They both sat down on the sofa after Jack had been put to sleep, they both had so much to catch up on.

"So erm…where have you been since ya left Sun Hill?" Smithy asked, ruffling his dark hair.

"I went back home to Brighton" She replied,

"Av' ya just moved back then?" He wanted to ask her deeper questions, the most important one was burning in his mind but she was on edge at the moment.

"I came back about two months ago, I wanted to get Jack settled in before I came back to work, I'm not sure I did the right thing though" She sighed.

"Why, don't ya want to be back in Sun Hill then?" He asked, knowing that he was glad of her return.

"I don't mind it but Jack loved Brighton and I feel guilty bringing him into London" You could see that she wasn't as cheery as she used to be.

Moving closer he looked at her and he felt so bad for what he was about to do as it was not the right time for Kerry, but he had to know.

"Why did you bring him to London, Kerry?"

Taking a deep sigh she knew this was the dreaded question,

"So he would be close to his family, well what he's got of one anyway"

A tear fell from her eye as she looked over at a photo of him; he was so innocent in all of this he didn't deserve it.

"What, your dad?" He asked trying to dig deeper.

Going red from the panic, she got up and walked to the other side of the room, this was it, the moment that set both their futures.

"Yeah…and…erm…Jacks…"she couldn't say it the words were there but they wouldn't come out.

Helping her Smithy said,

"Dad?" There it was, the word she had searched for.

"Oh Smithy, im so sorry you don't deserve this, what have you done. It was my actions that got me in this mess, now both you and Jack have to suffer as well." She cried.

This was way too much for Smithy to take in, he had an inkling but the words hit him hard, is this really happening?

"Kerry I dunno what to say, I don't know if I can cope with this, one minute I've got no ties the next minute I find out I have a son. I care for you though but im not sure I'll be any good to him. Sometimes its better without a father, I should know" being reminded of the past hurt him deeply.

"That's not true Smithy, I've never met your dad but im positive you're not like him, remember when he was conceived, remember what I put you through. All that pain yet you forgave me, that's only the actions of a kind and loving person. I know I can't be forgiven for what's happened but Jack doesn't deserve this Smithy, he needs someone who will be there for him, someone who will watch him play in his first match, someone to pick him up when he gets his heart broken"

This was true, he did need a dad but Smithy wasn't sure whether he could be that.

"All im asking you to do is think about this…"

"Anyway he's got more of his dad in him than anyone else, the whole family have tried to convert him to a Chelsea fan but he's adamant on supporting West Ham!" she said in a more cheery voice.

Looking out of the window she could see heavy snow all around, turning back to Smithy she said,

"Its really snowing outside, your welcome to stay the night… oh sorry I forgot you've got to get back for Amanda"

"Me and Amanda aren't going anywhere she wants too much from the relationship, things that I can't give her"

"What like children?" she stated.

At that moment Jack walked through the door, his face streaming with tears, just before he reached his mother he fell to the floor shaking violently.

As you can see the chapter did not follow on the way i hoped, but when inspiration hits you, you go with the flow. I promise to recap on whats happened in the lives later on. Please R+R