Ryan woke up the next morning, oblivious at what he had done. He passed out a few seconds after he dropped to his knees in the hospital room. Ryan looked around, realizing he was at his friend's house. Castle Bam. Bam didn't pass away in his home but Ryan knew the walls were filled with Bam's spirit.
"Oh, Bam." Ryan whispered softly. He had started to recall what happened the past night, the night that was gone forever.
Ryan now stood over the casket of his best friend ever. Bam was the first one that Ryan came out to. Bam respected Ryan, while all his other friends, disrespected him, even when Ryan had the guts to come out to everyone. Bam loved Ryan no matter what.
Ryan wiped his tears away, and got back into Bam's car. He turned on the ignition and turned up the cd in the cd player. It was HIM's cd, Razorblade Romance, playing One Last Time.
'Oh at least you could try,
for this one last time.
It could be alright,
for this one last time.', it played, while Ville was singing in the background,
background'Let me just a bit closer,
let me fall into your arms.
Don't let me grow any colder,
let me close to your heart.'
'At least you could try for this one last time.
It could be alright,
for this one last time'
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'Before it's all over,
let me fall into your arms.
Before it's all over,
let me close to your heart.'
'At least you could try,
for this one last time.
It could be alright,
for this one last time.'
As the cd stopped, Ryan pulled into the Castle Bam driveway, wet from tears. He got out of the blue Hummer and went inside. Novak was sitting on the couch eating chips. He was obviously crying. Ryan went over and sat next to him.
"Hey, Novak." Ryan sniffed.
Novak sniffed. "H-h-hey." he stuttered, in between tears. "How w-was it?"
Novak didn't go to the burial, because after going to the wake, he was crying so hard, he nearly hyperventilated.
"What do you mean, 'how was it?'? It fucking sucked!" Ryan yelled, flopping down on the couch. He suddenly burst into tears. Novak cried with him. As they cried together Gee came in. He had been crying too, since his face and eyes were red.
"No pictures." Novak said, looking up at him. Gee attempted to smile but failed. He sat down and patted Dunn on the back.
"It's a-all my f-f-fault! He could've healed! Why?" Ryan exclaimed.
"Dude, you did the right thing. He hated being in the hospital." Gee said. Novak nodded in agreement, and lit a cigarette. Ryan lit a cigarette too and wiped his tears away. Gee went over to the computer and went to his message board.
"You fat fuck, what are you doing?" Novak asked.
"Jeez, look at all tthe comments about Bam on here...Novak, you might want to come look at this." Gee said, clicking through the 'Bam Stuff' forum. Novak came walking in. He came up to the monitor and looked at it, tearing up.
"Oh. My. God." he said, looking at the posts about tracking down Ryan and killing him, because of what he did.
"Lemme go to Bam's Message Board." Gee said, taking the mouse from Novak and clicking on a link. The BMMB came up. He went to the Bam section and saw the whole page filled up with threads about his friend's death.
"Look how they're going to have an anti-Ryan Dunn message board." Novak said, pointing at a post. Then he remembered something. "There's another message board, where his real fans go." Novak typed in a link and pressed 'go'. A few seconds later, the 'Bam Site' popped up.
"How could I forget about this?" Gee said. He read a post made by one of the members on the board.
'Yeah, Ryan said that the doctor should turn off the oxygen. I love Bam because he's an idol of mine and I'd never want him to die, but I would never, ever want him to suffer like he would've if he was alive. Props to Ryan for thinking about that. So, who else is going to the wake? Anyone else other than Katie and I?'
Novak and Gee were silent.
"That Eks is a smart girl, huh?" a voice said from behind them. Novak and Gee spun around and what they saw, would be in their minds forever.