Author's Note: Yay! I said I would get another chapter done before break ended and I actually did! Three cheers for me! Though unfortunately I ran into a minor problem with Alter Ego, so I haven't been able to update that like I planned. I actually wrote the chapter for it but I think it came out a bit on the dark side…or something. I really hope I can fix it without a complete rewrite.
Anyway, that's not this story so I'll stop whining and get on with business! First thing's first – I have to address the 'hair issue'. Yes, I realize that a) Inuyasha should technically have a GI haircut (not to mention all the others) and b) Naraku and Kouga don't exactly look like your classic Germans (blonde and blue-eyed) but I'm afraid these things could not be helped. No one in Inuyasha (that I know of) is blonde and blue-eyed, so that would mean I'd have to invent new characters for those roles, which isn't nearly as much fun. Also I've seen movies and things with dark-haired Nazis, not to mention the fact that Hitler himself had dark hair (though I realize he was a bit of a hypocrite about that). And frankly I don't think any one of you really wants to see Inuyasha with a buzz cut (now there's an image for you – he'd look like a cat!). So, if you'll just bare with me on minor issues such as these (and I realize no one who mentioned this stuff intended it as offense – none taken either) that would be lovely. Besides, in a world where an American pilot can have dog ears, I think there's room to stretch the truth just a little!
That being said, thank you all for your wonderful reviews! They are an excellent motivator for me. And now, just a couple of very brief replies:
Chibi Horsewoman: Uh-oh, someone who knows the military. I'm in trouble (grins sheepishly). 'Fraid I may have to bend the rules a bit for the sake of the story (see above explanation), but I hope you'll forgive me! Feel free to point out any additional errors anyway though – maybe I can prevent a few…
Akutenchi: Um, I'm not sure I understand your question. Kagome and Sango are both French and Kikyo is British (for the purposes of the story, of course). None of the women in the story are German. Hope that clears it up!
Missing in ActionChapter 7: Utopia
Pain.
Wrenching, earsplitting, mind-numbing pain. That was the very first thing to
come to his awareness. He had no idea why he was in such pain, nor was he in
any condition to care, for his consciousness did not yet extend to that level
of thinking. As the darkness of a deathlike sleep gradually melted away he
became more accustomed to the pain, feeling it pulse and throb, noticing, with
the return of his capacity for organized thought, that it was localized in his
head.
For a few minutes he merely lay still, eyes closed, concentrating
on breathing in and out. After a while he realized that the pain was subsiding,
becoming more of a dull ache in his skull. Finally he cracked open his eyes,
wary of the light of the outside world in contrast to the now familiar
darkness.
As his eyes adjusted to the brightness and came into focus he
observed a strange old man hovering over him. The man's clothes were worn and
rumpled, his hair and beard grey and somewhat unkempt and windblown, by the
looks of it. His face held the lines of many years and troubles past, but the
blue-grey eyes peering out of it were kind and bright, crinkled in a smile.
"You're awake," the man commented in a somewhat rough but pleased
voice as he settled back in a chair beside the bed. "What's your name young
fellow?"
He frowned slightly with the effort of thought, trying to recall
it. "Uh...it's...Miroku," he replied finally, his throat somewhat raw and
scratchy from non-use. "That's it, Miroku." He sighed, relieved that his memory
hadn't been permanently damaged. But what the hell had happened to him? Why did
his head hurt so much?
The old man chuckled good-naturedly. "Good, at least you don't
have amnesia."
"Who are you? How did I get here?" Miroku questioned, taking in
his surroundings. He was in some sort of cabin, apparently in the woods from
what he could see out the open window in the wall beside the bed. The room he
was in was small and rugged, but not uncomfortable. In fact it was rather cozy.
Aside from the bed, the only furniture was a cabinet on the far wall, a small,
rough-hewn wooden table, and two chairs, one of which the man was currently
seated in. There was a woven rug spread on the floor and various homey odds and
ends like candles and blankets and books spread about the room. The room had
two doors, one seeming to lead to a second room, the other leading outside.
The old man watched as he surveyed the room with interest. "I'm
called Teiresias. I came upon you in the woods, mortally wounded, and brought
you here to treat you. Relax," he said calmingly, reaching out a hand when
Miroku made to sit up, "You're still healing. That was quite the lucky shot you
took," he commented with a smile. "A centimeter further in and you'd surely
have been killed instantly. Indeed the men who shot you must have thought you
so, not to have shot you again, finishing the job.
"I heard the weapons fire while I was out collecting firewood,
went to investigate. There you were, lying unconscious on the ground, bleeding
from the head, and I could hear those goddamned soldiers retreating, stomping
about like elephants on parade. At first I believed you were dead, indeed you
should have been, if only due to blood loss, but upon closer inspection I found
you still had a pulse. You've been in a coma since then, and I was afraid you
might not wake from it. Until now, that is.
"I've used a few home remedies to dull the pain, bandaged you up
as best I could. You tend to learn a great deal about mending injuries living
alone out here, and I expect you'll make a full recovery. You can feel all your
limbs and everything, can you not? No paralysis?"
Miroku flexed his hands slowly, testing the muscles, doing the
same with his feet. Everything seemed to be in order, with the obvious
exception of his head, which still ached as though he'd gone on a weeklong
drinking binge.
"Good," the man said, getting to his feet and moving across the
room to tidy up the various supplies strewn over the tabletop.
Miroku closed his eyes again, trying to piece together his
fragmented memory. By now he could remember pretty much everything up through
his last visit with Sango and Kagome. From there, however, things became a bit
sketchy. He wasn't entirely certain how much time had passed between leaving
the village and his encounter with the soldiers. He had some vague memory of
having returned to the Resistance base in between, but he might have been
imagining it. Then gradually he recalled images of the woods at night. He was
running, running for his life, pursued relentlessly by the sound of harsh
voices snapping orders in German, and gunfire echoing in the dark as bullets
ricocheted off the trees around him. He felt the panic welling within him, his
mind overcome with the will to survive, primal and instinctive, giving him the
strength to keep running even as his lungs burned and muscles screamed with the
effort.
Then suddenly there was an unspeakable, shooting pain in the left
side of his head, tearing his flesh, rattling his skull and depriving him of
all remnants of rational thought as he gave a cry of mortal anguish, before
falling into utter blackness.
"No...!" he said breathlessly, snapping awake, sweat rolling down
his face. He didn't remember having fallen asleep, so subtly had his thoughts
melted from those of consciousness into dreams.
Breath coming in uneven gasps, his pulse slowly returning to
normal, he glanced out the window. The sky was slightly overcast, but not dark;
he couldn't have been asleep all that long. But the room was empty at the moment
-- the man was nowhere to be seen.
He took a deep breath, returning his gaze to the window. I
wonder how long I've been here, he thought. I wonder where Sango is.
Does she even realize I'm gone?
His head was feeling a bit better, no doubt due to Teiresias'
'home remedies,' and Miroku managed to push himself up into a sitting position.
A cool breeze played across his face, and he reached up to gingerly finger the
bandage that was wrapped around his head, testing the wound.
The sound of the door opening drew his attention to Teiresias,
who entered the cabin, a smile on his face and a small sack in his hand. "Hi
there," said the older man as he emptied a collection of leaves and herbs onto
the table.
Miroku watched him with interest as he settled in to sort
meticulously through the strange plants. It was strange the way this man and
his little hut seemed completely cut off from the war going on around him,
untouched and unscathed by it's violence and destruction. Yet it wasn't as if
he was some sort of uneducated hermit. He spoke as one who had lived among
people, and the many well-worn books stacked around the tiny room were evidence
that he could, and did, read.
"I don't mean to sound rude or anything, but what exactly do you
do here? How did you come to live in this place?" he asked curiously.
The man smiled amusedly. "I was wondering when you would ask
that. Most people I come across are curious about me, not that I come across
many who take the time to talk these days. Too many soldiers about."
"Why don't the soldiers harm you?"
"I'm not worth their time," he replied with a wink. "They leave
me to my business as long as I don't get in their way. Most of them, especially
that Colonel Kouga, take me for a crazy old hermit. I suppose I'm worth more to
them alive if only so they can joke about me amongst themselves. The joke's on
them though, isn't it?"
Miroku returned the man's smile, coming to increasingly
appreciate his sharp wit. "But how is it that you live here in the first
place?" he inquired again.
"I didn't always. In fact, I grew up in the village, lived there
most of my life. My wife and I used to run a bed and breakfast there, years
ago, before she passed on. Just wasn't the same without her, I suppose. The
world itself was beginning to change, and I decided that I was tired of
changing with it. So, I built this place, took my books and a few essentials,
and made a world of my own to live in. I've been here for, oh, about fifteen
years now. It's a quiet sort of life to be sure, but it serves me well.
Especially of late."
Miroku listened in fascinated silence. In a way he envied this
man, envied the uncomplicated simplicity of his life, and wondered if he could
ever do it himself -- give up the world like that. But he knew in his heart
that there was at least one thing, one person rather, that he could
never leave behind. "Sounds like a good life," he mused. "I only wish mine
could be as simple."
"It can be; it will be. All you have to do is work out the
tangles and live through the rough times. Eventually, we all get there, one way
or another."
The younger man eyed him skeptically for a moment, but Teiresias
merely continued at his work. "I hope so," he murmured.
* * *
Sango knelt gingerly before the wide, dark stain which tainted
the ground of the clearing, clutching a hand to her stomach, her breath coming
in shallow, almost-sobs as she vaguely registered Inuyasha's confirmation that
the blood belonged to Miroku.
"No..." she whispered, tears coming to her eyes as it seemed that
the nightmares which had plagued her these days past were being played out
before her. Miroku's kind countenance swam before her like a vision, his
expression at once calm and mischievous, as only he could be. "Jesus god, it
can't be..."
It was then that a ray of hope broke through her despair, and she
clung to Inuyasha's words like a lifeline as he said with puzzled surprise,
"The trail...it...goes out from here, but not in the direction of the village.
Why would the Nazis have taken him away to be buried? It doesn't make sense,
unless..."
Her eyes widened, a desperate light coming into them, and she
quickly got to her feet. "Unless what?" she demanded urgently. "Inuyasha, do
you think he might have survived?"
"There's only one way to find out..."
* * *
A cool breeze played across Miroku's face, ruffling his short,
dark hair and stirring up the leaves from the forest floor. He was seated
comfortably against a tree -- in fact, come to think of it, he felt no
discomfort whatsoever, in his head or otherwise. That's odd... he mused,
but his surroundings were so pleasant that he simply couldn't bring himself to
puzzle it further.
So this was what utopia was like. Birds in the trees, peaceful,
serene solitude like a spell over all the world. It was, for lack of a better
word, perfection. Yet there was something missing...
A distant voice, hardly more than a whisper for all that he could
hear of it, reached him on the wind. It called to him, beckoned him, and he
felt drawn to it almost instinctively.
"Miroku..."
Again it called, louder this time as it grew closer. It was
familiar to him but he could not fully identify it through the haze of bliss
that seemed to fill his mind.
"Miroku..."
When the voice came a third time, still louder, he could just
detect a hint of desperation in it. It was then that he knew whom it belonged
to.
"Sango...?" he whispered questioningly.
Her voice answered him with another, more desperate call, though
she did not seem to have heard him, and his heart swelled at the sound, the
world around him becoming dimmer, more illusory. But he took no notice of this.
All of his senses were trained on that voice, which seemed to pull him away
from his utopia to...somewhere else. And he found he was more than willing to
go.
"Miroku..."
"Sango..." Miroku said sleepily, his eyes opening slowly, mind
readjusting to the waking world. The strange pain medication that the old man
had given him had put him soundly to sleep and made his brain run a bit slower
than usual even as he woke. But the voice...was it real?
"Miroku...!" He heard it, louder and more urgent than ever from
outside the cabin. It was her. It had to be her.
"Sango..." he called more loudly, praying that she would hear.
His efforts were rewarded when the door to the hut burst open and
a wild-eyed Sango appeared.
"Miroku! Oh thank god you're alright," she sobbed, falling to her
knees beside the bed and clutching his hand in her own, pressing her cheek
against it as though to prove to herself that he was real.
He lifted his other hand to her head, gently stroking her hair as
she shook with silent sobs. "It's okay," he soothed, "I'll be fine Sango."
"Dammit Miroku, I was so worried about you!" she said bitterly.
"When I heard that...and then we found... You should have let us know you were
alright, sent word or something!"
"He's been in a coma, miss," Teiresias explained gently, and
Sango turned back to look at him. By then Kagome and Inuyasha had caught up and
were standing in the doorway, looking exceedingly relieved. "You needn't worry
about him anymore," the old man assured her when fear flashed across her face
at the mention of a coma. "He still needs to recover a bit, and for that he can
stay here. You are welcome to stay as well if you like. But for now," he said,
meeting eyes with Kagome and Inuyasha, "perhaps the three of us should give you
a little privacy."
Kagome nodded in agreement and herded Inuyasha out the door,
Sango giving the old man a grateful look as he too exited the hut.
Once they were alone Miroku merely observed the young woman
before him, not entirely sure what to make of her actions. She had apparently
been worried sick over him, and yet had she not, at their last meeting, made it
perfectly clear that she wanted nothing to do with 'someone like him'?
Sango continued to stare after the others for a moment, lost in
her thoughts, trying to decide how to proceed. Finally she took a deep breath
and turned back to face him.
"Miroku," she began, still holding his hand, but more gently now
than before, "I want to apologize for the way I acted before, when you came to
the cafe that last time. I...I know I hurt you, and I had no right to say those
things. At first I thought perhaps you didn't come back because of me, and I
felt so guilty, and then I was worried you might be dead and I would never have
a chance to tell you that...to-to make things right. I'm sorry..."
His heart sank in his chest as she spoke, and he slipped his hand
out of hers, averting his eyes as he pushed himself into a sitting position. Of
course that was it. She felt guilty. She was worried he'd go to his grave and
leave her with a goddamn insult on her conscience. Why should it be any more
than that? he thought bitterly.
She watched him apprehensively, confused by the hurt that flashed
in his eyes. "Miroku...?" she inquired softly.
"Is that all there was to it then?" he asked evenly, before he
could stop himself, still unwilling to meet her questioning eyes.
"I don't understand," she replied, wishing he would at least look
at her.
There was no turning back now, so he continued in a deadpan. "Was
that all you wanted from me? You wanted to make sure I'd forgiven you, is that
it?" He finally met her gaze. "I'm not so petty as to hold a grudge, for
something like that, Sango. Consider your conscience cleared."
"Then why are you still looking at me like that?" she asked,
moving to sit on the edge of the bed. "I said I was sorry. I don't know what
else I can do."
"Sango," he said softly, "you may not have meant to hurt me, but
the bottom line is that you did mean what you said. We both know that. It's not
your fault; you can't change the way you feel about me any more than I can
change the way I feel about you."
She stared into his eyes, entranced, finally beginning to
understand what he was saying. Did he mean...? But...how was that possible? She
swallowed, trying to get her voice to work again. "And...how is that, exactly?"
The pain flared in his violet eyes once more as he raised a
chaste hand to her cheek. "Isn't it obvious? I'm in love with you, Sango."
Her heart seemed to stop as his sweet, velvety voice resonated
with the words she'd hardly been aware of longing for. But in that moment she
knew once and for all that this was what she had been waiting to hear all her
life. For the first time since she'd come in the door, she knew exactly what to
say to him.
She lifted her own hand to cover the one he still held to her
cheek. "I've got news for you, hentai," she said with a sly smile, "I'm in love
with you as well."
Of all the things he had expected her to say in reply, that was
furthest from his mind. His eyes grew wide in surprise, locked with her own,
which shone like fireflies in the waning daylight from the window. "You..." he
began, but she merely nodded, answering him before he even had a chance to
finish.
Seeing that she was serious he drew her forward, capturing her
lips in the sweetest kiss either of them had ever experienced. It wasn't hungry
and lustful, as she would have expected from him, but warm and gentle, like a
silent promise, a silent request. His arms encircled her, but for once wandered
no lower, as he contented himself with the new and deeper emotions stirred to
life by only a kiss.
Only a kiss... he mused. A deceptively simple description
of something much, much more meaningful than he ever would have believed.
At last they broke apart, both smiling secretively to each other.
Carefully, she ran a delicate hand over the left side of his bandaged head,
where the faint stain of blood was just visible through the cloth.
"Does it hurt?" she asked him, concerned.
"Not anymore," he replied with a smile, which she returned. They
were so close he could see himself reflected in her eyes.
Now this is what I call utopia...
A/N: Okay, please review and tell me if this is good or not. It's the middle of the night and I'm a tiny bit unsure about my ability to gauge melodrama so…yeah. So is it too sappy, too dry, or just right? Let me know if you would and I'll do what I can to balance in future chapters. Thanks so much!
