Summary: If you don't know what's going on, you need to start at chapter 1!
Disclaimer: "'When I own CSI To-do list'- 1. Put Nick and Sara together. 2. Get Ecklie fired in an extremely entertaining way. 3. Get Grissom a girlfriend. 4..." Has any of this happened yet? Then I don't know own anything! Yet...(grins evily)
Short A/N: Sorry about the last chapter not having a little love note from me! I'm still trying to figure out how stuff works on here! Hope you enjoy this chapter! See A/N at bottom!
"Cath, what is it?" Sara asked, confused. For a moment Catherine's face mirrored Sara's confusion before it turned to one of….relief?
"I just ran the little girl's –"
"Her name's Emily." Sara said sharply.
"Emily's, DNA against, Grissom's." Sara nodded for her to continue as she took a deep breath in an effort to make the butterflies in her stomache stop. "They don't match."
Sara stared at Catherine for a moment, confusion clouding her eyes. "Well, yeah. I could have told you that."
"But I thought you said–But what about the guy you–it wasn't Grissom?"she asked in surprise. "But you're practically head-over-heels–"
"No, it wasn't Grissom!" Sara snapped. "Remember, we're not supposed to assume things, Catherine!" she said in a mocking voice.
"Well I was just 'following the evidence'!" Catherine shot back. "I mean, jeez, Sara! I walk in on you and Grissom sharing a moment, then you tell me you have a kid and that she was concieved at an entomology convention where you met Grissom, knowing full-well that everybody knows you have a thing for him! What would you think if you were in my shoes!" Catherine was almost yelling by now. Luckily Greg must have told everybody to clear out of the DNA lab because nobody came to see what was going on.
"We weren't having 'a moment'!" Sara muttered indignantly. "But I can see where you're coming from." She quickly added at the look Catherine gave her. There was an akward silence.
"So…..Grissom isn't her father?" Catherine asked softly.
Sara shook her head. "No."
"So then, who is? Her father, I mean."
Suddenly Sara looked nervous again. "Uh, I don't know!" she said just a little too quickly. Catherine wasn't totally convinced, but decided not to push further. At least for right now.
"What am I gonna do, Cath?" Sara asked, plopping down in one of the chairs. "The right thing to do is take her in, adopt her, right? I mean really, what choice do I have now?" Sara rambled. "I can't just give her up again! Once was hard enough! But, I'm not a mom, not like you! I don't know how to raise a kid! I'm not good with kids! I mean –"
"Sara stop!" Catherine laughed, holding up a hand like a traffic cop. "Listen to me, Sara. You are better with kids than you think. Remember the Brenda Collins case? You were the only one she would stay with, the only one she trusted! And how do you know you're not a mom? You've probably never been one long enough to know if you are or not!"
Sara's eyes had welled with tears during Catherine's speech. "But how do you know? About me being a mom, I mean. What happens if I mess up? I don't want her to go through what I did. I don't want her to, to end up like me." She closed her eyes as a few tears fell from them.
"Sara, look at me." Catherine said gently. Slowly the other woman complied and lifted her eyes up to Catherine's. "I have no doubt, that you can be a mother. I have no doubt, that you'll do a wonderful job raising Emily. And I have no doubt, that you'll mess up doing it."
Startled, Sara's expression turned from one of self-doubt and sadness to one of total shock and confusion. "What!"
Catherine smiled at her. "I said I have no doubt that you'll mess up raising Emily." Now Sara looked a little hurt, but Catherine continued as if she didn't notice. "I do it all the time with Linds! It's not like parenting comes with a users manual! It's be great if it did, but that's not how it works! You just have to play it by ear, do your best, and pray that they'll turn out all right!"
Sara sniffled and looked at Catherine. "You really think I can do it?"
"Well what have I been saying!"
"Thanks, Cath." Sara smiled and then did something that surprised Catherine. She gave her a hug.
When they parted Catherine said, "You're welcome. Now lets go get you cleaned up. Has Emily been told yet?" she asked, shifting into mother mode.
"Nope, not yet…."
When they got to the women's restroom and Sara had washed her face, she said, "Hey Cath?"
"Yeah?"
"I know we've had our differences and stuff in the past, but for a minute there you were…..you were like the mother and friend I never had. And that really means a lot to me."
Catherine smiled at her and replied, "Anytime, Sara. Anytime. Now lets go find the others. You know you're gonna have to tell 'em, right?"
"Can't they just find out when Emily does?" Sara asked meekly.
"You should tell them before. Because I think once Emily knows, you two won't want to be seperated any longer than you already have been."
A/N:HAHAHA! I TRICKED YOU ALL! Ya'll thought it was Grissom's kid, but it wasn't! Yay my plan is working! Anyways, I'd just like to say thanks to all who have reviewed my story! I hope ya'll are using your CSI skills to figure out where I'm going with this! (hint-hint) Sorry about the cliffhangers, (I couldn't resist!) but I'll try to restrain myself in future chapters!Anyways, I will be starting school on the 22nd so it'll be longer in between chapters, but they're still coming! Remember to leave me a review! Oh! One more thing! If ya'll read my other fic and liked it, do you think I should continue it? E-mail me or tell me in a review! Thanks!
Spooky-Phoenix
