Title: I choose you over my duty

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Evangelion characters.

Author's note: I did this based on my experience when I had to make a difficult choice so I hope you all enjoy this

Shinji was washing his back when he felt a pair of cold hands touched him. Shinji jumped and turned around, only to find Kaworu smiling at him again.

"Ne Shinji-kun, can I wash your back for you?"

Shinji definitely wanted to say a no but it seems like his mouth betrayed him as it uttered a yes. Having agreed, Shinji had no choice but to turn around and let Kaworu wash his back.

Kaworu took and wash towel from Shinji's back and began to wash and massage every single muscle he could lay his hands on. 'This feels good' Shinji thought to himself as he unconsciously closed his eyes, savoring the feeling that Kaworu had given him. He had never felt this relaxed in his life, and he definitely did not want it to stop.

Kaworu, on the other hand, enjoyed washing Shinji as well. After all he only had a short time to spend in his life and he was happy to have met Shinji. He definitely did not want Shinji to be sad as long as he was alive. He had to accomplish his mission.

Kaworu frowned at that thought. Half of him did not want to accomplish his mission so that he could stay with Shinji, but the other half of him knew that by combining with Adam, is the only way it will free his other brothers and sisters from the curse that they are upon.

Kaworu knew he had the choice unlike the others; Kaworu was not bounded to his mission, since being the angel of free will had given him this opportunity to even live and try to be human for this short period of time, and how he wanted to live it.

The seem to have stopped for both boys as Kaworu dropped the wash cloth and was now massaging Shinji's shoulders, while Shinji was still enjoying the treatment that Kaworu was giving him.

But what Shinji did not know was that Kaworu also felt the same attraction as he did. The pair of hands that were once on Shinji's shoulders had now crept down to caress his firm chest. Shinji still had his eyes closed until Kaworu brushed past one of his nipples, causing him to gasp.

Turning behind, Shinji had not noticed that he had been resting against Kaworu's back. He flushed at the idea, as not he knew it would be hard to get out of the situation he was in, and not to mention the position he and Kaworu were in.

"Er…Kaworu-kun?" Shinji asked trying not to sound too nervous.

Kaworu seemed to notice the boy's uneasiness and released him from his embrace. "I'm sorry, I guess I got carried away."

Kaworu backed away, releasing the fey from his embrace, and went away to the closest shower room and quickly washed himself up. Shinji also did the same, bathing in silence.

Shinji showed Kaworu around Tokyo 3, both enjoying each others company rather than the place, talking about their lives, problems, everything.

Shinji felt happy with Kaworu, since he was the first one he could trust and really open up to without any worry. He even told Kaworu about Gendou and how he hated him, but inside him he was wondering how he could trust someone so much just when he only knew him just for a few hours.

But Shinji did not care. He felt as if a huge weight had been lifted off him, though there was still one thing that bothered him. Why did he felt this form of attraction towards the other boy? Shinji could not put his finger on it for he never felt this way before.

They headed for Kaworu's apartment for it was late by the time the finished touring around the place. Shinji called Misato and told her he could be spending the night over at Kaworu's.

Just as Shinji hung up, Kaworu handed him a spare shirt. Shinji gave Kaworu a questioning look.

Kaworu smiled before speaking, "I don't think you will want to go to school tomorrow with a crumpled uniform ne?"

Shinji blushed. Of course he would not want to, for he would definitely not want another mouthful from Asuka.

Night came rather quickly and Shinji was about to fall asleep when he noticed Kaworu looking at him. His pale skin seems to shimmer in the moonlight, giving him a mysterious aura, making look even more beautiful than he already is. Shinji blushed at the idea and hoped that the darkness is able to hide his rosy cheeks.

"Ne Shinji-kun."

"Naniga, Kaworu-kun?"

"You know, I should be the one that is sleeping on the floor."

"NO! I mean it's ok. I was the one that asked to be here."

Shinji turned to look at the ceiling, while Kaworu continued to look at the fey beauty. 'I can't believe that there would really be a lilim that can actually be so beautiful.' Kaworu thought to himself.

Before Shinji could do anything, Kaworu climbed down onto the extra mattress and he had set for Shinji.

"K-Kaworu-kun!"

"Shinji-kun, can I sleep with you tonight?"

"…" Shinji wanted to shake his head but it seems that his traitorous body betrayed him, for he nodded in agreement instead.

Kaworu then placed an arm over Shinji's chest, and a leg over his torso before falling asleep, as if afraid that Shinji would run away.

Shinji then looked at Kaworu. He did not feel afraid but felt safe in Kaworu's embrace instead. His heart began to beat faster and somehow as if struck by lightning; Shinji finally knew what he was feeling. He felt love. Shinji loved Kaworu and he wanted to tell him right now in fear of losing him.

He did not care about rejection for he had been rejected again and again, and if Kaworu were to reject him, he would just go back into his turtle shell and shield the world away from him.

Gathering all his courage, Shinji finally managed to utter, "N-Ne Ka-Kaworu-kun."

Kaworu opened his eyes and looked over at Shinji.

"I-I have some-something to t-tell you." Shinji could tell he was already blushing like there is no tomorrow, for he could feel the heat from his cheeks even though there was a cool breeze blowing through the window.

"I think I have fallen for you Kaworu-kun"