Ok better late than nothing. My moniter quiet last Fri and I had wait until Moday for the new one. So instead typing I was writing. Hmm that was a brilliant idea I came up with for Chapter 31 (Hehehe) inuyashasdragonballs - I think I have maybe another 10 -15 chapters to go. I'm not sure, due to the fact sometimes I have to split the chapters for fanfiction or when I write a chapter I split the chapter in half. I just hope Fanfiction doesn't put a limit on the chapters.

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Rememeber ! Nov 1st . Star Wars Revenge of Sith : comes out. Yes! I can finally see it. No I haven't seen it yet. I don't care for crowds of people around me.

The Italics are Anakins thoughts

Chapter 29

For a few days, Anakin laid in his bed, not moving and not talking either, Only his eyes told of the confused and the pain. Both and Padme and Obi-Wan tried reassure him by telling it was the Galeriana causing the confusion in him.

Yet, Anakin knew it was he. Facing the aftermath of what, he had done. In tempting to escape his pain, he only created more. Then Padme, who was looking tired, she blamed carrying the twins but Anakin knew the truth.

They all lived in a fantasy place, while I deal with the reality.

So far a couple days, you lay in that bed. Trying not let the confusion show. But Obi-Wan always felt in the Force and on the second day of being awake. You're given something to calm you down but it can only do so much.

"Ugh I didn't want to do that to him."Padme sitting at the table for supper.

"Agree but he left us with no other option either. When the Galeriana level hit zero, K'amott said they take him off the medication."Obi-Wan answered."Right now the Galeriana level is at 2. He is getting there."

"Yes. Then they will do the testing again, to see how bad he really is. And then, decide how much therapy he needs. I just hope the twins don't come by then"

"It might help Anakin in way."Obi-Wan said

"No, he wanted to be there. It would only cause him more pain."Padme said, remembering Ani excitement over that plan.

"10 credits say, he faints."Obi-Wan offered.

"Oh no! I'm not betting I'll have enough on my mind with worrying about him fainting."Padme said. She was tempted to ask Obi-Wan to be there but thought better of it.

Then on the fifth day, something had to give. There were too many cracks in Anakin's form to hold it together.

In a day full of warm sun. Padme finally got one her wishes for Anakin, to get him outside for a while. Everybody agreed. Anakin could use some sun.

"That was Obi-Wan. While I'm there, they are going take him outside for an hour. He is so pale looking." Padme grabbing her stuff.

"You know Mom. It will be interesting to see how Padme going handle Anakin when he gets home. Considering, he can now put his foot down with her." Sola said.

"I would be more worry about what he's going to do with you."Padme answered back."Bye"

Later –

"Come on Anakin, my former Padawan. You need to get some sun. It's a lovely day and what a better way. Then to spend it with your lovely wife." Obi-Wan, helping Anakin out of bed into the hoverchair. Then pushed him out into the garden.

"Ah yes, a good spot. Padme should be here any minute. She'll be glad to see. That we got around to cutting that wild mane of yours. Then got rid that scar Ventress gave you. Here she comes now. I'll leave you two alone. Obi-Wan, getting up."Hello Padme."

"Hello Obi-Wan. Ah you cut his hair finally. There's my good-looking husband. Padme, giving Anakin a kiss and hug.

You see your wife, carrying your twins. Beautiful in the light and you felt like the bastard you are. All night, quietly you practice three little words to say to her. It will mend her heart, not yours.

Padme sat down by her husband. She could see something was bothering him. But again, she blamed the Galeriana or he was back to his moody self finally. It didn't matter now. Anakin was alive and awake for this beautiful day.

You reach for her and you got another undeserving kiss. Then staring straight into her eyes, while the hand, unsteady, touches a face.

The three words you must say

"Anakin, what's the matter?. Tried tell me or do you Obi-Wan."

Those three words. You must say, that is more important than "I Love You" which are hallowed words now. If you could pick the lightsaber, you would shatter them and set Padme free from you.

The three words, you must say.

In a broken voice, broken more by emotion than illness. You look into her, seeing the concern rising. Knowing she was about to call Obi-Wan.

The three words you must say now or stay silent. Like the bastard you are now.

"Padme I'm sorry"

And then you cried like you unborn twins. Yes, you regain your life but the pain of what you have done with it, remains. Anakin Skywalker was more of a broken man with broken dreams. However, dreams never remain the same in the Force of the Chosen One's life.

For a while, Padme just let him cried."Let it all come out Anakin. You have nothing to be sorry for. You're alive and that's what really matters." Padme holding him best she could. Glancing up to Obi-Wan, letting him know. She was all right with him.

In time, Anakin just laid in his arms. Padme could sense he was giving up now."My strong Jedi protector and love, broken now." she thought.

Then Padme motion for Obi-Wan to come over. They manage to get Anakin back into his room, into his bed. Naporta slipped in and gave Anakin another sedated, Only then, would he find his peace.

Padme sat down by her husband and thought."I have done what I can for Anakin and it's clear, he won't be coming back at 100"

"Well, we can't blame the Galeriana for that."K'amott said. "It's total out his system."

"No, we'll blame his demons on that outburst." Naporta answered."Plus the Jedi Council, for not listen to healer Tasar requested for outside help. Damn Order."

"Tasar requested that Anakin get some help. First time I heard about that."Obi-Wan, glancing into Anakin's room.

"Kit Fiso got that nice little tidbit off of Master Yoda but that's all I know. I'm going set something for him."Naporta said. "Enough is enough."

"I already have done that. Obi-Wan answered. "I promise Ki-Adi I would. Right now I'm more worry about Padme, this not good for her."

"She'll fine. I scan her before. Let her stay with Anakin for the afternoon. He going to have to pull himself out this one. He should be alright in a couple days. Personally, Anakin needs to get this his system."K'amott added.

Padme sat by Anakin, again she held his hand. She gave him the forgiveness he had asked for. Whether it would help him, she did not know. For now, she rested in the chair. Later Obi-Wan came for her and took her home. Anakin spent the rest the day, asleep.

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Woke up to sun. Somehow I rub my face. Damn. The sun is too bright. Well Anakin, you said your apology to Padme and you can lie here with a clear conscious too. If you got one. Luke and Leila - So what will be Obi-Wan's lecture for today. Maybe I can use the force to keep his mouth shut. But what to do with Padme? When she comes in. Padme I betray you. Those vows I said, now nothing to believe in. Oh here comes Naporta, lucky me.

"Good morning Anakin"Naporta cheerfully said. Taking note how he responded."Hmm, still a bit of confusion or are you ignoring me. Well, we are giving you a day of rest. Meaning, no therapy. Obi-Wan will stop by later on to check on you. Then around one, Padme comes in and spend the afternoon with you. Ok" Then she did a few more scans and left.

Thank You for leaving. Rest, that's all I do is rest. Just lie here like a useless blob.

Obi-Wan did come later. After a few words with his doctors, he decided to just stay for an hour. "He going needs his energy for Padme's session. And I'll just ignore that he acting like a ten-year-old again" he thought.

Then at one

"Hello Ani, how's my Jedi lover doing today? Poor Anakin, not having an easy time with this. I know you probably getting restless. Padme leaning down and Anakin turns his head away."Hey! Excuse me."Tapping on his head.

"Oh, leave me alone Padme." I wanted to shout out it to her But I didn't, not wanting to upset her. Oh Padme, leave me here to die. I'll be better off and so will you. Don't think of the twins. Don't Anakin!

"Ok I'm blaming this on the confusing you are still suffering from or something else. Yes, you can ignore me for the afternoon. But I'm not leaving you. Hmm, maybe the next time, I'll just hit you harder and with an object too."Padme picking up a book and started to read it.

Anakin didn't look at her. He just silently cried inside. How can he recover, when he knew in his heart, he just couldn't do it? "Padme is just better without me."he thought.

When Padme left, she just said goodbye and didn't bother kissing him either. His action spoke volumes to her.

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In an office, a tired old man with tears in his eyes. Watches the world go by. The room is dark except for the small light. Holding in his hands, is a holo-image taken three years ago.

Chancellor Palpatine stared at the image of Anakin Skywalker. He was had just become a Jedi Knight. He was so proud of Anakin. Palpatine played innocently and had invited Padme over when the picture was taken. He knew those two were in love with each other. He even made a joke about them looking like the perfect couple.

Then Palpatine remembered that day. He had planned out for Anakin. Palpatine was going to request that Anakin come over. Then Palpatine, was going asked Anakin to leave the Jedi Order. That never happened and something else took place. Now the aftermath of three years of confusion, was being dealt throughout the Republic.

But the last two weeks have been a mix of joy and sorrow. The joy being that Anakin was awake now. The sorrow, they weren't really sure how bad he was. Then reports of the confusion and now, he's not caring anymore. Palpatine broke down over that. He was ready to drop everything and go to Naboo but Padme reported that Anakin didn't understand what had happen to Palpatine. So he agreed in the best interest of Anakin, to hold off on the visit.

Meanwhile, Palpatine looked at the information on how to finally adopted Anakin. Palpatine knew he didn't want Anakin to take his last name. Somewhere in that vast space above, was Anakin's real father. He couldn't believe Shmi Skywalker's story. Yes, Anakin had a father and he needed to honor him too. But for now, Palpatine will be his father. And tomorrow, the Father is going to Naboo to visit and talk to his sick son.

The clock chime a late hour, the Father felt tired but, please too. He did have a little plan to cheer up Anakin. There was a little prize for getting better. "Yes Anakin, I do have a little prize for getting better. I'll be the judge, on how well you should be, not you. I know you too well Anakin Skywalker." Palpatine thought.

Yes, there was one little prize out this whole crazy mess. The Sith Lord left his red blade lightsaber behind. Well, it was hidden in a statute, now broken open. But Palpatine spied it before the Jedi did and quickly put it in his robe. Later he took a closer look. Anakin had shown him how to turn a lightsaber once. So with a little effort, it turned on. The red blade sprung to life and he smiled when he felt its power. Palpatine knew Anakin's deepest wish, was to have a red blade lightsaber. More because nobody else had one and it would make Anakin appear more as a bad boy Jedi in the Council eyes. Something else he loved to do, was to rile them up. Well this will get their attention.

"Well my future Son. You now have your lightsaber."