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Ahem. Ashura's POV. Song in this instance is Disarm by the Smashing Pumpkins. I think this song is utterly Fai. Yay. And there are some song lines in here but unless you know them I don't think they stand out.
Disclaimer:CLAMPs and not mine
Possessiveness
sugahcat
You were such a pretty little boy. There were many fair-haired boys in Celes but you were a little more golden, your eyes a little bluer, your skin a little paler. Of course, I realised how much Power was flowing within your veins even then and I - persuaded - your parents to let me take you to the castle.
When you were 14 and your Powers had emerged - ever-so-coincidentally killing a couple of servants in the process - you chose to let me mark you with a tattoo full of controlling magics. I wonder if you realise even now that I set all of that up. I had been using my own magic to hold back yours for the few weeks I could until the time was right to set you up. Your guilt at their deaths was not surprising - you were such a good boy. And there was never any choice for you, really. Let me control your Power or risk hurting other people - what was a boy supposed to do?
You were so old beyond your years even then, Fai. But at the same time, you were blinded by your love for me. You saw only the shining facade I showed to you and this has always amused me. You were so foolish. And then you grew up. My goodness, you were beautiful. So slim, so pale - you looked so fragile I couldn't help but want you. I wanted to break you, to see what sort of sound you'd make when you shattered.
Even though it was the antithesis of what you wanted, of who you were, I made you kill for me. The killer in you was in the killer in me, sweet Fai. I made you kill, coerced you into it using the tattoo I gave you. Have you realised that yet? And slowly, it seemed that I was somehow giving my fake smile over to you for you started to use it as well. And you were using it more and more often to disarm people as I made you kill for me and your happiness and self-esteem was ebbing away.
And then, you shattered. You realised that I had been lying to you all along. I had never loved you. You had been withering in denial for such a long time that you would have to realise sooner or later. And then I saw in your eyes emotion like broken ice flows. I had broken you, finally. The bitterness in your eyes... it made me smile.
In a way I suppose you won in the end. But I'm slowly waking up. And you're still wearing my smile.