Chapter 17:
A heaven or a hell?
Two months later…
Joey entered in his apartment after a very important meting with his new agent and he saw his roommate, Rachel, who was wandering around the living room very nervously.
Joey- hi… what's up with you Rach?
Rachel- nothing… I'm fine
Joey- you don't look fine…
She pretended to be very offended…
Rachel- well… thanks Joe…
Joey- you know what I mean…
Rachel- well… I'm fine… what about you? What did your agent say?
Joey- I got the job… I'm starring the movie
Rachel started jumping up and down and screaming excitedly. Then she gave Joey a huge embrace. But Joey didn't look happy at all.
Rachel- oh my God! Congratulations! But… why are you so sad?
Joey- I have to move to California… that's where they will shoot the movie…
Rachel- oh no! Does Monica know about that?
Joey- no…
Rachel- Joey! You have to tell her… she is, after all, your girlfriend…
Joey- yes… my girlfriend who still loves Chandler… she won't move to L.A. with her twins just to be with me…
Rachel- enough Joey! Just because she has a huge history with Chandler doesn't mean that she still loves him… she really cares a lot about you…
Joey- but what if she tells me that she wants to stay here and that we should break up if I'm going away? I don't want us to break up… but I have to go to L.A.
Rachel- just ask her… she might want to go with you.
Joey- ok… I'll go right now…
Rachel- you can't… she is at work… she will be home in an hour…
Joey- ok… and who is looking after the twins?
Rachel- Chandler….
Joey was shocked…Joey- AGAIN? What is he trying to do?
Since Phoebe had her daughter, Monica and Chandler became friends again… and that friendship was driving Joey crazy with jealousy. Rachel raised her shoulders.
Rachel- got me… I think he is just lonely
Joey- well… I think he is trying to get Monica back… I told her! Is obvious! That he is "playing friends" just to get close to her again…
Rachel- and what does she thinks about that?
Joey- she is being very naïve… she thinks that he feels very lonely and he just need company… but I don't buy it…
Rachel- if it makes you feel better… I don't think she is ever going to forgive him for cheating on her… I mean… I could never forgive Ross…
"But I did had sex with him two months ago", thought Rachel to her self… "I better not tell Joey that" After bringing Emma back from the hospital two months ago and shearing one great night of sex together, Ross and Rachel decided that it was just "comfort sex" and never talked about it…
Joey- maybe you are right… anyway… I will take a short nap and then I will go and talk to Monica.
An hour later…Monica came back home after a long day at work…. Chandler was there, taking care of little Joey and Elizabeth.
Monica- hello Chandler…
Chandler- hi… how was work?
Monica- as usual… how are the kids?
Chandler- well… little Joey is fine… but Elizabeth went on a date with a very weird guy and she will be out all night.
Monica laughed at the joke…. The twins were almost one year old and it was obvious that both of them were just sleeping in their rooms… She simply followed Chandler's game…
Monica- oh my God! My baby girl is dating already? She is so out of control! Well… she better be using protection…
They both laughed and then made eye contact… and Chandler gave him his best smile. Monica had to admit that she really missed him… but Joey was making her happy and Chandler broke his heart once, so, she wasn't going to think it twice: Joey was the right guy for her now.
Monica went to the twin's bedroom and watched them sleep… But little Joey woke up and raised his little hands… that meant that he wanted Monica to pick him up…
Little Joey- hi mommy
That were the only words he knew so far… he was too little to speak yet… but he could say mommy and hi… and Elizabeth could say "Mom". Monica remembered the first time the twins spoke, a couple of weeks ago, it was one of the happiest days in her life…
Monica- hi… my love… mommy really missed you…
Chandler- they missed you too… you can tell that they really love you…
Monica smiled at Chandler… he always knew what to say to make her feel better…
Monica- thanks… well… now is time for this baby boy to go back to sleep… otherwise he will be in a horrible mood tomorrow morning…Monica putted little Joey in his crib… she rubbed his back and kissed his forehead then she covered him with a blanket… Then she went to see Elizabeth and kissed her goodnight too. After that she went to the living room…
Monica- thank you for babysitting them Chandler… I don't usually work this late anymore, since I adopted the babies, but my boss made me stay late against my will… sometimes I just want to kill him! I mean after the twins were born I only took one week off because he told me that the restaurant would fall apart without me… and he is not capable of doing me one little favor and let me leave early…
Monica was very nervous and talking in ultra-sonic, so Chandler tried to calm her down giving her a friendly hug.
Chandler- is ok… don't worry…
Monica- I just miss the babies so much at work… and every time I leave for work I feel very guilty… is like feeling guilty became a part of my dairy routine… I wish I could spend more time with them.
Chandler looked at him amazed…Chandler- wow… I guess you are really a mother now… you feel guilty and everything
Monica- (smiling) I'm really a mother…
Chandler- and how does it feel?
Monica- like heaven…
Now was Chandler's turn to feel bad and guilty… he wasn't the one who gave Monica a baby… he was the one who couldn't get her pregnant and abandoned her in the middle of the adoption process. He looked down very embarrassed…
Chandler- Mon… I'm sorry… I'm so sorry that I didn't give you a baby… I will regret that for the rest of my life…
Monica- Chandler, don't… don't do this…
Suddenly Chandler was dangerously close to her.
Chandler- I made a terrible mistake… I should have never left… I ruined everything… please forgive me… I never stopped loving you… I was just confused.Monica was speechless… Chandler was very close to kiss her… but suddenly they both noticed that Joey was there. And he was very mad.
Joey- ok Chandler… that's it… I had enough! You and me are going to settle this outside!
Chandler looked at him confused, and Monica was terrified.
Chandler- oh… I'm sorry… outside? It will involve two guns or two swords?
Joey- stop taking! Just go outside so I can kick your confused homosexual ass…
Monica- guys… please… just calm down… solve this like adults.
Chandler- is ok Mon… just wait for me here…
Chandler and Joey went downstairs… Monica desperately followed then to tried to stop the fight while Rachel looked after the twins and Emma feeling very nervous about what was going on.
The guys finally where in the streets…
Chandler- Joey, tell me… what is all this really about?
Joey- I thought it was obvious… what happened Chandler? You are suppose to be the smart one…
Chandler- I'm the smart one…
Monica- guys, stop it! Please!
But neither Chandler nor Joey listened to her. She couldn't believe that Chandler and Joey were fighting over her…. Monica felt like she was in hell...
Joey- then you should now that I don't want my girlfriend's ex husband to try to get her back…
Chandler- this is so not about that! This is about me being the reason why you couldn't be with Monica until now…
Joey- well… but I'm with Monica now… and I will not let you have her again… you jerk…
Monica was now in tears…. In horror he saw Chandler punching Joey's nose… Joey returned the punch with another punch and then they started beating each other up… until Joey punched Chandler stomach, Chandler felt down and Joey kicked him on the back…
Monica desperately ran towards Joey and grabbed his arm and pulled him away from Chandler.Monica- Joey! Stop it! PLEASE! Are you insane? Then Monica went right next to Chandler and helped him to get up…
Monica- Are you ok Chandler?
Chandler could barely nod… Monica- come on… lest go to my apartment… I have a first aids kit there… Joey looked at Monica very hurt and offended… Then he went to his own apartment and locked his self up in his room for the rest of the night. Rachel was no longer in Monica's apartment…. Now Monica and Chandler were alone…Monica- what were you thinking fighting Joey like that? He used to be your best friend! There was only one response Chandler could give her… Chandler- Joey is really in love with you, Mon…
Monica- I'm aware of that, Chandler…
Chandler- but you are still in love with me… right?
Monica was not able to face Chandler she looked down and she simply answered.
Monica- I don't know… I don't know how I feel anymore. Chandler was now freaking out…Chandler- yes… you do know… you still love me and I still love you… we belong together… Mon… I want us to be together again… I love you more than anything in this world…
The answer Chandler got was not what he expected…Monica- FUCK YOU! Fuck you, Chandler!
Chandler looked at her hurt and confused…Chandler- what?
Monica- YOU BROKE MY HEART! You left… you were with a MAN! You live with a man for months… you can just take that back now…
Monica was crying more that she ever thought possible… now Chandler's eyes were filled with tears… he knew how much he had hurt Monica… but he didn't want to face the fact that he might had lost her forever.
Chandler- but I don't want to loose you…I will never hurt you again. I want to be with you and the twins for the rest of my life…
Monica- fuck you, Chandler! You could have been with me forever but you left… so FUCK YOU!
Chandler just couldn't accept that Monica wasn't going to forgive him… so he did the only thing that he knew it could make Monica to forgive him… He got so much closer so her and he kissed her. Monica reluctantly pulled him away…
Monica- no… fuck you!
Chandler kissed her again and this time Monica didn't object… With Chandler kissing her she could remembered how much she loved him, how much she wanted him and how much she needed him in that moment. She gasped and she whispered softly in Chandler's ear:
Monica- fuck ME…Chandler kissed Monica more passionately and he carried her to her room where they made passionately love… Monica focused only in her feelings… because the truth was that her head couldn't have been more mess up. While Chandler made love to her, Monica didn't know if she was in heaven, in hell or just in limbo.
To be continued…So… Did I gave Mondler's fans some hope? Just remember, there are 5 more chapters…. So, nothing is final yet! Anything might happen…
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