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Author: insane-nymph
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Chapter#2:Waking-up
An over flowing felling of serenity comes over me. I am safe and always will be as long as I have him by my side. Nothing could bring us down. Not even the suns and the planets of the multiple galaxies surrounding us. Standing on the podium that our love build. I am constantly soaring to new heights. Nobody stop me. I am swimming in an ocean of euphoria. Fireworks lighting the sky with there colorful and bright lights it looks like fairies are painting the twilight with their magic. Elated to the point of insanity. Being with him is everything that counts right now.
Beep! Beep! Beep!
Suddenly the beautiful scenery surrounding us becomes darker and darker. The sky get takes over by black clouds of acid rain. Bringing with them thunder and lightning. Which mixed together burns everything in their path. Scared I cling to him. He puts his arms around me and tells me that it will all be over soon. Within the second the fire and the rain stopped. In its place a see of aches remains. I look up to check how Brian is. Just to realize that he too had turned in to aches. I fight to get free from his embrace, which is starting to pull me in deeper and deeper. Suffocating me. Unable to move I yell for help with the last breath I have.
Beep! Beep! Beep!
I spring up on my bed screaming for Brian, for help and for air. Breathing heavily and drenched in cold sweat. I summon up the will to open up my eyes. Just to see that I am in my room. All alone and cold. That is was only a nightmare and it was all in my imagination. That Brian was dead and was never coming back. That I was never going to wake-up next to him. Cuddled-up in his in his arms with my head rested on his chest counting the calming beats of his heart. While he strokes my hair in the way that only he knew would give me goose bumps. Getting woken up by love songs that he would sing so that my days would start out with a smile on my face. Which he told me was the most beautiful one that he had even seen. Although I thought that I looked awful in the morning.
Beep! Beep! Beep!
But that was all in the past. Now the only thing I feel in the morning is the solitude of my bed. That is too large for only one person to sleep in. It holds so many happy memories that I don't have the courage to get rid of it. It was our bed the one that took one month of trying mattresses to find the perfect one. I preferred firm and he wanted the soft ones. The bed itself was his gift for me. Now there is no more laughter. No more jokes that end-up in the most immature pillow fight. No more surprise breakfast in beds. That he use to do when I had fallen studying and that he had carried me for my desk to bed. Now there is only cold night and the shadows of the tree outside my window. That creek in the middle of the night. When everyone is asleep but me.
Beep! Beep! Beep!
Hot tear start to role down my cheeks as repressed sadness get set free from my heart. "I am so sorry Brian I failed. I tried to be brave and to move on like you made me promise on that last day. You didn't want me to spend all my time mourning over you but you forgot something that day. That I loved you with all my soul. That promise wasn't faire and you knew that. How can someone move on for the love of their life?" Curled up in a little ball I let myself experience for the first time the ocean of hurt that is my heart. Each wave lightning my heavy heart.
Beep! Beep! Click!