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Secrets - part two
sugahcat
Fai was on all fours on rough ground, coughing, trying desperately to get enough breath to allow him to get out of the way of the attack. He managed to wipe the blood out of his eyes and even that small feat took all of the energy he had.
For a long moment, he closed his eyes and wondered if it was worth the bother of moving. He had been running now for so long. He had wanted somewhere that he could live without feeling Ashura's noose around his neck but he had not realised that this would mean constantly running from world to world and he was getting tired of starting again, managing somehow to keep the smile on his face and to keep from screaming. He was getting tired of pretending the pain was not real, of pretending that everything was alright when it was anything but.
Managing to lift his head he saw the creature moving into attack position once more.
Come on, do you want to live or die? His brain yelled at him. He had been running so that he could live but he was getting tired, so tired of pretending and hurting, so tired of living with a broken heart. Maybe it would just be easier to let this thing kill him.
"What the hell's wrong with you!"
A figure dressed in black jumped agilely in front of him and with a few swipes with Souhi, the creature was dispatched. Kurogane turned to glare at Fai but the blond's injuries must have been more severe than he had thought because the ninja knelt beside him and frowned.
Surely that isn't concern I see in your eyes, Kurorin? Fai wanted to ask but he merely ended up coughing again. He felt miserable. Kurogane was the last person he wanted to rescue him. They had been sleeping together for a few months now but though Fai's feelings had developed into something he thought he would never feel again, Kurogane gave no indication of any emotion beyond enjoying the sex. The last thing Fai needed in his present state was unreciprocated love.
Managing to look up again, it was to meet very serious crimson eyes.
"Are you going to give in?" Fai blinked at the question. "Or will you fight, will you admit to yourself that you're in pain so that you can get over it and start to trust again? Because I want you to trust me."
His voice was softer than he had ever heard it. It made Fai force himself to sit up though he was too weak to support himself and ended up falling against Kurogane's chest. Strong arms wrapped around him and suddenly he felt safe. He felt that even if Ashura were to come crashing into this world and shatter all of the safety that Fai had fooled himself into thinking he had, it would not matter because he had Kurogane. Even if Ashura killed Fai, it would not matter because his King no longer had the hold on him that he once had. No longer did Ashura hold the pieces of Fai's broken heart; Kurogane had made him whole again.
Fai opened his mouth to confess all of this, to tell the ninja how he felt but before he could, Kurogane spoke.
"I meant to say this last week but I... I couldn't." A large, tan hand cupped Fai's cheek and their eyes met. "I love you, Fai. I need you. I trust you. So don't you dare leave me."
Fai's lips curled in a smile full of warmth and happiness and he felt better suddenly than he had felt in many months.
"I love you too," he managed to whisper before his wounds got the better of him and blackness overcame him.
A/N:Oh, no! Will Fai be okay! Does anyone care! Will we ever find out! I guess that depends on what the next song that inspires me is >D Enjoy, review