DISCLAIMER: I don't own Beyblade or any other the characters.
Thanks to all of my reviewers: Porticulis, Kiina, Amara, Feelin Glayish, narakunohime, CrazyJen, D.G., Mizu_Tenshi, Mariana1, I luv Kai, Vialana, Jay Kamiya, AkashikKaoru, Rumi-chan, Timberwolf220, RainOwl, Nancy's-little- Obsession, Rimnerel Ayasugi, Fyredra, XxOo Majangel oOxX
A/N: Since my computer is still at the shop, I decided to come into Uni today, to type up the next chapter of Revelations.
Also, sorry guys but my attention will now be spilt between 'Revelations' and 'What You Will Never Know' - my other WIP TyKa fic. But never fear - I am still working on this one. A little stuck on where to take it so I hope that the chapters don't seem *too* repetitive. ^.^
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REVELATIONS
I'm running again. Never thought I would be one to run from my problems but I'm running from Tyson, and he seems to be the source of all of my weaknesses. How I am not entirely sure, I just know that he is. Staring into his eyes just makes me feel so - lost. That is the only word I can use describe the feeling. I look into his eyes and all my thoughts leave me. A prime example is what happened not two minutes ago. He came up to me; I apologized, not once, but twice. I guess that he deserves an apology after what I did to him yesterday but I know that a week ago I wouldn't have even apologized for anything. I don't know what is wrong with me. Today, I stood there on the footpath, and watched him approach me. His navy locks fluttering in the breeze; falling into his eyes; hiding his bruises. My heart sank when he stopped in front of me. I couldn't look at him to see him bare the marring that I had caused, so I looked everywhere else. He asked me things, I answered without comprehending what I was really saying. I finally looked at him then, after I heard the apology ring in my own ears. He appeared to be slightly stunned, which is ok I guess since I was surprised myself. I looked into his eyes and all I was left with was incoherent thoughts. I saw my hand reach out, I tried to stop but it was like my hand had a mind of it's own, because it certainly wasn't paying any attention to me.
I saw his eyes flutter close, and a calm filled me and I realised he trusted me; still, well enough to believe that I wasn't going to hurt him. I watched his expression curiously but as my fingertips touched his somewhat heated skin he flinched. I withdrew my hand. I was terrified. I now that's a laugh - Kai Hiwatari was scared. But I was, I was terrified that I had hurt him again. And that knowledge made my heart feel ten times heavier. I never wanted to be the cause of Tyson's pain ever ever again. When he hurt, I hurt.
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I slowly picked myself off the gutter; a slight breeze passes over me, cooling my heated skin. I shiver, and wrap my arms around myself. Before I was feeling a little sad yet kinda happy but now, now I am simply peeved. How dare Kai dump that apology on me and then run away before I get the chance to say anything at all. Before I get to tell him that I appreciate it, to thank him. Before I get to do anything he went and disappeared on me again. I resolved that I was going to find him by sundown and make him listen to me. I wasn't too sure on the making him stay part because he is just a little bigger than me, but I was sure I could find a way. He was driving me nuts. All I've thought about for the past however many years was him and you would think that since he the incident I would be angry with him and want to push him out of my heart and far far away from me but in fact it has been the exact opposite. All I think about is him, he is on my mind constantly and I want him closer to me. I know that he has been though a lot. A lot of physical punishment and mental abuse, and I want to still be his friend. No scrap that - I am his friend and he can do absolutely nothing to change my mind on that fact. So off I went in my search to find him and make him simply understand that I am always going to be here, so he had better get used to it.
I dunno how long I had been wandering around for. No one had spotted my bruises thank God, I had pulled my hat down way over my eyes, I didn't want to explain all over again. Once to Grandpa was bad enough. I was getting tired and I was sweaty from walking around in the sun for so long. And I hadn't seen anything of Kai anywhere. I had continued on to his house first, I banged on the door, rang the alarm. The butler informed me that Kai hadn't come home. So I walked around town, don't to the wharf everywhere I could think of, but nothing. So I trudged slowly back to my house. I had to walk through the park. I wasn't watching where I was going; I was really just staring at my feet. Then I heard the sound of the swing moving, I glanced up and there was Kai. Just idly sitting on the same swing I had been on just yesterday, rocking back and forth gently, his head against his chest, eyes down. I made my way up to him, careful as to not arouse him to my location. I circled him and came up from behind. I reached out and but my hand on his shoulder.
"Ahhhhh!!!! Holy.........." he cried out. I jumped instinctively but since he was off balance it wasn't all that effective. He ended up on his butt in the dirt after falling off the swing.
I would have laughed but it just didn't seem appropriate.
"What the hell are you trying to do Tyson, kill me?"
"Uh - no," I paused, "Why do you keep running away from me?"
"Running away," he sniffed indignantly, " I would never."
"That's bull Kai," I stated. I think I was pushing it a bit but I took a step closer and jabbed my finger into his chest.
He caught my hand in his own, but instead of flinging it away like I thought he would he held onto it. I looked up at him, but he wasn't looking at me be was looking at my hand which was now inside his hand; his pale skin contrasting starkly against my olive complexion. I just kept watching him; I was beginning to become impatient. I lifted my other hand and placed it under his chin, effectively forcing him to look at me. His gaze locked on mine and my heart started beating erratically.
"Kai," I whispered.
He didn't say anything, but the subtle nod of his head told me that he was listening.
"Kai, thank you."
He jerked his head in surprise, he dropped my hand from his grasp and I instantly felt a loss, "But........why?"
"For apologizing to me Kai, it means a lot to me. More than you could possibly understand. But understand this, like I said before I've already forgiven you for pushing me, it hurt yes, but bruises heal Kai. I will heal from superficial injuries, but if you leave me again, if you keep running away, I will never heal Kai," I paused and looked up to him.
He looked away from me. I raised my hand again and gently touched his cheek. He turned his eyes back at mine then.
"You are my friend Kai. I'll always look to you for leadership, for guidance. You're my friend and you're never going to get rid of me, so stop pushing me out of your life," I stated with defiance in my eyes.
He looked down at me, a hint of a smile playing on his lips. "Don't I get a choice in the matter?"
"Hell no," I said, a grin forming on my lips.
"Ok then Tyson, I'll be your friend."
"Promise."
"Sure."
"Good. I'll see you at training tomorrow then," I walked away from him then a grin still on my lips. As I approached my bedroom door, I suddenly realised, that although I had gained a friend in a way, I was still no closer to what I really wanted from Kai, and it certainly wasn't only his friendship. My grin drooped. I fell onto my bed. 'I will make him understand and fully accept who I am, not just who he seems me to be,' I vowed this to myself. The glowing sun on the horizon as my only witness.
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A/N: thanks to CrazyJen who gave me the idea of the confrontation.
be safe
-BG
Thanks to all of my reviewers: Porticulis, Kiina, Amara, Feelin Glayish, narakunohime, CrazyJen, D.G., Mizu_Tenshi, Mariana1, I luv Kai, Vialana, Jay Kamiya, AkashikKaoru, Rumi-chan, Timberwolf220, RainOwl, Nancy's-little- Obsession, Rimnerel Ayasugi, Fyredra, XxOo Majangel oOxX
A/N: Since my computer is still at the shop, I decided to come into Uni today, to type up the next chapter of Revelations.
Also, sorry guys but my attention will now be spilt between 'Revelations' and 'What You Will Never Know' - my other WIP TyKa fic. But never fear - I am still working on this one. A little stuck on where to take it so I hope that the chapters don't seem *too* repetitive. ^.^
~*~
REVELATIONS
I'm running again. Never thought I would be one to run from my problems but I'm running from Tyson, and he seems to be the source of all of my weaknesses. How I am not entirely sure, I just know that he is. Staring into his eyes just makes me feel so - lost. That is the only word I can use describe the feeling. I look into his eyes and all my thoughts leave me. A prime example is what happened not two minutes ago. He came up to me; I apologized, not once, but twice. I guess that he deserves an apology after what I did to him yesterday but I know that a week ago I wouldn't have even apologized for anything. I don't know what is wrong with me. Today, I stood there on the footpath, and watched him approach me. His navy locks fluttering in the breeze; falling into his eyes; hiding his bruises. My heart sank when he stopped in front of me. I couldn't look at him to see him bare the marring that I had caused, so I looked everywhere else. He asked me things, I answered without comprehending what I was really saying. I finally looked at him then, after I heard the apology ring in my own ears. He appeared to be slightly stunned, which is ok I guess since I was surprised myself. I looked into his eyes and all I was left with was incoherent thoughts. I saw my hand reach out, I tried to stop but it was like my hand had a mind of it's own, because it certainly wasn't paying any attention to me.
I saw his eyes flutter close, and a calm filled me and I realised he trusted me; still, well enough to believe that I wasn't going to hurt him. I watched his expression curiously but as my fingertips touched his somewhat heated skin he flinched. I withdrew my hand. I was terrified. I now that's a laugh - Kai Hiwatari was scared. But I was, I was terrified that I had hurt him again. And that knowledge made my heart feel ten times heavier. I never wanted to be the cause of Tyson's pain ever ever again. When he hurt, I hurt.
~
I slowly picked myself off the gutter; a slight breeze passes over me, cooling my heated skin. I shiver, and wrap my arms around myself. Before I was feeling a little sad yet kinda happy but now, now I am simply peeved. How dare Kai dump that apology on me and then run away before I get the chance to say anything at all. Before I get to tell him that I appreciate it, to thank him. Before I get to do anything he went and disappeared on me again. I resolved that I was going to find him by sundown and make him listen to me. I wasn't too sure on the making him stay part because he is just a little bigger than me, but I was sure I could find a way. He was driving me nuts. All I've thought about for the past however many years was him and you would think that since he the incident I would be angry with him and want to push him out of my heart and far far away from me but in fact it has been the exact opposite. All I think about is him, he is on my mind constantly and I want him closer to me. I know that he has been though a lot. A lot of physical punishment and mental abuse, and I want to still be his friend. No scrap that - I am his friend and he can do absolutely nothing to change my mind on that fact. So off I went in my search to find him and make him simply understand that I am always going to be here, so he had better get used to it.
I dunno how long I had been wandering around for. No one had spotted my bruises thank God, I had pulled my hat down way over my eyes, I didn't want to explain all over again. Once to Grandpa was bad enough. I was getting tired and I was sweaty from walking around in the sun for so long. And I hadn't seen anything of Kai anywhere. I had continued on to his house first, I banged on the door, rang the alarm. The butler informed me that Kai hadn't come home. So I walked around town, don't to the wharf everywhere I could think of, but nothing. So I trudged slowly back to my house. I had to walk through the park. I wasn't watching where I was going; I was really just staring at my feet. Then I heard the sound of the swing moving, I glanced up and there was Kai. Just idly sitting on the same swing I had been on just yesterday, rocking back and forth gently, his head against his chest, eyes down. I made my way up to him, careful as to not arouse him to my location. I circled him and came up from behind. I reached out and but my hand on his shoulder.
"Ahhhhh!!!! Holy.........." he cried out. I jumped instinctively but since he was off balance it wasn't all that effective. He ended up on his butt in the dirt after falling off the swing.
I would have laughed but it just didn't seem appropriate.
"What the hell are you trying to do Tyson, kill me?"
"Uh - no," I paused, "Why do you keep running away from me?"
"Running away," he sniffed indignantly, " I would never."
"That's bull Kai," I stated. I think I was pushing it a bit but I took a step closer and jabbed my finger into his chest.
He caught my hand in his own, but instead of flinging it away like I thought he would he held onto it. I looked up at him, but he wasn't looking at me be was looking at my hand which was now inside his hand; his pale skin contrasting starkly against my olive complexion. I just kept watching him; I was beginning to become impatient. I lifted my other hand and placed it under his chin, effectively forcing him to look at me. His gaze locked on mine and my heart started beating erratically.
"Kai," I whispered.
He didn't say anything, but the subtle nod of his head told me that he was listening.
"Kai, thank you."
He jerked his head in surprise, he dropped my hand from his grasp and I instantly felt a loss, "But........why?"
"For apologizing to me Kai, it means a lot to me. More than you could possibly understand. But understand this, like I said before I've already forgiven you for pushing me, it hurt yes, but bruises heal Kai. I will heal from superficial injuries, but if you leave me again, if you keep running away, I will never heal Kai," I paused and looked up to him.
He looked away from me. I raised my hand again and gently touched his cheek. He turned his eyes back at mine then.
"You are my friend Kai. I'll always look to you for leadership, for guidance. You're my friend and you're never going to get rid of me, so stop pushing me out of your life," I stated with defiance in my eyes.
He looked down at me, a hint of a smile playing on his lips. "Don't I get a choice in the matter?"
"Hell no," I said, a grin forming on my lips.
"Ok then Tyson, I'll be your friend."
"Promise."
"Sure."
"Good. I'll see you at training tomorrow then," I walked away from him then a grin still on my lips. As I approached my bedroom door, I suddenly realised, that although I had gained a friend in a way, I was still no closer to what I really wanted from Kai, and it certainly wasn't only his friendship. My grin drooped. I fell onto my bed. 'I will make him understand and fully accept who I am, not just who he seems me to be,' I vowed this to myself. The glowing sun on the horizon as my only witness.
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A/N: thanks to CrazyJen who gave me the idea of the confrontation.
be safe
-BG