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Depression
sugahcat
Fai sat, legs tucked into his chest as he looked into the middle distance, buried deep in the thoughts of his past. Kurogane had asked him to spend the night with him but Fai had declined. He had been thinking a lot - too much - on the past of late and though he had tried to drag his mind away from his memories it had proven impossible.
Sighing, he let himself fall back onto his bed and closed his eyes. His refusal had hurt Kurogane, he knew. The ninja would not let it show but Fai saw it; a flash of surprise and pain that was quickly hidden by a scowl. He should have explained, perhaps, that he did not deserve him. Fai felt that Kurogane could save him from himself and he did not think he deserved saving.
It was getting harder and harder to forget the pain, the death and the suffering from his life in Ceres. His demons were catching up to him and all Fai could do was smile as their teeth sunk deeper into his soul.
He would sleep better alone than with Kurogane by his side, but still he could not wait for morning; if the demons haunted him during the day, it was even worse at night. All the time now in his dreams he saw his sleeping King and he was the last thing he wanted to see. The end of the night couldn't come quickly enough.
When day broke, Fai smiled once more.