That night we all slept at the Inn, though I could not sleep. My mind wouldn't let me and so I lay there, staring at the ceiling and daydreaming. All I could think about was you and meeting you in person. After I had watched your sphere, i stood up, clutching it, and bowed to Isaaru in gratitude. He shook his head and told me it was alright, he would do anything for me, a high summoner. I'm not just that, I am Yuna of Besaid. Since then, I could not pry my hands from your sphere. It was like a last memory that I had to protect and keep safe or i will lose it, losing you along with it. Once I was in a private room, the inn had offered, I watched that deep crimson sphere over and over. The tears just wouldn't stop and the lump remained deep in my throat as if threatening to stop my breathing.
By morning, I was the last one to climb from my bed and approach my fellow guardians. When sleeping, I had dropped the sphere to which had fallen on the soft ground. It was not damaged, thankfully. My eyes felt heavy and drowsy and all I wanted to do was sleep, be away from reality. Luca was our new destination, we would go by boat once more. Everyone gathered at the port readying themselves to leave. Isaaru was there and so was Dona and her guardian. Everyone wanted to have a chance to tell me goodbye and to thank me for the Calm that would last an eternity. Nevertheless, I smiled and shook hands, I accepted thanks and gave out welcomes. Finally, it was time for our departure and I gave the people from Kilika Spira's honored gesture and then I turned my back to them, heading toward the boat.
"I'm sure... we would meet again, Lady Yuna." Isaaru spoke just as I had taken foot on the ship. I turned around and smiled to him, bowing yet again. He looked small and vulnerable from where i was standing and I admired his sense of care. He smiled back and watched as the ship began to set sail. My body leaned against the railing as I lifted my hands to my mouth.
"I'm sure we will!" I called out to him and let out a chuckle. I could already sense that he was apart of my future. I would indeed see him again for sure. I turned around to see Lulu standing behind, startling me. "Lulu..?" I leaned back against the railing as i had before and looked at her closely. She looked sad and less excited. She didn't even put her chop sticks in her hair, to which she always has in. Lulu looked at me and let out a sigh, walking to the railing beside me.
"And I thought everything was going well..." She spoke with such sadness in her tone, I felt sorry for her. She looked at me and then back out in the ocean. Kilika was far away, you couldn't even see it even if u squinted your eyes. "Chappu... I should not have spoke about him back in Kilika." Chappu was Wakka's brother who was now deceased. Long ago, he left Besaid to join the Crusaders and soon was killed by Sin. Before he was murdered, he had used Machina over his sword Wakka had given him. "I thought he was over his brother's death.. but I was wrong." Lulu looked at me and let out another sorrowful sigh. I wrapped my arms around her and leaned my head against her shoulder.
"I'm sorry, Lulu." I half whispered through parted lips. I truly felt sorry, Lulu loved Wakka and now he was mad at her. There is nothing that hurts more. We both just stood there, gazing out into the ocean off endless water. Silent, and yet we shared everything in those moments.
"It's... alright." She said I could see the faint shape of a smile crossing her face. I looked up to the sky and finally decided to let her in on my secret sphere.
"Hey, Lulu... Want to see something I found in Kilika?" I asked her peering down the railing to the rushing waters below. I didn't wait for her to speak, I just turned around and rummaged through my belongings in a small chest. Finally, wrapped in many cloths and various fabric, i found it. Holding the sphere in my right hand, I walked back to Lulu and handed her the crimson sphere covered in fabric. She took it with a confused expression and opened it. Her eyes lit up at the view, she was in disbelief. "It's a camera sphere... Isaaru... he found it in Zanarkand. He gave it to me and I watched it. Tidus made it..." I smiled at tears welled up at the brims of my eyes. Just the thought of you just makes me even weaker. Lulu watched me and then looked back down at the sphere.
"Y..You sure?" She made sure before flipping it on and watching the very man I love speak through it. I nodded and watched it with her. Except, I wasn't concentrating on the video, I was daydreaming for when i meet you again. "Yuna...I...I just..." She was speechless and looked at me with sadness when the video was over.
"Don't look at me like that Lulu." I warned her and looked back down at the rushing water. "Don't look at me like that..." I knew what she was thinking, she felt sorry for me because you were in the Farplane. I fell to my knees and leaned my elbows on the railing bars, my head in my hands. Lulu was next to me, kneeling down. "Lulu... I don't care if I only get to see him in the Farplane. What matters is..." I hesitated and took in a deep breath of fresh air before continuing. "What matters is.. that I will get to see him again." I sighed and looked up at her, staring deep in her dark eyes.
"I'm sorry, I know.. we will get to see him again. You know.. I think Isaaru has gotten in interest in you... If i do say so myself." Lulu changed the subject, now sitting next to me near the edge. I looked at her with confusion and immediately began to blush.
"Lulu... Honestly... me and Isaaru! That's obsurd!" I began to laugh, forgetting about the sphere. She did that on purpose, to cheer me up. There really was nothing else to do on the boat, but joke around or make each other feel better. "As for you and Wakka... well that's another story. I wish you two would actually... you know.." I glanced at her for a moment and gave her a bright smile. "Im sure you two will make up in no time at all."
"I hope so..." She chuckled and flipped her braids back that had fallen upon her breasts. "I think... tonight I will talk to him. Apologize for what I had said. About Chappu. I know he is sensitive and I shouldn't have said anything. Thank you Yuna." She told me honestly as i listened and nodded. She was doing the right thing, and I couldn't help but feel better knowing that I had helped her.
"Isaaru... He's only interested in me because I survived from Sin. I defeated Sin and brought the Calm. Everyone admires me because of that. Im getting sick of it." I said harshly, but I didn't care. "Even if Isaaru liked me. My love is only for Tidus, you should know that Lulu. If Tidus is at the Farplane and he is dead, than I have no choice but to live alone." I spoke the truth and brought my knees to my chest, holding them close. "Remember, when I told him I loved him, the moment right before he left me... I knew right then I could never go on loving another man. It was hard enough going through a marriage with Seymour. I was not happy, but seeing him coming to my rescue... fighting all those men just to get to me. I saw his face, Lulu... I saw how he was so jealous of Seymour, I couldn't help but feel happy. I was so delighted knowing he cared for me so much. Did I tell you what happened that day in the Macalania Woods? He kissed me. In that lake... I heard in Kilika that the woods are soon to collapse. They won't live forever. My most precious memories lie in that very lake. I'm scared... that if the woods to break down, so will my memories." I stopped there and just gazed at my knees, which were pressed fiercely against my breasts. It had been so long since the last time I had come clean like this. I told her everything, everything that was on my mind and she listened. She listened to each and every word that came from my mouth.
"I'm sorry, Yuna." The only words that she spoke. I wanted her to say more, but no other words would make me feel better. Either way, it was useless. But just remembering about you made me feel better, I still longed for you and gradually everyone is going to know about my feelings deep down that I had just revealed to Lulu. They don't know how much I suffer without you. My hand trails from my knees down the sphere next to us. I turn it on and watch you. Again.. and again, I could never get enough of you. Lulu watched to, I was glad that she took her time and didn't leave me. She just gazed at the small palm sized sphere as you went on talking, about your life in Spira. You laughed and then I laughed... soon me and Lulu were both watching you over and over and laughing.
I hope you all like my story so far, i promise you it'll get WAY more exciting later in the story. I do apologize for have this chapter late u.u Ive been busy, also i have exams coming up so ive been studying alot lately. Ive been seeing a decrease in commnents, and i ask you... plz comment me. I think i may have said this before, but in a way its my inspiration to write more. bows onegai! Well, until the next chapter I'll be waiting for some reviews biyas
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