A/N: Wow! Thanks everyone. Here's the second chapter! And thanks for telling me Du Hast meant "to have" in German, and du hasst means "to hate" Well it even works out better now! Hehehehe. A thanks for *Kiao* :sparkly effect: for being a beta even in her hard times. Thanks so much!!!

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Du Hast

Chapter Two: Burned Candle

Despite Yuki's misgivings, Shindou Shuichi was in reality a simple creature. He ran after his own desires and sought to achieve them by his own means; an honest person that held no complex meanings. But because he was honest, he was the hardest to understand for one Yuki Eiri.

Yuki looked at his cigarette and wondered why Shindou seemed so different from the others. He was honest; that was it wasn't it? People didn't stay honest; in fact he found dishonest people easier to deal with; you could always trust that they'll be dishonest.

Strange enough, he actually did believe Shuichi was honest, that idiot couldn't be anything else. Honest about his music, honest about his feelings…

Stepping on the cigarette to put it out, he walks away, intent on banishing all thoughts from his head.

You don't want sex. You don't want my money. What do you want of me?

*******

"So don't fail me now sleepless dreams…." Shuichi drifted off, not noticing he had sang different lyrics.

"Shiuchi! Pay attention! The concert is tomorrow and your single is coming out in two weeks. We need to finish!" Sakano was in hysterics once again.

Shuichi was singing; just in his dreams.

Flurry of snowflakes mock my very soul

The open topaz diamond cut leaves no scar

Can you even spell naïve?

"Can there be such a thing as sleep-singing? Because Shindou-san surely is asleep." Suugaku was stating the obvious, but the lyrics did somehow  fit the current situation that Shindou Shuichi was in.

Early on, they learned their favorite writer was gone as a result of the grueling recording sessions induced by a hysterical Shindou Shuichi during the first couple of days. But now… Yuki, Yuki Eiri, had been gone approximately a week. Shindou had moped for four days but as suddenly as he started, he stopped enquiring and pining for blond writer.

His smiles became more enigmatic, and to Hiro his genki smiles became more and more forced. Shuichi seemed to be more comfortable in his singer persona than his actual life.

K had noticed and tried to track down the blond writer to help regain the pink-haired idiot's health, but for some odd reason he really was nowhere to be found. The oh so wonderful president of NG could not be found for comment either. Tohma had seemed a bit strained as well.

So baring that, here they were, on day 7, no Yuki in sight, Shuichi losing that hyper energy but gaining a mysterious aura…..and a concert tomorrow.

Hiro took the headphones off Shuichi and starts to lead him out the door. "I guess that's it for today. There's no helping it, if I know this baka, he hasn't slept for the past few days."

Hiro waved and dragged Shuichi along.

"Baka. What have you been doing in that empty apartment of yours? It's not like you haven't been away from that dumb blonde a week before…"

"Yuki……no…Aizawa."

"Shuichi! What the heck are you saying?"  Upon hearing Shuichi utter the name of the rapist , Hiro tried to shake his friend into reality.

"I love….Aizawa." Shindou said drowsily.

Now that was really bizarre, Shindou was absolutely devoted to Yuki.

What was he dreaming?!

****

He was back in that dark space again. In his mind, the faces of Yuki started to fade away to become Aizawa, till the desire to see and touch Yuki faded away into  memories.

Strange though, he did not recall when this change happened….the doctor's maybe? It was she who recommended the sleeping pills that guaranteed dreamless, fitful sleep.

FlashBack

Dr. Saeki, I been having recurring nightmares lately.

I see. What exactly are these nightmares about?

Iwasrapedformydearyukibutnowwehadanargumetnandidon'tseemtocarebecauseibeenhavingthesenightmaresthatyukican'tevenentermymind….

Whoa, slow down, Shindou-san. But I see where this is going. Shindou-san you're suffering from psychological trauma. I don't know why it's taken so long to set in; from your explanation I had thought you were the type to just ignore it but for some reason it's coming back to haunt you. Here, take these pills. Make sure you only swallow one a day, before you go to bed. If you take anymore I can't guaranteed that it won't affect your brain stimulus and alter you in some way. You have been warned Shindou-san.

Of course, those little red pills were helpful. However, it was hard to take only one, especially when it only let him have half the night in peace, and the other half in agony. He had slowly increased the dosage until a month prescription became one that would only last two weeks, if he kept the pace up.

Before it had felt like too much of an effort to even move but now he was smiling more often.. The slow spreading of lips, tilting up; that was a smile right?

The ground shook and blackness receded all of a sudden.

"Shindou Shuichi! What did you just say about Aizawa! Did he come and bother you guys again?" Hiro had become increasingly worried and angry at the same time.

Shindou looked on in confusion.

"What do you mean? I said I loved Ai- er..um..Yuki. You must have heard wrong."

Hiro slowly let go of Shindou shoulders, and waves his hand in front of Shindou's face.

"You can't lie Shuichi. What happened to you?"

Before Shindou could rack his drugged brain to figure out what Hiro was talking about, Sakano and Suugaku came running toward them.

"Bad news! We just found out from Shacho that Yuki Eiri is in the hospital!"

A/N: Thanks everyone for the reviews! I think it's the most reviews I gotten for one chapter; it almost exceeds the reviews I have for one story alone! I'm sorry about the length I only write when the mood hits me which isn't often. Also I apologize for the song taking up space. Hopefully you like how this is going; if not oh well. I'm always afraid to live up to reviewer's expectations….still encourage me I might write more! *hint hint*