had come to know. She wasn't even sure where he was anymore. She even wondered where she was. Normally she would never have let him hold her, or she hold him. This was beyond odd or even strange. But she didn't feel like this was wrong. She knew he needed to be comforted, and of all the people to give him this she knew that she was the only one that he could believe. Because she would never had done this. But since she was, it must have been genuine. She must have really wanted him to feel better.

By now it was raining and it was cold. The rain poured down on them and their hot breath wafted into the air in thick puffs. They shivered in each other's arms and held each other closer for warmth. The icy rain dripped off of Ravens face and onto Beast Boy's head. They were quite a sight to see. Finally Beast Boy had calmed down and felt the courage to release his grip of her and actually look her in the eyes. Her face was wet and cold, yet at the same time warm and comforting to him.

"I think we should go inside," she said with a soft smile. He nodded and she quickly wrapped them in a black aura in the shape of a raven and teleported them back inside the tower.

The black aura faded away and revealed the hallway that lead to both of their rooms. They were both soaking wet and shivering from the cold. The tower was warm and it was a relief to their chilled skin.

Beast Boy was shaking. Not so much from the cold but from all of the crying he had done. It had taken a lot out of him and he felt quite drained from it. Raven looked at him and rubbed his arm.

"Are you going to be okay?" she asked sweetly. This was definitely a Raven that had never been seen before.

He gave her a weak nod and said, "Yeah, I think so." He couldn't bring himself to look her in the eyes. He suddenly felt ashamed for the way he had behaved, they way he had cried not only in front of her, but upon her.

"I'm going to go meditate in my room," she said, trying to make eye contact with him. "If you need to talk just knock on the door."

"You don't mind me interrupting your meditation?" he asked, finally looking at her.

"Not today," she said in a more "Raven" tone and with a little smile.

"Okay, thanks," he said weakly smiling back. They slowly parted, but Beast Boy quickly turned back. "Oh, and Raven?" She turned back around. "I would really appreciate it if you didn't tell the others about… what happened out there. I know they're probably going to ask you."

"Don't worry, Beast Boy," she said upon reaching her door. "I'm not one to kiss and tell." She looked at him and saw him look confused and even… blushing? "It's just an expression."

"Uh, yeah, I know," he said awkwardly rubbing the back of his head. "Well, I'll see ya later."

"Okay," she said and then entered her room.

Beast Boy was going to go into his room, but he decided he would rather take a shower. He was still grimy from the hospital, cold from the rain, and his eyes and face burned and itched from the tears. He knew a shower would make him at least look a little more normal.

After his shower he went out into the common room. Only Cyborg was in there, sitting on the couch flipping through the channels. He plopped down next to him and asked, "Hey, watcha doin?"

"Uh, just channel surfin," said Cyborg, a little surprised with Beast Boy's attitude.

"You wanna play some video games?" asked Beast Boy with a hopeful smile.

"Sure," said Cyborg smiling back.

Beast Boy hopped off the couch, set up one of the games, and grabbed the two controllers. He tossed Cyborg one and the two began a robot battle. Cyborg couldn't believe the change in Beast Boy. He was… normal. He hadn't been like this in weeks thanks to the car and the accident.

The rest of the day went by pretty smoothly. Beast Boy started feeling like his old self again and was enjoying the feeling. He even cracked a few corny jokes and made the other three laugh, but that was only because they couldn't believe that after all he had been through his sense of humor hadn't changed a bit. There was even a disagreement at lunch between soy milk and regular milk.

"I am so glad to see that you are feeling better," said Starfire with a smile.

"I'm glad to feel better, Star," said Beast Boy smiling back. "Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go lie down. I kinda had a rough morning."

"Okay, see ya man," said Cyborg. Beast Boy game him a parting smile and headed off to his room. The moment he was gone the three Titans quickly began to talk. "Okay, am I the only one who wants to know what the hell Raven did to him?"

"Yeah, no kidding," said Robin scratching his head. "He's acting… normal."

"Is that a bad thing?" asked Starfire. "I thought we wanted him to be normal."

"Hey, I'm not sayin that this is a bad thing," said Cyborg quickly. "I'm just sayin that it kinda came outta nowhere."

"She must have given him some talking," said Robin. "Though I can't imagine what Raven would have said to change him back to his old fun loving self." The three Titans pondered all of this for most of the day.