Emily looked at Lucas "It's cool baby. Like I said, I don't care if you're with her. It doesn't bother me. I put you through all the crap I did, I told you to move on and you did. I can't blame you for that"

Lucas took her in his arms and squeezed her really tight "I don't want to be with her, its just something draws me back to her. I can't explain it"

Emily smiled at him and stood up "And I don't want you to. It's your life Luke. All I need from you is to be a good father to Kaylie, since that's the only reason I'm here. Do that and I'll be happy. She means the world to me"

He looked at her "First of all, I want to believe you came here to be with me too, not just so I could be with Kay. Secondly, I don't want to be with her Em. Damn it, you think you can pull all the shit you did and I'll just drop you? I couldn't get your voice out of my head for fucking years! It was only when I saw you again that they faded away!"

"Stop yelling at me Luke" she said, walking away, nervous. He hadn't yelled at her in a while, they never used to fight. 'Used to' being the operative words

He got up and ran over to her and grabbed her arm so she would look at him, a position she was all too familiar with "You don't get to say all that shit and then walk away from me Emily"

She looked at him "Keep your voice down, I don't want our daughter to A, think we're fighting, and B, learn how to swear at age 2" she said

Lucas looked at Kaylie sitting by the pool house playing "Kay honey, mommy and I are going to go into the house to talk. You can stay out here and play; just don't go near the pool ok?"

"Ok Daddy" she called smiling, then went back to her toys.

Lucas pulled Emily back into the house and pulled her onto the couch with him "Whatever is going on in that head of yours, I want to know about it. Something's going on up there. I know you Emily, I know how you act. You need to tell me. No secrets, no nothing. I'll go first. Allie and I have a past, but that's where I want it to stay. Your turn"

Emily looked at him "You're not Kaylie's legal father." She said, trying to defer attention to what was really bothering her

Lucas looked at her confused "How?" he replied

"I had no intention of you ever finding out about her, so on her birth certificate it says 'father unknown', even though I knew who it was" she said, obvious her plan had worked

Lucas eyed her "So I have no rights to her what so ever. You could leave one day, take her with you, and I couldn't do anything about it?"

Emily nodded "It was my plan so if you ever tried to look for me, you couldn't hold her against me."

Luke was somewhere between anger and sadness "I want to be on the birth certificate Em. I want her to be mine too"

"She's not a possession Lucas" she replied, now angry "She's a human, she's my daughter. I'm only going to put you on that when I decide it's the best thing. And you're not going to change my mind"

"She's my daughter too Emily. She's our daughter, you said so yourself. I have just as much rights to her as you do, more probably since you kept her from me for almost 3 years" he said, frustrated

"Well, I'm sure that a judge will love to hear what her 'perfect dad' did while her mom was working her ass off to make a living for both of them. I'm sure you'd love to take your past stories to court" she said angrily

Lucas shook his head "I don't want to fight with you Em. Damn it, this didn't even have to become a fight! Why do you do that all the time? What happened to the girl I fell in love with? She changed at some point, because you changed while we were dating too"

"Hm, maybe it was because I GOT PREGNANT AT 16!" she yelled "Shit like that tends to change people!"

Lucas got up and stood in front of her "I know Em, that's not what I meant, and you know it. I'm not talking about Kaylie at all. This sprung out of the Allie issue. What I need you to know is I am drawn to her, I don't know how and I don't know why, I just am."

Emily rolled her eyes "And for the millionth time, I don't care! It's your life Luke! All I care about is if Kaylie's happy. If you can make her happy and make Allie happy too, all the more power to you." She sighed "I promised I'd help Sarah with something at her apartment, can you watch Kay for a while?"

Lucas looked at her "Yeah, I think I'll take her to the beach. She said she wanted to go swimming last night"

Emily nodded as she got up and walked toward the door "I'll be home later" she said, then walked out of the door.

Lucas watched as she walked to her car and slammed her head against the steering wheel. He saw her wipe away the tears he knew she would never cry in front of him. It hurt him to see her so upset, but he knew he couldn't help her, he wasn't even sure if he could help himself.

Sarah was startled when there was a banging on her door. She got off the couch and walked over to the door and opened it "Em?" she said, noticing the tear stains on her "What's wrong?" She led her into the apartment and they sat on the couch

"He's in love with her Sar." She said sadly "And I can't do a thing to stop it"

Sarah looked at her confused "He, Lucas is in love with her, Kaylie?" she asked, trying to fill in the many blanks

"No, he, Lucas is in love with her, Allie. Try as he might to tell me he isn't he says he's drawn to her. He said it himself. I should have just stayed back in New Orleans. Drama breeds her Sar. It's not safe"

Sarah hugged her best friend "He's in love with you Emmy. He always has been. You just won't let him love you. You keep saying that what you did was so unforgivable, that he can't love you anymore. It's not true, if it were, he would want nothing to do with you or Kaylie. He loves you, you need to let him"

Emily shook her head "It's too late, he doesn't, not anymore." She sighed "Can I crash here for a while, I just can't go back home right now."

Sarah nodded "Anytime, I'm always here for you. Sisters, right?"

"Sisters" Emily responded and collapsed into the couch, and soon fell asleep.

A while later, her cell phone went off. Sarah quickly grabbed it and opened it

-Hello? She asked

-Em?

-No, its Sarah, Lucas is that you?

-Yeah. Where is she, Sarah?

-She's right here, she fell asleep. Listen, she'll kill me for asking you this, but I need to know. Do you love her, or do you love this Allie girl?

-Lucas paused I do love her Sarah, its just she's got it in her mind that what she did is unforgivable, and hence made her unlovable. I can't change her mind, which I honestly think is what's leading me to Allie. If she would just let me love her, then I don't think I'd be so drawn to Allie, because she'd be giving me what I want from her so badly. Does that make sense?

-Sarah paused It does to me, but like you said, she has it in her head you'll never forgive her. You need to make her understand she isn't unforgivable or unlovable, at least to you.

-Ok. Bradin and Callie are over, I'm going to come over and pick her up. Don't wake her up, ok.

-Ok. I'll see you in a bit. She hung up the phone and looked at her best friend "He loves you Em. More than you know. Why won't you let him, why do you have this wall up? Why won't you let him love you?" she asked her sleeping friend, "Why?"