DISCLAIMER: I don't own Beyblade.
Thank you to my reviewers: TechnoRanma, CrazyJen, I luv Kai, bri-hotie, Moonlit Sea, Yami FireKali, Feelin Glayish, Rumi-Chan, TLForever, Mizu- Tenshi, dragona15, Rimnerel Ayasugi, Nancys-little-Obsession, Giana, Sweetangel, Ezj-Key
Dedication: I have decided to dedicate this entire fic to Jen since she seems to like it so much. I was going to update WYWNK but she's persuaded me to write this instead. I hope you like it Jen.
REVELATIONS
"You aren't going to leave me again are you?" I asked of him, I struggled to keep my voice from breaking.
He looked at me, curiosity written over his pretty features.
"Oh - I mean.......us. You aren't going to leave us, all of us again," I felt my skin flush. I felt like conking the mop standing in the corner over my thick skull. I couldn't believe I had just said that....like that.
"No. I'm not going anywhere." He voice seemed to waiver a bit as he spoke those reassuring words.
"Good," I replied. I let go of his hand, suddenly away that I was still holding onto it, "Let's go outside, yeah?"
"Yeah," he agreed.
I turned away from him and took a deep breath to steady my nerves before going to open the door.
"I am."
"What?" I questioned as I turned to the side so I could see him.
"I am. Your friend."
I grinned at this and directly my smile solely at him, "Of course you are. You don't get a choice mister. You are stuck with me for life." I turned the handle and pushed the door open. I could feel the warm sunshine on my back as I reached for Kai's hand and led him outside into the light.
'I am yours. You have me in more ways than you will ever possible understand,' I thought to myself as I dropped his hand, but not before savouring the feel of my hand nestled in his own larger one. I thought about all the ways that I wanted to feel that hand on my body; touching more skin than just my hand.
"Come on Tyson. Kai, let's go."
I blushed as I was abruptly pulled from my dangerous thoughts; thoughts of Kai. I turned my attention to Max. I wondered what was up. Max was almost as bad as me when it came to wanting to train. I was curious to know why he seemed all eager today.
"What's on the schedule for today, Kai?"
"Um...."
I tuned him out. I was to busy staring at the pretty blush that highlighted his cheeks under those ever present azure triangles.
I was only half listening when Chief started quoting statistics and bickering with Dizzy. I was wondering what was going on with Kai and Tyson. They had been a long time. Or what seemed like a long time anyways. I was staring blankly into space when I heard the door opening. I snapped my head up and watched the door with curious eyes.
Tyson came out and behind him, trailing slightly and with the smallest of stumbles Kai appeared in the doorway. My eyes cased over them, consciously searching for any sense of disharmony between my two peers. My eyes raked over their joined hands and moved onto Kai's expression, which was only of joy. Then I took a double take.........joined hands? What the? My gaze was ripped from Kai's almost happy expression back to their hands.......clasped hands. My jaw dropped and my eyes popped out. It was mind boggling. What the hell was Tyson doing holding Kai's hand?
"Come on Tyson. Kai, let's go."
I shook my head as Max's call broke me out of my stupor. I sent the blonde a curious look and he returned it with a smile. I knew that look in his eyes. I knew that he had seen it to and he was promising that we would conspire between us later, when we were alone and there were no prying ears.
"What's on the schedule for today, Kai?" I asked of team captain. Once again I was amazed, gone was the look of happiness, replaced by something even stranger. The strong, solid, ever neutral leader was blushing. His cheeks were tinged a pretty pink. I glanced at Tyson and found that his gaze was glued to the Captain. I returned my gaze back to him and tuned into the end of his instructions.
".........and Max square off."
I just stood there. "Owww," I gasped, "What was that for?" I shot the hyperactive blonde a glare. He just shrugged innocently, like he didn't just elbow me hard in the ribs.
"Kai just told use to square off. Weren't you paying attention Rei?
"I was thinking about things."
"What kind of things?"
"Um......" I consciously lowered his voice to a near whisper, "That kinda of thing," I jerked my head towards were Tyson and Kai seemed to be in a deep and meaningful conversation.
"Oh. Oooohhhhh," came his embellished reply as he caught on. "What's going on with them?" he whispered.
"Not sure. They were holding hands a second again."
"You think that they made up?"
"Like that? No I don't think so.......but........"
"But what? From what I can see Kai looks pretty happy and look at the colour in Tyson's cheeks."
"Yeah I guess......"
"You worry for him?"
"Of course I do. I care about him, about all of you. I still can't understand how he can be so forgiving to the one who constantly is pushing him down."
"That's just how he is. I think that that is how he has always been and so a long time into the future I don't think that that part of him will ever change."
"Unlike everything else that has," I almost laughed at the memories that Tyson created with his antics.
"Yeah. Over the past couple of years, he really has grown up. I never really noticed it before but now that I look at him, he has grown physically from that short stout boy we met all those years ago into a tall lean young man."
"Hmm," I murmured a non committal. I remembered what I said to Kai that day. I called Tyson a boy, and in some aspects he is. He is sweet and naïve at times and so very loyal, but on the other hand he is wise beyond his years. He truly is no longer a child. I watched the scene that the two of them made. I watched as Tyson reached out and touched Kai's hand. I wasn't really surprised when I saw him lean slightly into the touch.......a light bulb went of in my head. "I got it!" I said in a stage whisper.
"Got what?"
"I know why Kai always hurts Tyson. Why he is always so harsh on him. I know why he pushed him away that day."
I stood there, a dazed expression on my face. I was awe struck at my discovery.
"So.....Are you gonna tell me your wonderful finding – or keep me guessing?" a peeved retort came from the blonde at my side.
"Oh sorry," I apologized quickly, "He likes Tyson," I stated simply.
'What!" he shrieked.
"Shhhhhush!" I hushed him right back.
'What?" he repeated in a calmer fashion.
"Just moments after he had shoved Tyson he said something to me. I wasn't paying much attention to anything he said – I was rather preoccupied with attempting to chew him out. I was just thinking about it......it wasn't anything profound but it was more the way that he said it to me."
"Well.....you going to tell me what he said or not?"
"All right all right, don't get your knickers in a knot. He said and I quote, 'Hey, look ok, he made me feel uncomfortable. I got rid of the feeling.'"
"So what's so special about that?"
Like I said it was the way he said it......he got all defensive. I can't explain it but looking at them now I just get this feeling. I know that Kai likes Tyson.........." I look at the two boys again, "Ahh! It's so obvious, why didn't I see it before?"
"Cause we never paid much attention to Kai before, much less studied his movements around Tyson. All we ever noticed was the cut downs and the insults."
"Yeah. I feel like such a fool. I have always prided myself on being more observant than most but I saw nothing. I was blinded. I thought Kai was bad; I knew that he had pigeonholed us but I did exactly the same thing. I took him at face value and I never bothered to see anything deeper than that."
"How do you mean?"
"Kai's a human being and he is entitled to his mistakes, granted he makes huge ones but still. I think that I had him pegged as this perfectly cool, collected individual when in reality he is just like you and me."
"And that is?"
"Scared some of the time. Slightly confused about a lot of things a lot of the time. But he is human Max, and for some reason or other I only just realised that.
"Maybe he isn't so blind."
"Huh?"
I turned to look at my friend, only just realising that I had said that out loud, "When I was berating Kai.........I said that he would never experience love cause he is too blinded by petty things......but maybe I was wrong......"
"Tyson loves him."
I whipped my head around at the quiet exclamation.
"Yes," I breathed.
"I wonder if he will ever realise that that is all that he will ever need in this life."
"I don't know........I'd like to say that I don't think that he deserves such a love but I know that that is untrue. I'd like to say that I don't think that he is worthy of Tyson but I know what Tyson feels and as long as he is true unto himself that I have not right to interfere."
I turned away from Kai and Tyson and turned my gaze so that it rested upon the blonde beauty at my side.
"Come on Rei, let us practice."
'Yes, let's get it right."
My heart skipped a beat when he beamed at me and for a split second I was terrified that he had heard the underlying message hidden in my words. I was ready for him to know yet.
I closed my laptop, muffling Dizzy's protests. I sighed, it was clear to me that neither Rei nor Max were listening to me. I backed away and sat down on the bench. I watched the neko-jin and the blonde as they whispered to themselves. I looked past them and saw what had grasped their attention from me.
I watched the other two intently. I studied their behaviour, watched their body language. I saw the way Tyson stood with his back straight and his head held high, whereas Kai stooped and kept his eyes lowered. I saw as Tyson reached out hesitantly and touched Kai's forearm. I figured that no matter how much of a front he presented to the world he was genuinely afraid of the fact that Kai's temper was unpredictable and the fact that the Team Captain was easily twice his strength in brute force.
I gathered that Kai liked the boy more than he had previously let on and the slight shift in his body weight proved me right. He craved for Tyson's touch. I smiled at this. Then I remembered that Tyson was no longer a child. I guess that I will always think of him as the youngest of all of us when in fact I am. It was his nature. He loved fun a direct opposite to me. I prefer science and silence. I'm happiest most when left to my own devices; surrounded with facts, figures and statistics. I find it relaxing. I can lose myself in it.
It's an escape. I look at the other members of the Blade breakers; we all have our weaknesses and or strengths and we all have our escapes.
"What!"
A screech ripped through my train of thought and I focused on my peers. Rei seemed to be shushing Max; who was looking decidedly pink and a little shocked. I wondered what they were talking about but I quickly forgot once I turned away from them.
I was lost in my own world but the sounds of blades launching brought me back once again into the world of the living.
"So what do you want me to do?"
"Um....I – I'm not sure."
"Come on Kai. You are my leader; tell me what I should do to make myself better."
I lowered my eyes and hunched my shoulders. I wanted so much to disappear. I had sent Rei and Max to spar and I didn't know where Kenny had disappeared to, but quite frankly at this moment I didn't care. Tyson was to close to me. His scent reached me and it was tantalizing. He was teasing me.
"Listen Kai, I really am ok, ok? The bruises are almost gone and it no longer hurts."
"On the outside."
'What?"
"The bruises; the hurt, its gone on the outside. But what about the inside? I can never forgive myself for hurting you Tyson."
"Oh Kai," he breathed.
I kept my gaze downcast but I sensed him move closer to me. His hand reached out and hesitated slightly before it made contact with my skin. I shivered and surprised myself as I found my body reacting of its on accord and leaning into him.
"I forgive you Kai. I'll always forgive you."
"Rei is right. I am not worthy of such kindness. I am not worthy of you."
"Listen to me," he hissed, "I chose who I want to be with and I like you Kai. You inspire me. I will always look to you for guidance. I know that you are not perfect and even you have your limitations. You promised me that you would be my friend, I will forgive all of your mistakes and you will always be welcome in my home. I am always going to be here for you Kai, whether you want me to be or not."
I looked up about half way through his spiel. I couldn't believe how perfect this youth way. And he wanted to be my friend. He cherished my friendship. I don't think I have ever felt more honoured.
Of its on accord I watched as my hand reached out and brushed a stray strand of hair away from Tyson's eyes and tucked it behind his ear. I looked down into those stormy hues, my knees felt like they were seconds before total collapse. I raked my eyes over his features before my gaze settled on his lips. They looked so soft; so sweet. I wanted nothing more than to press my own against them and see if they tasted as sweet as they looked.
But I didn't dare.
I'm not that brave.
A/N: I hope that this chapter doesn't contradict anything that I wrote in previous chapters. I'm tyring to keep up the continuity but I'm not perfect ;;;
Well I hope that you like the update
Sorry about the way it seems to jump a lot....not my fault I swear – ffnet has decided to cut out my little dividers to tell you that the pov has changed........in case u didn't get, it goes from Tyson's to Rei's to Kenny's and then to Kai's
Be safe
-BG
Thank you to my reviewers: TechnoRanma, CrazyJen, I luv Kai, bri-hotie, Moonlit Sea, Yami FireKali, Feelin Glayish, Rumi-Chan, TLForever, Mizu- Tenshi, dragona15, Rimnerel Ayasugi, Nancys-little-Obsession, Giana, Sweetangel, Ezj-Key
Dedication: I have decided to dedicate this entire fic to Jen since she seems to like it so much. I was going to update WYWNK but she's persuaded me to write this instead. I hope you like it Jen.
REVELATIONS
"You aren't going to leave me again are you?" I asked of him, I struggled to keep my voice from breaking.
He looked at me, curiosity written over his pretty features.
"Oh - I mean.......us. You aren't going to leave us, all of us again," I felt my skin flush. I felt like conking the mop standing in the corner over my thick skull. I couldn't believe I had just said that....like that.
"No. I'm not going anywhere." He voice seemed to waiver a bit as he spoke those reassuring words.
"Good," I replied. I let go of his hand, suddenly away that I was still holding onto it, "Let's go outside, yeah?"
"Yeah," he agreed.
I turned away from him and took a deep breath to steady my nerves before going to open the door.
"I am."
"What?" I questioned as I turned to the side so I could see him.
"I am. Your friend."
I grinned at this and directly my smile solely at him, "Of course you are. You don't get a choice mister. You are stuck with me for life." I turned the handle and pushed the door open. I could feel the warm sunshine on my back as I reached for Kai's hand and led him outside into the light.
'I am yours. You have me in more ways than you will ever possible understand,' I thought to myself as I dropped his hand, but not before savouring the feel of my hand nestled in his own larger one. I thought about all the ways that I wanted to feel that hand on my body; touching more skin than just my hand.
"Come on Tyson. Kai, let's go."
I blushed as I was abruptly pulled from my dangerous thoughts; thoughts of Kai. I turned my attention to Max. I wondered what was up. Max was almost as bad as me when it came to wanting to train. I was curious to know why he seemed all eager today.
"What's on the schedule for today, Kai?"
"Um...."
I tuned him out. I was to busy staring at the pretty blush that highlighted his cheeks under those ever present azure triangles.
I was only half listening when Chief started quoting statistics and bickering with Dizzy. I was wondering what was going on with Kai and Tyson. They had been a long time. Or what seemed like a long time anyways. I was staring blankly into space when I heard the door opening. I snapped my head up and watched the door with curious eyes.
Tyson came out and behind him, trailing slightly and with the smallest of stumbles Kai appeared in the doorway. My eyes cased over them, consciously searching for any sense of disharmony between my two peers. My eyes raked over their joined hands and moved onto Kai's expression, which was only of joy. Then I took a double take.........joined hands? What the? My gaze was ripped from Kai's almost happy expression back to their hands.......clasped hands. My jaw dropped and my eyes popped out. It was mind boggling. What the hell was Tyson doing holding Kai's hand?
"Come on Tyson. Kai, let's go."
I shook my head as Max's call broke me out of my stupor. I sent the blonde a curious look and he returned it with a smile. I knew that look in his eyes. I knew that he had seen it to and he was promising that we would conspire between us later, when we were alone and there were no prying ears.
"What's on the schedule for today, Kai?" I asked of team captain. Once again I was amazed, gone was the look of happiness, replaced by something even stranger. The strong, solid, ever neutral leader was blushing. His cheeks were tinged a pretty pink. I glanced at Tyson and found that his gaze was glued to the Captain. I returned my gaze back to him and tuned into the end of his instructions.
".........and Max square off."
I just stood there. "Owww," I gasped, "What was that for?" I shot the hyperactive blonde a glare. He just shrugged innocently, like he didn't just elbow me hard in the ribs.
"Kai just told use to square off. Weren't you paying attention Rei?
"I was thinking about things."
"What kind of things?"
"Um......" I consciously lowered his voice to a near whisper, "That kinda of thing," I jerked my head towards were Tyson and Kai seemed to be in a deep and meaningful conversation.
"Oh. Oooohhhhh," came his embellished reply as he caught on. "What's going on with them?" he whispered.
"Not sure. They were holding hands a second again."
"You think that they made up?"
"Like that? No I don't think so.......but........"
"But what? From what I can see Kai looks pretty happy and look at the colour in Tyson's cheeks."
"Yeah I guess......"
"You worry for him?"
"Of course I do. I care about him, about all of you. I still can't understand how he can be so forgiving to the one who constantly is pushing him down."
"That's just how he is. I think that that is how he has always been and so a long time into the future I don't think that that part of him will ever change."
"Unlike everything else that has," I almost laughed at the memories that Tyson created with his antics.
"Yeah. Over the past couple of years, he really has grown up. I never really noticed it before but now that I look at him, he has grown physically from that short stout boy we met all those years ago into a tall lean young man."
"Hmm," I murmured a non committal. I remembered what I said to Kai that day. I called Tyson a boy, and in some aspects he is. He is sweet and naïve at times and so very loyal, but on the other hand he is wise beyond his years. He truly is no longer a child. I watched the scene that the two of them made. I watched as Tyson reached out and touched Kai's hand. I wasn't really surprised when I saw him lean slightly into the touch.......a light bulb went of in my head. "I got it!" I said in a stage whisper.
"Got what?"
"I know why Kai always hurts Tyson. Why he is always so harsh on him. I know why he pushed him away that day."
I stood there, a dazed expression on my face. I was awe struck at my discovery.
"So.....Are you gonna tell me your wonderful finding – or keep me guessing?" a peeved retort came from the blonde at my side.
"Oh sorry," I apologized quickly, "He likes Tyson," I stated simply.
'What!" he shrieked.
"Shhhhhush!" I hushed him right back.
'What?" he repeated in a calmer fashion.
"Just moments after he had shoved Tyson he said something to me. I wasn't paying much attention to anything he said – I was rather preoccupied with attempting to chew him out. I was just thinking about it......it wasn't anything profound but it was more the way that he said it to me."
"Well.....you going to tell me what he said or not?"
"All right all right, don't get your knickers in a knot. He said and I quote, 'Hey, look ok, he made me feel uncomfortable. I got rid of the feeling.'"
"So what's so special about that?"
Like I said it was the way he said it......he got all defensive. I can't explain it but looking at them now I just get this feeling. I know that Kai likes Tyson.........." I look at the two boys again, "Ahh! It's so obvious, why didn't I see it before?"
"Cause we never paid much attention to Kai before, much less studied his movements around Tyson. All we ever noticed was the cut downs and the insults."
"Yeah. I feel like such a fool. I have always prided myself on being more observant than most but I saw nothing. I was blinded. I thought Kai was bad; I knew that he had pigeonholed us but I did exactly the same thing. I took him at face value and I never bothered to see anything deeper than that."
"How do you mean?"
"Kai's a human being and he is entitled to his mistakes, granted he makes huge ones but still. I think that I had him pegged as this perfectly cool, collected individual when in reality he is just like you and me."
"And that is?"
"Scared some of the time. Slightly confused about a lot of things a lot of the time. But he is human Max, and for some reason or other I only just realised that.
"Maybe he isn't so blind."
"Huh?"
I turned to look at my friend, only just realising that I had said that out loud, "When I was berating Kai.........I said that he would never experience love cause he is too blinded by petty things......but maybe I was wrong......"
"Tyson loves him."
I whipped my head around at the quiet exclamation.
"Yes," I breathed.
"I wonder if he will ever realise that that is all that he will ever need in this life."
"I don't know........I'd like to say that I don't think that he deserves such a love but I know that that is untrue. I'd like to say that I don't think that he is worthy of Tyson but I know what Tyson feels and as long as he is true unto himself that I have not right to interfere."
I turned away from Kai and Tyson and turned my gaze so that it rested upon the blonde beauty at my side.
"Come on Rei, let us practice."
'Yes, let's get it right."
My heart skipped a beat when he beamed at me and for a split second I was terrified that he had heard the underlying message hidden in my words. I was ready for him to know yet.
I closed my laptop, muffling Dizzy's protests. I sighed, it was clear to me that neither Rei nor Max were listening to me. I backed away and sat down on the bench. I watched the neko-jin and the blonde as they whispered to themselves. I looked past them and saw what had grasped their attention from me.
I watched the other two intently. I studied their behaviour, watched their body language. I saw the way Tyson stood with his back straight and his head held high, whereas Kai stooped and kept his eyes lowered. I saw as Tyson reached out hesitantly and touched Kai's forearm. I figured that no matter how much of a front he presented to the world he was genuinely afraid of the fact that Kai's temper was unpredictable and the fact that the Team Captain was easily twice his strength in brute force.
I gathered that Kai liked the boy more than he had previously let on and the slight shift in his body weight proved me right. He craved for Tyson's touch. I smiled at this. Then I remembered that Tyson was no longer a child. I guess that I will always think of him as the youngest of all of us when in fact I am. It was his nature. He loved fun a direct opposite to me. I prefer science and silence. I'm happiest most when left to my own devices; surrounded with facts, figures and statistics. I find it relaxing. I can lose myself in it.
It's an escape. I look at the other members of the Blade breakers; we all have our weaknesses and or strengths and we all have our escapes.
"What!"
A screech ripped through my train of thought and I focused on my peers. Rei seemed to be shushing Max; who was looking decidedly pink and a little shocked. I wondered what they were talking about but I quickly forgot once I turned away from them.
I was lost in my own world but the sounds of blades launching brought me back once again into the world of the living.
"So what do you want me to do?"
"Um....I – I'm not sure."
"Come on Kai. You are my leader; tell me what I should do to make myself better."
I lowered my eyes and hunched my shoulders. I wanted so much to disappear. I had sent Rei and Max to spar and I didn't know where Kenny had disappeared to, but quite frankly at this moment I didn't care. Tyson was to close to me. His scent reached me and it was tantalizing. He was teasing me.
"Listen Kai, I really am ok, ok? The bruises are almost gone and it no longer hurts."
"On the outside."
'What?"
"The bruises; the hurt, its gone on the outside. But what about the inside? I can never forgive myself for hurting you Tyson."
"Oh Kai," he breathed.
I kept my gaze downcast but I sensed him move closer to me. His hand reached out and hesitated slightly before it made contact with my skin. I shivered and surprised myself as I found my body reacting of its on accord and leaning into him.
"I forgive you Kai. I'll always forgive you."
"Rei is right. I am not worthy of such kindness. I am not worthy of you."
"Listen to me," he hissed, "I chose who I want to be with and I like you Kai. You inspire me. I will always look to you for guidance. I know that you are not perfect and even you have your limitations. You promised me that you would be my friend, I will forgive all of your mistakes and you will always be welcome in my home. I am always going to be here for you Kai, whether you want me to be or not."
I looked up about half way through his spiel. I couldn't believe how perfect this youth way. And he wanted to be my friend. He cherished my friendship. I don't think I have ever felt more honoured.
Of its on accord I watched as my hand reached out and brushed a stray strand of hair away from Tyson's eyes and tucked it behind his ear. I looked down into those stormy hues, my knees felt like they were seconds before total collapse. I raked my eyes over his features before my gaze settled on his lips. They looked so soft; so sweet. I wanted nothing more than to press my own against them and see if they tasted as sweet as they looked.
But I didn't dare.
I'm not that brave.
A/N: I hope that this chapter doesn't contradict anything that I wrote in previous chapters. I'm tyring to keep up the continuity but I'm not perfect ;;;
Well I hope that you like the update
Sorry about the way it seems to jump a lot....not my fault I swear – ffnet has decided to cut out my little dividers to tell you that the pov has changed........in case u didn't get, it goes from Tyson's to Rei's to Kenny's and then to Kai's
Be safe
-BG