Here I am… it's 2 am in the morning… and I just got off the phone with my angel whose battery died and now I feel somewhat… depressed yet lifted… this is my writing state. Now looky here, I haven't kept up with this story for months… and already my memory of Pita-ten is fading… I don't read manga anymore… I don't even draw it anymore… I've grown out of it… yet I still feel like I should finish this story.. I have to keep a promise you know? Even if it may take a year, lol.. I hope people will see it's been updated… if they care. You've all been so supporting.. im sorry I couldn't give you what you wanted… but im willing to get back on tract. Thank you so much.

There's more chapters to come after this one as well if I feel in that state of writing another time…

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Chapter 9: How To Confess

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Koboshi panted, running down the streets, turning on curves and searching desperately for Takashi. She felt her heart pounding like a drum: loud, fast, and hard. A sense of worry over took her mind and she could feel that horrible feeling of regret and frustration.

Ten-chan! Her mind was screaming. Ten-chan! Please please… I have to find him… I can't loose this…Her fingers gripped harder on the smashed daisy squeezing the juice out of it's green flesh. It oozed out like blood, trailing down her small hand. To her it felt like ice and her mind suddenly retreated to how she had been so cold that morning. That chemistry… that feeling of desire and satisfaction… such a feeling that one would go mad for… she felt it in her heart, on her lips, in her stomach. One kiss. One embrace. One night… and it was already sparking an addiction.

Tears streamed out of her eyes and instead of pumping up and reaching that point of determination, her speed was fading and she was beginning to give up. All of this… she thought. I'm going to loose it…

"Uematsu..?"

She stopped in her place, eyes wide with sudden shock. Her mind set out a powerful bolt of emotion and it stabbed through her body, striking through every vein, piercing every nerve. In a matter of seconds a sensation of butterflies began to flutter inside her empty stomach. She turned around almost instantly to face Takashi.

His eyes had obviously spotted the tears rolling down her cheeks and he cocked his head with worry and confusion. "Uematsu… what are you doing here…?"

Koboshi's body was suddenly hit with weakness and she collapsed unto her knees. She brought her hands before the concrete, supporting her weight. "T-Ten-chan…" she mumbled shakily. "…"

"Are you ok!" Ten asked, running to her side. Once he had gotten near her, two arms gripped his shirt before he could even kneel down to her height. He was speechless and his mouth hung open slightly, looking at Koboshi with startled yet worried eyes. "…"

"Ten-chan…" She whispered again, tightening her grip on him. "…Do you feel the same...?"

It took a few moments for Takashi to respond but he kneeled to his knees and put his arms on her shoulders. "feel what…?"

"This feeling…"

He gulped, feeling that terrible lump coming to his throat. It was a lot to take in at one moment. Hesitating for a tiniest little second…. "Yes…" and then the grip on him was loosened.

Koboshi looked up at him with such a face that made tears come to his eyes. She was so beautiful… Her glistening eyes met his and her small little pouty lips hung a little like a worried frown and she looked sad and doubtful. And after one long stare, she spoke. "…this may sound completely odd… but… when you left a feeling of loss came over me…" she cleared her throat. "ermm…..you see… uhh…. Heh…" Cheeks now blushing. "I've never felt this way before… we're known each other for so long… and you've always been sucha great friend… but today… last night… there was a different feeling for you…"

Takashi remained silent, unsure of what to say or if he wanted to actually interrupt her. He wanted to listen to every word… he wouldn't speak until she finished.

"It was so powerful… and I didn't realize it at first… but… This feeling…" she mumbled on the last few words. "….i want it more than anything…." She stared at him as if she was waiting for him to say something… but she noticed by the next 30 seconds that his throat had grown dry and his mind struck numb. "…I love you..."

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They stood out in the front of Café tricot. Breakfast… she'd take him to breakfast first. Kotarou suggested a place that was familiar and he also wanted to show her the construction and remodeling that had been done with it for the last past months. It was beautiful as always. That sweet little coffee shop that seemed as if it were a second home to both of them. Memories of it filled into both their minds and a sinking depression hit them as their thoughts lead to Shia. But they didn't say a thing about it.

Misha smiled at him, taking his hand and squeezing onto it tightly (Kotarou blushed when she did this). "Hee hee hee… ready to eat, su?"

Kotarou stared at her deeply for a moment and then smiled back. "yeah of course, Misha-san…" but really inside he was too full of love and happiness to stand more than just a beverage. He's eat for her though, even if it made him sick.

Misha on the other hand was latterly starving. In a human body and she had not eaten human food for over 3 months now. Bubbles were swishing around in her stomach and it growled loudly at times, but she tried to make it so Kotarou couldn't hear it. But she loved this feeling. A relaxed state of happiness… yet an emptiness and depression to it… it felt good… but it was also painful…

Kotarou squeezed her hand.

And Misha felt a tingling throughout her entire body. She stayed silent for a moment as he lead her to the door and held it open, waiting for her to step inside. "Misha-san whats wrong?" he asked, tugging her very gently and noting that she wasn't moving from her place. Is she sad…?

I love him so much… Misha looked him in the eyes and nodded. And words slipped out uncontrollably through her lips: "I can't waity-waits to spend this day with you, su…" She spoke her mind and it was said quite quickly. She moved forward and into the building, shutting the door behind her. The little bell rang as the door shut.

This feeling… I know this daysie-waysie is going to be too goodie-good to be true…But what happens after…I don't think I can stand the thoughty-thought of it, su…

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END CHAPTER 9

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Lol… Well I don't know… that didn't have very much in it.. but most of it was about how everyone was feeling for one another…

I'm basing Koboshi off of one of my best friends, Sarah… she loves this guy yet shes afraid to admit it.. and I'm trying to come up with what she would say if she finally did… and I guess it isn't totally like her.. infact I don't know, but I know she'd be in that state of mind… not just.. "I LOVE YOU! ;; !" more like "….i…. love you…"

So this maybe sometime soon I'll write chapter 10, ok? thank you for reading.