I was the last one off the boat and when I stepped onto Kilika port for the second time, I couldn't help but feel odd. I didn't feel right, but then again... Isn't it natural. I'm feeling the after affects of losing someone dear. I take in a deep breath of fresh air filled with the scent of sea. Everyone around me was smiling and ready to buy potions or various items necessary for our trip. I looked around at the new Kilika, everything was rebuilt and on the verge of being complete. My hands were clasp behind me as i walked on the planks through the village. Everything was so clean and many villagers were helping to finish the town. There is another temple here, the Kilika Temple. The temples gave me my Aeons, somehow i miss my Aeons. Defeating them in order to vanquish sin altogether only pained me. The devise was Yu Yevon, it controlled every one of my Aeons as if they were being possessed. We had to defeat them. I killed my own Aeons.
"Yuna..." Lulu called out behind me, interrupting my very thoughts. I turned around to look at her, i felt so far away from everyone. I nodded my head as if telling her to continue. "We stay for one night, tomorrow morning when you wake, we will travel to Luca." With that, Lulu turned her back towards me and continued her conversation with Kimari and the salesperson. I just stood there, my legs would not move. I remember, in Luca... you saved me from the Al Bhed. Then, we had not liked that race. I was captured and you had to destroy the Machina in order to find me. You were successful and you don't know how much I was happy when i saw that you were there, that you had came to find me. A part of me wonders if you did that only because i was the High Summoner and you were doing your job as a Guardian or that you had saved me... because you loved me.
"Lady Yuna!" A polite male voice called out to me. I turned around to see another former Summoner. Isaaru stood close by with a bright masculine smile across his face after seeing me. I smiled back to him and spread my arms apart, bringing them close together and laying one hand on top of the other as if i were carrying an invisible ball. This was our simble, kind of like a formal gesture of Spira. I met Isaaru in one of the Temples and he was readying himself for the battle of Sin. Of course i beat him to it and defeated Sin myself.
"Isaaru" I walked up to him and we exchanged polite gestures and glances. "I haven't seen you in a long while. What are you doing in Kilika?" I asked him watching him intently.
"Oh, I'm visiting Dona. Not that i want to, but Its just a friendly visit." Isaaru opened his mouth and let out a small laugh. I laughed with him and looked away. Dona was another Summoner to which i had met on my Pilgramage. We were halfway competing with each other to see who would defeat Sin first. Dona was dark skinned, she was beautiful in her own way and wore a yellow outfit, revealing alot of skin and she had a jewel right in between her dark eyes. She usually went by her saying 'i get what i want.' I looked back at Isaaru to see that his gaze had been on me the entire time. "And what about you, Lady Yuna?" He asked me suddenly after we stood in silence.
"Im on a journey." I said looking halfway up to the sky. Of course i was reminded of you again, but i couldn't dare tell Isaaru about you. I was focused on Isaaru's gaze again when i turned my head. He had this odd calmness around him, as if his aura were constantly pleasing and relaxing. He had light brown hair that came to his shoulders, but it was always pulled back in a high pony tail. Also, he wore a male's Summoner's outfit, it suited him quite well.
"A journey? Why so soon, the Great Calm has just started. Oh, but its all thanks to you, Lady Yuna. I want to thank you properly for fulfilling a Summoner's duty at defeating our greatest enemy." Isaaru bowed imitating the same gesture i did before as if he were carrying a large sphere. "I was unsuccessful, but you.. Lady Yuna.. you are an inspiration. We all have decided our fate the moment we became a Summoner. We were all prepared to lose our lives saving Spira, but you were a survivor. Somehow, you had defeated Sin without taking your life, and we all want to thank you and from now on, you will be remembered for as long as Spira lives." He looked at me with another smile and bowed to me with the gesture. I watched him, appalled by what he had just said and i was speechless. Everyone assumes it was I who had defeating our worst fears. Sin was dead all because of me? It was all wrong, I did not defeat Sin, that was you. I couldn't have done it without you and yet nobody even seems to care that you are gone. No one takes you for granted for saving Spira, even when you weren't even originally from here.
"No.. it wasn't just I... I had my guardians with me. I wasn't the only one who brought the Calm." I told him, hiding the sadness i held so deep within.
"Ah, yes. Forgive me, i have forgotten about the duty of a guardian. Of course, I could not have defeated Sin without my guardians as well." He looked at me closely with a grin. "Come, will you be staying for the night?" Isaaru asked me, reaching out a hand and grasping my arm. He begun to walk, leading me toward a cottage. I did not want to go where he was taking me, but his grasp was already tightening.
"Yes... but we leave tomorrow morning." I said honestly walking helplessly behind him. We came upon a small cottage, and immidiatly i knew it was Dona's home. He pushed me inside as he quickly closed the curtain door and turned towards me. My eyes shifted to the other direction and gazed upon a small table with a few cups scattered, one was even fallen on the floor.
"Lady Yuna, I was hoping to see you actually, and if i didnt... well i was planning on finding you in Besaid. I found this sphere while traveling up near Zanarkand. You know, that Guardian that was always with you. He didn't look to be of your kind, but he had the blonde hair and blue eyes..." his voice trailed off as he was looking deep in a chest, though... i knew exactly who he was talking about. He was talking about you.
"Tidus... His name was Tidus..." I corrected him and took a step closer to him, my skirt shifted and lay still against my smooth thigh. "He was a guardian, a very important one..." I half mumbled, hoping he did not hear me. Isaaru turned around and held out a crimson sphere to me. The small sphere fit perfectly in his palm as he kept his arms extended.
"Please, you do not need to thank me. I did not watch it all because once i saw this young man i knew it was for you. Please, take it." He pleaded me and i looked away. Was I ready to watch this sphere that I had not scene? If Tidus wanted me to see it... couldn't he had gave it to me before our departure? I hesitated to take the sphere, but nonetheless, I extended my arm and wrapped my palm around the round object. This sphere could hold soething im not ready to see...
"I..Isaaru..." I clutched the round object and held it close to my heart. Isaaru said... he saw you in this sphere.
"Go ahead... watch it." He sat down on Dona's bed and looked up at me with a grin. He was happy to have given me something so precious. I took a deep breath and clicked the sphere on. I recongized the place... it was Zanarkand. I don't know when he shot this, but I do know that i was close to when we had separated. The first few seconds where just that image and lines from neglect.
"Yuna..." I recognized his voice, it was indeed Tidus's. I took in another deep breath and forced myself to watch the rest of the video. My heart ached as he moved the camera so that i was looking upon his face. So young and so handsome, i couldn't even believe i was laying eyes on this. Tidus smiled and took a deep breath before speaking again.
"I don't know when you do see this, Yuna... but I know that i do not have much longer to live. I will disappear soon and Sin will be our last battle together. I know I have said so many things, I told you that we would lead a life close to one another and enjoy the ways of life, and my new life in Spira. Im sorry. Those dreams are just that, they are dreams. Even I... I am a dream. At this moment, you do not know that. I... i don't want to hurt you anymore, Yuna." Tidus let his head drop in his palms. I could tell he was stressed and that he must have done a lot of thinking while preparing this video.
"I don't even know if this darn thing even works. You know...Spira.. is so different than Zanarkand... I wish i could show you.. about Zanarkand a thousand years ago. Though, I do not wish to go back... I would rather live here with you and the others, Yuna. Traveling with you... honestly, at first i didn't care to much for all of you, I was selfish and all I wanted was to go back to Zanarkand. That was the only thing I thought of..." He looked up to the darkened sky and sighed, lifting his hand and brushing it through his hair.
"But you know, over time... i grew to care about you guys. Wakka... Lulu... Kimari... Rikku... but most of all, i cared about you. Something struck me that moment i saw you in Besaid, walking out of the temple from praying. I didn't understand then, but now i do. I will save you, I will gladly give up my life in order to save yours. heh... i must look rediculous." he began to laugh and lean back into the broken blocks of ruins. He looked up at the starry sky, but all i could see was his blonde hair sticking out from where he was laying, and his arms resting under his head.
"From all I've been through with you guys... you're all like family to me now. The family I never had... Yuna... i have one thing to tell you before i go..." Tidus flipped over so that he was staring right into the sphere, my heart melted at seeing his calm gentle expression. My hands urged to carress his tan skin and run my fingertips through his hair. My eyes began to water as i continued to watch and my heart was ripping in two.
"I love you.. Yuna. That night in the lake, that kiss was real. I love you, forever. Even when im not there, I'll always be thinking of you. There is one thing i ask for in return, and that is to never forget me." He smiled into the sphere and then it turned black. I tried to swallow, but the lump was already there in my throat and tears were running down my cheeks, now in streams and dripping onto my lap. The lump was getting bigger and I just wept from a whole new broken heart. Watching this sphere only made me miss you so much, your not here and yet i feel so close. The longing and the yearning... its tearing me apart. Isaaru is sitting next to me, but he doesn't dare touch me. I lift my hands and cover my eyes, wiping away the salty liquid, but its useless because more tears fall from my dark lashes. My light brown hair falls in my face, hiding it and i whimper in my palms. The sphere drops to the cottage floor with a 'thud' and rolls under the couch, but I don't care. My mind is on just you and knowing that seeing you in the Farplane will be even more heartbreaking. Please... if you break me one more time... you'll only break my soul.
Im sorry for any misspelled words x.x I wrote this at night and i was tired, may correct later. In the mean time... i hope u enjoyed Chapter six and i am currently working on Chapter seven