Chapter 19:
Once and again…
What Monica feared the most was that Chandler might cheat on her again. And just when she was about to dismiss that idea her cell phone rang… it was Chandler saying that he had to work late… that he couldn't make it to dinner.
During the phone call Monica tried to act as normally as she could… she just said to Chandler: "ok honey… we will go to the rainbow room some other night" but in the minute she hung up the phone her eyes started to feel with tears. Phoebe, Rachel and Mike, who were with her at the coffee house gave her concern looks.
Phoebe- what happened, honey?
Monica- It was Chandler… he has to work late…
Mike- Mon… that might actually be true
Phoebe- he wouldn't cheat on you again…. Specially not so soon…
Monica- bullshit! The last time Chandler told me he was working late he was fucking Andrew! And I don't know what is he doing now or who is he doing… but I'm not going to trust him again… I'm going to go to his office and see everything with my own eyes!
Saying that she walked away until she was outside the coffee house… once she was on the street she started running like a maniac to get to Chandler's office as soon as possible. Chandler's office was 25 blocks away… so Monica should have took a cab, or she could have go there driving her car… but she wasn't thinking clearly. She ran as fast as she could… in high heels and ignoring all the strangers who yelled at her and gave her dirty looks… and finally she got to the building in which Chandler worked… Chandler worked in the sixth floor, but Monica didn't even bothered taking the elevator: she went up the six floors running through the stairs. She opened the door of Chandler's office without even knocking…
Chandler was alone and working hard… suddenly he saw Monica bursting in his office… well, he saw what was left of Monica: she was sweating like a pig, her face was read, she could barely breathe and she had one shoe with a broken heel in her hand.
Monica was exhausted… her whole body was aching and breathing had became and impossible task. She looked around and she saw that Chandler was alone… simply working. She managed to check the entire office… nobody but Chandler was there. For some reason, instead of feeling overjoyed and relieved she felt shocked and very silly. She collapsed on the couch that Chandler had in his office and once she recovered her breath she said:
Monica- there is nobody here!
Chandler looked at her in shock… he still didn't understand what the hell was Monica doing in his office or why she had showed up in such a terrible state.
Chandler- What?
Monica looked around one more time, and she repeated the phrase that she still couldn't believe was true… the four words she had said in her mind like 1000 times since she entered in Chandler's office but she still couldn't believe.
Monica- there is nobody here!
Chandler- no… I'm the only one here, I'm finishing a project because if I don't do it I'll get fired. I really tried to get out of this… I told you that… what's going on?
Monica- I have just ran 25 blocks and gone up six floors running through the stairs… because I was sure that you were here having sex with somebody else…
Chandler- but I'm not… I'm just working… I told you I would never hurt you again…
Monica wasn't completely recovered from the run yet… she simply nodded, sighed and said:
Monica- yes… you said that, you also swore for years that you weren't gay, but you lived with a man for months… so your word means nothing to me now, Chandler… nothing…
Chandler walked close to Monica and took her hand…Chandler- I want YOU… I love YOU… I'm not with Andrew anymore
Monica was now fully recovered, she got up and she looked at Chandler with tears in her eyes.
Monica- but you were… you cheated on me and you might do it again… I can't live the rest of my life wondering when… I can't be with you and live my whole life worrying sick because you might "get confused" again…
Saying that, Monica took off the necklace from Tiffany that Chandler recently gave to her and she putted it on the desk.
Chandler- Mon… please
Monica- I'm sorry Chandler, I love you more than anything… but I love my self as well. I can't let you hurt me again…
And Monica left the office in tears… Chandler simply let her go… did he have any other choice? After all, a relationship can't work without trust. And he had broken Monica's trust forever… he didn't deserved her.
Meanwhile in Joey and Rachel's apartment…Rachel was alone in apartment 19 (not completely alone, she had Emma and the new baby inside her) because Joey was in apartment 20 taking care of the twins. He wasn't taking care of the twins because she wanted to do Monica a favor but because he wanted to spend as much time as possible with the twins before leaving to L.A. "He is really going to miss those babies", thought Rachel while she was making dinner for her and Emma… suddenly thinking the word "baby" reminded her that there was one baby Emma should know about. Rachel wasn't sure if Emma would understand, bur she at least had to try explaining something to the two year old.
Rachel- Emma… honey… mommy has news for you… mommy will have a baby… Mommy has a baby on her bally and after a while the baby will be living here with us…
Emma looked at her confused and Rachel tried something else… Rachel- there is baby living inside mommy…Rachel took Emma's hand and put it in her own belly.
Rachel- there is baby in there
The Emma pointed at Rachel's bally excitedly and started happily screaming…
Emma- baby Rex! Baby Rex! Baby Rex!
Rachel looked at the baby confused… what was Emma trying to say? Did Emma thought her brother or sister should be call Rex? Maybe she just heard Ross taking about dinosaurs too much.
Rachel- Emma… Did your daddy give you cookies shaped as a tyrannosaurus Rex again?
But Emma simply continued pointing at Rachel's bally and saying the same thing…Emma- baby Rex! Little Rex!
Rachel- did your daddy gave you money or something?
Very unexpectedly Rachel heard a knock on the door… when Rachel opened saw the most disturbing thing for her: Ross was there, on one knee, holding a little box with his grandmother's engagement ring in it. Before he could say anything Rachel spoke:
Rachel- are you out of your mind!
Ross stood up, feeling very confused.
Ross- is that a "no"?
Ross walked inside the apartment and Rachel took a deep breath to calm down. She was very close to committing murder… Why did Ross always have to propose whenever she was pregnant? Why was marriage his answer to everything?Rachel- Ross… please, don't do this again! I told you the last time: we can't get marry just because you got me pregnant.
Ross- I know!
Rachel- I don't think you do…
Ross- Rach… I'm not proposing because of this new baby… I want you to marry me because I love you and I want to be with you for the rest of my life. When we had that wonderful night two months ago I felt so good… I didn't want to let you go…. But I was scared because every time we get together something bad happens and I end up loosing you… so I was protecting my self by pretending it wasn't a big deal… that it was just comfort sex when it was really making love…
Rachel's eyes filled with tears…
Rachel- I was pretending too… the truth is that I always loved you Ross… but I was pretending that the night we spend together wasn't a big deal…
Ross- the truth is that when we are together is always a big deal…
Rachel- there is no bigger deal…
They kissed passionately and they both had happy tears in their eyes…Ross- I really love you… and I will never let you go…
Rachel- good… because I love and I want to be with you forever…
Ross- is you and me forever… we are done being stupid!
Rachel- and you will never sleep with someone else again…
Ross- of course I won't… unless we are on a break…
Rachel gave him a dirty look…Rachel- very funny…
Ross- sorry honey… but I couldn't resist it… it was such and obvious joke
Rachel- that's true…
Rachel smiled at him and punched him playfully on the arm. After that they laughed and then they kissed more passionately… they noticed that they hadn't gotten engage, but it didn't matter… the important thing is that they were together now… and they had time for a romantic proposal and a big wedding.
An hour later… Monica's apartment.
After wandering around Manhattan for like an hour, Monica finally went back home. Joey was there, taking care of the twins he started to feel very uncomfortable when Monica walked in.
Monica- hi
Joey- hi
Monica- thank you for watching the babies, Joe
Joey- I did it because I wanted to say goodbye to them before I leave. I didn't do it for you… ok?
Joey said that so coldly that Monica felt like she was talking to a different person… she thought that she didn't have any tears left but suddenly she burst into tears.
Monica- I'm not getting back together with Chandler again, everything is over…A part of Joey hated Monica for cheating on him with Chandler, but the other part of him still loved her and hated seeing her in pain.
Joey- why? I thought you both wanted to get back together…
Monica- I thought so too… but I realized that I can't spend the rest of my life with him… it would be too complicated after all what happened… It would be too hard… I can't make it work with him… and I couldn't make it work with you… I'm a failure!
Joey suddenly started feeling sorry for Monica… Once again she was in front of him falling apart.
Joey- oh Mon… you are so not a failure!
Monica- I can't to anything right! I couldn't get pregnant and my marriage started to fall apart so badly that my husband got confused and slept with a guy! What kind of woman let that happen?
Joey- whatever was wrong with your marriage wasn't your fault…
Monica- stop defending me Joey! I'm a horrible person! Don't you see it? Chandler is not gay…
Joey- I thought that was a good thing… for you…
Monica- Not anymore! I realized that he not being gay means that he was with Andrew because I was a terrible wife! Because I disappointed him… because I failed him and I don't deserve him… that's why I thought he was cheating on me again… because I deserve him cheating on me…
Joey held her while Monica cried in his arms…Joey- you don't deserve anything bad happening to you, Mon…
That comment made Monica feel even worse than she was feeling before.
Monica- look at this! Look at you being so nice to me… and after what I did to you! You are wonderful Joey… I can't believe that I was so horrible with you… you are the nicest and the sweetest man alive… you deserve a lot better than me…
Joey saw into Monica's blue eyes and he saw that she really regretted what she did… it probably was a mistake, but in that moment all the hate that Joey felt went away and there was only love left inside him. He kissed her and she kissed him back…
Joey- oh my God! I can't believe I'm going down that road again…
Monica- I love you… I want to be with you, and I don't want you to leave to L.A.
Those words had a very estrange effect in Joey and suddenly the craziest thought came to his mind.
Joey- then come to L.A. with me!
Monica- what?
Joey- come to California and move in with me… my sister told me that she got me a great apartment… we can live there with the twins and became a real family… we can start fresh in there!
The next day…
Monica looked through the airplane window. She new that she was going neither to London nor to Las Vegas… she was going to L.A, and it would be just as great, she would be happy… and maybe this time she would be happy forever.
To be continued…
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