Chapter 15:
Something stupid
The night of Joey's party…
Joey was in his apartment, getting ready for his party. He was taking a shower while he thought about what he had done… he couldn't believe that he asked Monica to go to the party with him. What the hell was he doing? He knew he couldn't really date Monica… She was way out of his reach… because she was in love with Chandler… "She belongs to Chandler just like Rachel belongs to Ross" he reminded him self that. He wasn't going to have any hopes with Monica like he had before with Rachel. He got his heart broken once… and that was enough for a lifetime.
Suddenly and old song came to is mind:
I know I stand in line until you think you have the time to spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance I know that there's a chance you won't be leaving with me
Joey knew that Monica was going out with him as a friend… just to spend some time with him because she wanted to have fun and she didn't have anything better to do… and she knew for certain that it wasn't a real date… She wasn't going to go home with him after the party… he was very aware of that.
After the shower, Joey put on his tuxedo and went to the living room where his roommate was there, looking at him with a big smile on her face.
Rachel- so… tonight is the big night… you look very hansom on that tuxedoJoey rolled his eyes… Didn't people know that Monica was still crazy about Chandler? Was Joey the only one aware of that? Why did everybody keep behaving like he had a date with Monica? Joey simply raised his thumb and said:
Joey- that's right Rach… I'm so going to score
The sarcasm on his voice was unmistakable.
Rachel- anyway… I am going to spend the night here with Emma and the twins… so, if you do score please score at Monica's…
Joey- oh yes… that exactly what I want… to have sex with Monica in Chandler's old bed.
Once again, Joey was being clearly sarcastic…. So Rachel just rolled her eyes and sighed. Then Monica showed up with the twins at Joey's apartment… she was looking great wearing the dress she bought when she went shopping with Rachel and Phoebe.
Joey was ready to go so Monica left the twins with Rachel and went with Joey to the party.
A couple of hours later, they were having a great time enjoying the party, which was great. Monica decided to get a drink and Joey went with her…
Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place and have a drink or two.
Monica couldn't believe she was having such a great time… she couldn't believe that she was actually happy and, for the first time in what seemed an eternity, the reason of her happiness was neither Chandler nor the twins. Monica was actually having a very amazing date… she was having the kind of date that could only happen when is not actually a date.
Monica- thank you so much for inviting me Joey…
Joey- it's been a pleasure…
They noticed two actresses gossiping and looking at them… one of the actresses was obviously jealous and gave Monica a killer look… Monica couldn't help laughing.
Monica- Do you realize something Joe? Everybody is wondering two things: Who the hell is that thin brunette? And why on earth is SHE Joey Trivianni's date?
Joey- well… the answers to those questions are: she is Monica Geller… and she is Joey Trivianni's date because she is gorgeous…
Monica smiled… And she didn't know why, but at that moment she let Joey kiss her. And they shared a very passionate kiss….
And then I go and spoil it all by saying something stupid like I love you.
While Joey was kissing Monica she felt more vulnerable than ever… he didn't said "I love you"… but he felt like his feelings where right on the surface, for everybody to see.
Not being able to keep their hands out of each other, they went to Monica's apartment. They made out there for a while… but just when things were hitting up the unthinkable happened… Joey started to freak out… he pulled Monica away.
Joey- wait a minute Mon… I'm not sure about this…Monica never thought she would see the day in which Joey Trivianni got nervous before having sex. She just couldn't believe it… she looked at him amazed.
Monica- what's going on? Don't you want this?
Joey him self didn't understand what was going on. Maybe it was like the time he tried to do it with Rachel and couldn't… maybe he and Monica had a friendship so deep that they just can't take it to the next level… But that just didn't seem possible because when he tried to make love to Rachel it felt very wrong… and with Monica it just felt right… so right. He finally realized what was happening.
Joey- I want this Mon… but I'm very nervous…
Monica- why?
Joey- well… you are special to me… you are not like any other girl I ever had and I'm scared because of what might happen if we do this… besides… I'm concern about all the great expectation you might have about tonight just because of…
Monica- of your reputation?
Joey- exactly… you must understand that the fact that I had sex with a lot of women doesn't say anything about how good I am in bed…
Monica- oh… I know that…
Joey- I'm afraid you might wake up tomorrow thinking: "Was that it? Why did all the other girls made it seem as such a big deal?"
Seeing Joey so insecure was something completely new to Monica… but she considered is insecurity very sweet… after all she did fall in love with Chandler… the most insecure man on earth.
She knew that Joey wanted something to happen between them more that anyone… he was just nervous and he needed a little push…
I can see it in your eyes that you despise the same old lines you heard the night before
And though it's just a line to you for me it's true and never seemed so right before.
Monica- I think I will go to fresh up…
Joey looked at her disappearing into the bathroom… he thought that he had scared her with his "you are special" speech… Joey wanted to kick him self… why did he have to expose his feelings like that? Monica probably didn't believe him and thought that he was just saying some lines to get her into bed… but he wasn't saying any line… it was the whole truth.
I practice every day to find some clever lines to say to make the meaning come true
But then I think I'll wait until the evening gets late and I'm alone with you
Suddenly Monica walked out the bathroom…. She was wearing nothing but a long t-shirt… Joey looked at her amazed. They kissed and then Monica simply said:
Monica- don't worry Joey, I'm not Rachel.
Joey- and I'm not Chandler…
Monica- good
Joey- good
They kissed and went to Monica's bedroom where they had mind-blowing sex
The time is right your perfume fills my head, the stars get red, And, oh, the night's so blue And then I go and spoil it all By saying something stupid Like I love you
I love you...
It was very early on the morning. Monica was still sleeping in Joey's arms when he heard someone knocking the door. She figured it would be Rachel who was coming to return the twins to their home. Trying not to wait Joey up she went to answer the door… Chandler was there… he was looking horrible, very pale and with huge bags under his eyes.
Chandler- please… may I come in?
Monica- what happened? What are you doing here?
Chandler- I needed to talk to you… not as your ex husband… but as someone who used to be your best friend…
Monica- but Chandler…
Monica was about to tell him that he couldn't come in… but Chandler interrupted her.
Chandler- Mon… I came here because I needed to talk to my best friend… I'm miserable Mon… I'm in big trouble… and I know that what I did to you was horrible but I needed to see you as my best friend I need to talk to my best friend.
Monica saw he was in a horrible state… so she let him in.
Monica- come in… but you can't do too much noise… there are people sleeping here, is too early. I'll make you some coffee…
Chandler- ok…
Monica started making coffee for both of them.
Monica- What happened to you, Chandler?
Chandler- Andy and I broke up… now I have absolutely no one… I'm completely alone…
Monica wasn't really ready to talk about Chandler and Andrew's relationship… but she saw that Chandler was really miserable so she tried to be supportive and she casually asked:
Monica- why did you two break up?
Chandler- well… Andrew was looking for a gay man… and I realized that I'm not really gay.
Monica dropped the cup of coffee she was about to give him.
Monica- oh my God!
Chandler- I know what you are thinking… and don't worry…. I know you are not going to take me back after what I did…
Monica- I can't take you back…
Monica avoided completely making eye contact with Chandler, instead she focused on cleaning the mess caused by the cup of coffee dropping.
Chandler- I know… that's why I'm like this… because I know I have no right to have you back after what I did… as I said… I just needed to see you as a friend…
Monica- just one question… why did you realize just now that you are not gay? I mean… you've been with Andrew for months…
Chandler- well… when I found out that you had a date with Joey felt insanely jealous… I didn't took the news as I was supposed too… it was so hard knowing that you moved on… I felt like you replaced me with him…
Monica felt very guilty… she wasn't replacing Chandler, but she WAS dating Joey…
Monica- I'm not replacing you…
Chandler- I know… you are just moving on with your life… you are entitle to be happy… but the fact that you are happy with Joey makes me feel nauseas… I mean, you know he have always been better than me with the girls… he was batman and was robin… do you remember that? And you dating Joey just proves me right…
"You wanted to sleep with batman but you have to settle for Robin", Monica remembered that phrase vividly, Chandler said that when he discovered that in London, Monica had originally wanted to had sex with Joey… but she ended up having sex with Chandler because Joey wasn't in the room. Now it was clear that Chandler never let that go…
Monica- you weren't right… I really did love you… I wasn't settling for you… no matter what's happening now…
Monica knew that it was time to admit that she had sex with Joey last night… and that she was dating him. But Chandler interrupted her.
Chandler- may I go to the bathroom to fresh up? I was wandering on the streets all night, thinking things over…
Monica- ok… go…
When Chandler walked to the bathroom he noticed that Monica's bedroom has its door opened and for some reason he took a look inside the dark room and saw somebody on Monica's bed. He couldn't see that person very clearly…
Chandler- who is sleeping in your bed?
Chandler knew the answer… but he needed Monica to admit it. Monica looked down very embarrassed and very weakly she answered:
Monica- is batman…
To be continued…. (BIG surprise coming up next chapter!)
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