"What's do you mean?" Robin asked.
"Well, it seems to me that both you and Sam agree that it's okay for my sister to fall in love with Sonny." Jason replied, feeling that maybe the only one that did understand him was Carly.
"Look Jason," Robin began. "When I was younger and, oh so in love with you, do you think I didn't deal with what Emily is dealing with? I had everyone tell me, 'stay away,' 'he's no good for you,' 'he'll get you killed.' And do you know what all those remarks did to me. It made me want you more. It made me think about you twice as much as I already did, and it didn't help that you were wonderful. That is probably what Emily is doing right now; thinking about Sonny and how wonderful he is to her, and just as a heads up, in the end that's all that will matter to her. So you might as well back off now, because your sister has been the only one, besides Sam maybe that has never, ever told you how to live your life. So don't tell her how to live hers!" Robin told Jason with the total confidence that she was right.
"Hey Sam I got your call what's up?" Emily asked as she walked into the hospital cafeteria. She went down the steps to the center, of the room where Sam was sitting. Emily took a seat in front of her brother's girlfriend and wondered what this was going to be about.
"Hi," Sam said. "Jase is fine, don't worry about it, he's actually getting released today." Sam smiled.
"Oh Sam, that's great!" Emily said laughing.
"Yeah Em, but…" Sam stopped rubbed her forehead and exhaled a long sign. "It's just that I know him, and he's going to go after Manny."
"He's not the only one, I have a feeling Sonny too." Emily confided in Sam.
"I know, Sonny probably has the time and place all set up." Sam said a little annoyed.
"Do you find it hard to accept this?" Emily asked.
"Of course not, I almost killed Manny myself the other day. Jason stopped me though. It's not hard to accept, because Jason is good at what he does. He does what he does to protect the people he loves, me included. It's just that you can't help but worry, it's in you, always in the back of your head. Oh Emily, are you sure you want to go falling in love with Sonny? The life he leads is a little tougher than Jason's." Sam asked.
"What?" Emily asked blushing. She was not aware that Jason had told Sam about her feelings for Sonny. But then again she was a little glad. Finally, someone to talk to.
"I'm on your side Emily. For what it's worth, I told Jason that there was nothing wrong with you falling in love with Sonny." Sam smiled.
"Sam I don't know what I feel. I have these feelings that just want to go and be by Sonny's side and console him and take care of him. Then, these other feeling come out of me needing him. These feelings show every time I find myself needing a friend. But I don't want him as a friend, I want more. I'm just so confused. I feel like I already love him, and I don't know what else to do. I had agreed to move out because I thought I would make things better, easier, but now I'm back and all these feelings are stronger than before." Emily said; glad to finally get all those things off her chest.
"Sounds to me like you already love him. Why fight it Em.? I mean do you notice the way that he looks at you. The way his whole face and persona, just soften when you are near." Sam asked backing up Emily's feelings.
"No, Sonny loves me I have no doubt about that. He's said it before. But, he's not in love with me. He still loves Carly." Emily said shaking her head trying to fight Sam's conclusions.
"Have it your way Em. Sonny will always love Carly, you are well aware of that. Just like I'm sure he's well aware of your feeling for Nikolas. That's why you guys are so special. You're not trying to take anyone's place in his home, and he's not trying to take anyone's place in your heart, you guys are making your own places, not taking over previous ones." Sam said making a lot of sense.
"God Sam, this is so complicated." Emily laughed.
"Once you give in, it's a lot easier, Em" Sam said smiling glad that Emily had finally found someone to talk to, she looked relieved.
After her talk with Sam, Emily decided to head to the chapel. As she walked in it was empty which she was grateful for. As she sat down she began to think about everything in her life. She was grateful because she had so many wonderful things and was very blessed but she had her share of heartache. "Why?" she wondered. "Why Sonny?" she asked herself. "First Nikolas, he left me for Courtney. I was of course mostly to blame for that no matter what anyone says. Then my rape, why did Connor have to look so much like Nikolas? That's part of the reason I couldn't warm up to Nikolas again. Now, Sonny. I'm afraid I'm falling for him and he won't for me. I'm also afraid because he's my brother's best friend and even if he did love me back we can't be together because of Jason. Then there's Michael and Morgan, and little Kristina, I can't hurt them either, what if something goes wrong with us? Just help me God, please help me" Emily said exhaling hoping that her prayers would be answered.
"Em?" Jason said coming into the chapel.
"Jase, I didn't see you" Em said a little embarrassed now. Jason had finally shed the robe and the hospital gown. He was now in his jeans and black shirt.
"I didn't mean to ease drop, but I heard your voice and I decided to be quiet you looked like you were really concentrating and like you need a good friend, not an overprotective brother." Jason said smiling. "I heard your prayers, and Em, I don't want you to not be happy because of me. I have been wrestling with these feelings of telling you what to do, and then I have been thinking that I am no one to tell you what to do or how to live your life. Sam and Robin both agree that you and Sonny would be so 'great' for one and another but I don't like it Em. I'm not going to lie to you I never will like it either." Jason said glad to finally be having this conversation with her.
"Jase, I can't help but to be falling in love with Sonny. I'll be fine though, I know he doesn't love me and I know he won't ever try anything, because of Carly, and mostly because of you. I'll just learn to accept it." Emily said smiling. "I have to get back to work, I have been taking to many breaks" Emily kissed Jason on the cheek and left the chapel not noticing Sonny on the other side, which also happened to listen to everything.