DISCLAIMER: I do not Beyblade or any characters.
Thank-you to of my reviews: CrazyJen, Vialana, Nancys-little-Obsession, Rimnerel Ayasugi, I luv Kai, Nightvixen, white wolf, Assassin of the Shadows, D.G., Mizu_Tenshi, Amara, Rumi-Chan, Kiina, Feelin Glayish, Porticulis.
[I'm sorry if I missed anyone, my computer is going spaz and won't let me log in to my email account etc...]
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REVELATIONS
"Every one deserves a second chance guys. I know that I am hot-headed and stubborn most of the time but I truly believe this and some people...some people deserve as many chances as it takes. Kai is one of those people and I am not going to give up. I forgave him for betraying us in Russia, I forgave him for this," he gestured to his face, "I've already forgiven him and I'm the one he hurt, so why can't you guys?"
I heard him say that and I was totally stunned. I'm so very glad that the others were not paying me, well my physical being, any attention at all because I think my mouth dropped open and my eyes quite possibly bulged out as well. And I can honestly say that that... well that, would have been beyond embarrassing. For the second time today I felt tears gather in my eyes. I just didn't understand what was happening to me, I was falling apart at the seams. And it was, it all is Tyson's fault, he makes me feel like this. And I don't care for it one bit.
I'm backing away now, I am hoping that he won't turn and find me. I swore to myself yesterday that I would protect Tyson from those who badger him and give him a hard time. But now I realise that, as far as I can tell, I'm the only one that treated him badly... I race around the corner; my thoughts are all over the place. Various memories come back to me. I see my Grandfather's face. I can hear his voice echoing in my mind. His demands that I be perfect, that I must never be anything less that the best. His face fades and another takes it's place. Boris, I despise him, but I have to acknowledge that his hounding, his punishments - all of it has made me a stronger person, at least physically. His mocking laughter dissipates and I am surrounded by the feeling, the adrenaline rush, the power I feel when I control Black Dranzer. But I recognize now that power fades and finally my mind is flooded with pictures of Tyson; his annoying laughter, his gross eating habits, his smile. I slow to a stop a couple of blocks away and the last picture that flickers and stays is one that has replayed over and over. He is on his knees in the middle of an icy lake, his hand is outstretched towards me, and his eyes are pleading with me. He was asking me silently to accept his hand; to accept his help. But what I never realised was that he was asking me to accept him, as all that he is.
I realise that I do not know them - at all. But Tyson really just keeps surprising me. He is so stubborn, very competitive and incredibly annoying. Yet at the same time he is very sweet, almost childlike in his naivety, and exceedingly loyal and what I find most surprising is his forgiving heart. For the entire time that I have known him, I have done nothing to make him want to be my friend, but he has made us so, simply by insisting that we are. I have treated him badly, talked down to him and berated him, and he has forgiven me.
I heard what Rei said to me yesterday after I ...after I pushed him, he told me that Tyson forgave me for what I did to the team in Russia. I didn't believe it, I didn't want to, but after hearing it from his lips, hearing it in his own words. I couldn't deny it any longer. And I just wanted to cry, I didn't deserve this, I didn't deserve his forgiveness, but I had it. And I felt almost dirty, I was ashamed and I was a coward.
I don't know how long I was standing there on the footpath, thinking about Tyson. I snapped out of it and shook my head to clear it of my recent thoughts. I realised that I hadn't moved in a while, I turned to go when I heard a voice call my name. I turned instinctively although I knew it was Tyson. I had long ago memorised the sound of his voice. I took a deep breath in and I waited for him to catch me up.
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I rounded yet another corner - and there he was just standing there looking right at me, his storm grey hair blowing in the gentle wind. He turned to walk away but I couldn't let him do that. So I called out his name. I saw him whirl around; he had stopped again so I made my way to him and slowed to a walk when I got to a few feet in front of him.
"Why did you go away?" I asked. He didn't answer me just keeping looking at me, more accurately through me So I tried again, "Ok then, why did you turn away just now when you saw me coming towards you?" He didn't answer right away, just blinked and I noticed his eyes finally focus totally on me.
"I didn't see you."
"Yeah right Kai, I was right there."
"I'm sorry, I didn't see you," he said distractedly
I face faulted, did he just apologize to me. I couldn't believe it I convinced myself that I must be dreaming.
He looked at me, truly looked at me. I saw his eyes roam over my face; I saw the change in his eyes. He reached out a hand as if to touch me and I gulped. What had happened to the Kai that I knew, he was acting really weird.
My eyes closed involuntarily and I felt his cold fingers touch my bruised cheek, I flinched in spite of myself and he immediately withdrew his fingers as if he had been scolded. I mentally kicked myself at that - for so long all I have wanted was for him to touch me, to hold me, hell to even acknowledge me as a person and when he finally seems to be doing something along those lines I had to flinch!
"'I am sorry Tyson."
His whispered words drifted to me as if they were carried upon a breeze from a far away place. I revel in his acknowledgement of the pain he has caused me and I open my eyes slowly to assure him that I am alright, I am met with nothing. He was gone again. I twirled around madly but there was nothing, he had disappeared. It was a very irritating habit he had gotten himself into. I sink to the ground. I bring my knees up to my chest, and I breath in deeply, I can still smell his scent, it hung on the breeze, it swirled around me and I felt warmth, it was almost as if his presence was encircling me, embracing me in an almighty hug. And I cherish this feeling; I know that I always will, I just wish it could be really real.
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A/N: I'm sorry if they seem to be OoC in this chapter but, well...um... I don't really have any excuse. ^_^;;; I just I hope that you like it anyways and hopefully it doesn't come across as too sappy ^_^
***Hope that you are pleased - I should be studying -_-;;; (uh oh!) but I was at the computer, I got an idea and I ran with it ~^_^~
be safe
-BG
Thank-you to of my reviews: CrazyJen, Vialana, Nancys-little-Obsession, Rimnerel Ayasugi, I luv Kai, Nightvixen, white wolf, Assassin of the Shadows, D.G., Mizu_Tenshi, Amara, Rumi-Chan, Kiina, Feelin Glayish, Porticulis.
[I'm sorry if I missed anyone, my computer is going spaz and won't let me log in to my email account etc...]
~*~
REVELATIONS
"Every one deserves a second chance guys. I know that I am hot-headed and stubborn most of the time but I truly believe this and some people...some people deserve as many chances as it takes. Kai is one of those people and I am not going to give up. I forgave him for betraying us in Russia, I forgave him for this," he gestured to his face, "I've already forgiven him and I'm the one he hurt, so why can't you guys?"
I heard him say that and I was totally stunned. I'm so very glad that the others were not paying me, well my physical being, any attention at all because I think my mouth dropped open and my eyes quite possibly bulged out as well. And I can honestly say that that... well that, would have been beyond embarrassing. For the second time today I felt tears gather in my eyes. I just didn't understand what was happening to me, I was falling apart at the seams. And it was, it all is Tyson's fault, he makes me feel like this. And I don't care for it one bit.
I'm backing away now, I am hoping that he won't turn and find me. I swore to myself yesterday that I would protect Tyson from those who badger him and give him a hard time. But now I realise that, as far as I can tell, I'm the only one that treated him badly... I race around the corner; my thoughts are all over the place. Various memories come back to me. I see my Grandfather's face. I can hear his voice echoing in my mind. His demands that I be perfect, that I must never be anything less that the best. His face fades and another takes it's place. Boris, I despise him, but I have to acknowledge that his hounding, his punishments - all of it has made me a stronger person, at least physically. His mocking laughter dissipates and I am surrounded by the feeling, the adrenaline rush, the power I feel when I control Black Dranzer. But I recognize now that power fades and finally my mind is flooded with pictures of Tyson; his annoying laughter, his gross eating habits, his smile. I slow to a stop a couple of blocks away and the last picture that flickers and stays is one that has replayed over and over. He is on his knees in the middle of an icy lake, his hand is outstretched towards me, and his eyes are pleading with me. He was asking me silently to accept his hand; to accept his help. But what I never realised was that he was asking me to accept him, as all that he is.
I realise that I do not know them - at all. But Tyson really just keeps surprising me. He is so stubborn, very competitive and incredibly annoying. Yet at the same time he is very sweet, almost childlike in his naivety, and exceedingly loyal and what I find most surprising is his forgiving heart. For the entire time that I have known him, I have done nothing to make him want to be my friend, but he has made us so, simply by insisting that we are. I have treated him badly, talked down to him and berated him, and he has forgiven me.
I heard what Rei said to me yesterday after I ...after I pushed him, he told me that Tyson forgave me for what I did to the team in Russia. I didn't believe it, I didn't want to, but after hearing it from his lips, hearing it in his own words. I couldn't deny it any longer. And I just wanted to cry, I didn't deserve this, I didn't deserve his forgiveness, but I had it. And I felt almost dirty, I was ashamed and I was a coward.
I don't know how long I was standing there on the footpath, thinking about Tyson. I snapped out of it and shook my head to clear it of my recent thoughts. I realised that I hadn't moved in a while, I turned to go when I heard a voice call my name. I turned instinctively although I knew it was Tyson. I had long ago memorised the sound of his voice. I took a deep breath in and I waited for him to catch me up.
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I rounded yet another corner - and there he was just standing there looking right at me, his storm grey hair blowing in the gentle wind. He turned to walk away but I couldn't let him do that. So I called out his name. I saw him whirl around; he had stopped again so I made my way to him and slowed to a walk when I got to a few feet in front of him.
"Why did you go away?" I asked. He didn't answer me just keeping looking at me, more accurately through me So I tried again, "Ok then, why did you turn away just now when you saw me coming towards you?" He didn't answer right away, just blinked and I noticed his eyes finally focus totally on me.
"I didn't see you."
"Yeah right Kai, I was right there."
"I'm sorry, I didn't see you," he said distractedly
I face faulted, did he just apologize to me. I couldn't believe it I convinced myself that I must be dreaming.
He looked at me, truly looked at me. I saw his eyes roam over my face; I saw the change in his eyes. He reached out a hand as if to touch me and I gulped. What had happened to the Kai that I knew, he was acting really weird.
My eyes closed involuntarily and I felt his cold fingers touch my bruised cheek, I flinched in spite of myself and he immediately withdrew his fingers as if he had been scolded. I mentally kicked myself at that - for so long all I have wanted was for him to touch me, to hold me, hell to even acknowledge me as a person and when he finally seems to be doing something along those lines I had to flinch!
"'I am sorry Tyson."
His whispered words drifted to me as if they were carried upon a breeze from a far away place. I revel in his acknowledgement of the pain he has caused me and I open my eyes slowly to assure him that I am alright, I am met with nothing. He was gone again. I twirled around madly but there was nothing, he had disappeared. It was a very irritating habit he had gotten himself into. I sink to the ground. I bring my knees up to my chest, and I breath in deeply, I can still smell his scent, it hung on the breeze, it swirled around me and I felt warmth, it was almost as if his presence was encircling me, embracing me in an almighty hug. And I cherish this feeling; I know that I always will, I just wish it could be really real.
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A/N: I'm sorry if they seem to be OoC in this chapter but, well...um... I don't really have any excuse. ^_^;;; I just I hope that you like it anyways and hopefully it doesn't come across as too sappy ^_^
***Hope that you are pleased - I should be studying -_-;;; (uh oh!) but I was at the computer, I got an idea and I ran with it ~^_^~
be safe
-BG