I Thought He Was Perfect
Disclaimer: I do not own CCS, CLAMP does. I do own this plot though
A/N hey sorry I haven't been updating but I've been really busy and since today is a snow day I decided to take my day off and type out this chapter! I hope you all like and thanks for the wonderful reviews! .
Recap of chapter 10…
"NO! And even if I did, why would you care so much?" Sakura asked outraged by the way he was acting, even if she liked the idea of being with Syaoran.
"Because!" was all he said
"Because why?" Sakura asked.
"Just because!" he answered.
"Because why?" she yelled getting fed up with the way he was acting.
"Because…" and the next thing Sakura knew, Tadashi was kissing her…
Chapter 11: You Need to Help Me
Sakura was shocked to say the least. This was the last thing she would have ever thought he would have done. She had always known he had always had a bit of a crush on her, but she didn't think his feelings went so deep as to kiss her. She was so surprised she couldn't do anything; she just stood there while Tadashi kept his lips on hers. When he finally pulled away and she came to her senses she did the only thing that seemed right…she slapped him.
Tadashi yelled an ouch while placing his hand gingerly on the place she had slapped. "What was that for?" he shouted.
"Why did you do that?" Sakura asked taking a step away from him.
"Why did I do what?" Tadashi asked playing dumb.
"Don't play dumb with me! You know exactly what I'm talking about!" Sakura yelled.
"Because I wanted to," was all he said.
"That's not a good enough answer," Sakura stated firmly.
"Well what else do you want me to say?" Tadashi asked getting exasperated; he really didn't want to answer this question.
"Anything that can explain why you just kissed me," Sakura said simply trying to keep her head in the situation.
"You really want to know why?" Tadashi asked after a few moments. Sakura only nodded her head in response. "I'm madly in love with you Sakura."
Sakura's eyes widened in response and she stared at him. She couldn't think of a response.
"Aren't you going to say something?" Tadashi asked with a bit of panic in his voice. Her rejecting him was the last thing he wanted.
"How?" she said after a long moment of silence.
"What do you mean how?" he asked confused.
"How is it that you could be in love with me? I married your best friend…"
"I loved you the whole time you were with him, you were just so happy with him that I decided to keep it quiet and wish you'd come to me one day," he said sadly starting to look down at the floor.
"I don't know what else to say…" Sakura said softly. She felt so bad that he had been carrying these feelings for her all these years and she hadn't even noticed. He had loved her and watched as she dated his best friend, married him and had his child.
"Tell me that you have some feelings for me, tell me that there's a chance that we can be together Sakura, please?" he said desperately
Sakura closed her eyes as if she was trying to look in her heart and see if she could find feelings for Tadashi that were more than simply friendship, but there was only one face that she could see while she was searching. She tried but after a few moments she realised that those feelings weren't there.
She opened her eyes and looked at him sadly. When Tadashi saw that look he already knew what she was going to say. "Tadashi, I'm sorry but my feelings for you don't go past friendship… I-I think I'm in love with someone else."
The expression on his face was heartbreaking but it was something that had to be said. "It's him isn't it?"
"Who?" Sakura asked confused.
"That guy that was just here. What did you say his name was? Li?" Tadashi asked in a bitter voice.
Sakura looked down with a defeated look and nodded her head. "Yes it's him. But he doesn't know how I feel about him."
Horrible thoughts started to run through Tadashi's head about the amber-eyed man he had just met. He wanted get revenge on the man for taking Sakura's heart so easily while he had been after it for years. He had to get out of there and away from her so he could be alone with his thoughts. "Goodbye Sakura," he said in a cold voice that Sakura had never heard him use. He then started to turn around and head for the door. Right when he was about to open the door and walk out Sakura called over to him.
"Wait! Tadashi, I really am sorry you know," she said and ran over to the door.
"So am I Sakura, so am I," he said and walked out the door leaving Sakura standing there watching him leave in his car.
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Syaoran was now at home laying on his bed thinking to himself. He was wondering what Sakura's relationship with guy that came over was. He could tell that he had strong feelings for Sakura by the way he was acting around him, but Sakura seemed oblivious to his feelings.
Then there was the picture he found. It couldn't be possible for her to still love Koji could it? She had told him before that she didn't want anything to do with the guy, but could it all be an act? In the picture they looked like they were really in love, could feelings like that just disappear in the blink of an eye over an incident like this? Or maybe they had been having problems before…
He started to shake his head to get rid of the thoughts. He had to stop getting jealous over every guy in Sakura's life…even if he had only met two… but that wasn't the point. He knew that he had feelings for Sakura, but he wasn't going to tell her about them until he knew she was over her last relationship. Maybe he'd let her make the first move, that way he'd know she was ready for sure…but what if she never made the first move? What if she wanted him to make the first move? Than he would never know if she had feelings for him or not! Now he had something to think about.
To make the first move or not to make the first move? That is the question.
Syaoran turned over and buried his head in his pillow. These thoughts were going to be keeping him up all night.
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The next afternoon Tadashi found himself driving over to the prison Koji was being held in. He drove around for hours last night thinking about the situation he was in. He had come to two conclusions. One, he could be a bystander and watch as Sakura went off with that Li guy and left him to watch history repeat it's self like it had with Koji or…two, he could get revenge on Sakura for making him cling to lost hope all these years.
He pulled up in the prison parking lot, walked inside, and went up to a receptionist.
"Can I help you?" she asked dully. Clearly showing she didn't want to be here.
"I'm here to visit someone," he stated firmly.
"Who is it you wish to be visiting?" she asked in the same voice as before.
"Koji Tzu."
"Take this card, walk down the hall to your left, on the third door walk in and show it to the guard and take a seat and he will go and fetch Mr. Tzu. Any questions?"
"Nope, I'm good."
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Koji was outside. It was exercise time for the prisoners and since it was sunny out, they took them outside that day.
He hated it here, the guys were jerks, the food was crap…he would have much rather attempted to eat one of Sakura's concoctions than eat the meals here… and everywhere you went it was dreary, like it was impossible to be happy around here. Of course he knew there was no point to be happy since it was prison after all, but he was so used to having Sakura's cheerful personality everywhere he went.
On the plus side, his dad had come to visit him a couple of times. Not that he was happy about what his son had done or proud that he was in here, but he felt it was his duty to make sure he was okay here. He also couldn't forget that he had given him a pack of cigarettes to, in his words, swap them so he wouldn't become someone's bitch.
He was snapped out of his thoughts when a guard came up to him. "Tzu! You have a visitor!"
Koji got up and followed the guard out. It was probably just his father again.
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When Koji sat down he was surprised to say the least when he saw who was sitting across from him. He watched him point to the phone on his side and pick up his own. Koji understood he was telling him to pick up the phone so they could talk. He picked up the phone and spoke.
"Tadashi? What are you doing here?" Tadashi hadn't come to see him once since he had come here. It was a surprise to see him here sitting in front of him.
"Just came to see you old buddy," was the reply he received.
Koji let out a snort, "Yeah right, I've been here for like three months and you haven't even made an effort to see me, so why are you here?"
"So how's life behind bars?" Tadashi asked ignoring his comment.
"Sucks. So why are you here?" Koji asked again.
"Hmm for some reason I already knew you'd say that. So make any knew friends?" Tadashi continued to ignore Koji's questions.
"Damn it Tadashi! Just tell me why the hell you're here!" Koji yelled angrily slamming his phone on the table in front of him and then putting it back up to his ear.
Tadashi sighed and figured he better get to the point now. "It's Sakura…"
"What about her?" Koji asked. He hated talking about Sakura, it didn't help that he thought about her everyday since he came here, or that no matter how hard he tried to hate her he couldn't help but love her.
"She-well she-she rejected me…" Tadashi sighed.
Koji smirked at him, "You're complaining to me about how my ex-wife doesn't want to be in a relationship with you? That's sad man."
"It's because she's in love with another guy," Tadashi told him seriously.
The smirk vanished off of Koji's face, "She's moving on?"
"Yup, the guy's tall, strong, good looking-"
"You came to tell me this!" Koji yelled through the phone interrupting Tadashi's description.
"Figured you should know, it's like she's forgotten you even existed," it was Tadashi's turn to smirk.
"Why would you come and tell me that?" Koji asked annoyed.
"I want to make her pay." Tadashi said in a serious tone.
Koji started to laugh, "You want her to pay for rejecting you? Forgive me for thinking that's a stupid reason to come see me."
"I want you to help me Koji."
"Why should I help you?" Koji laughed some more.
"Don't you want her to pay for finding someone else?" Tadashi asked getting desperate.
Koji was silent for a minute, "Of course I want her to pay. She can't just find someone else to be Sumiko's father. I'm her father! And I always will be!"
"So then help me! If we can't have Sakura then nobody else will!" Tadashi was desperately trying to get his help.
"In case you forgot, I can't help you. I'm in prison, I will be for many years." Koji pointed out.
"Then I'll just have to help you get out of here."
TBC
A/N Hey everyone! Here's the chapter eleven! I hope you all liked it. Koji's back and the action is about to start! I'm sorry I haven't updated in awhile but I've been super busy! My friend needed a fourth for her curling team and asked me to join so just for her I said yes…even though I've never curled in my life! I've been so sore! If any of you curl and can successfully get out of the hack…you are my hero! Anyways, read and review! Ciao!