Well hey! I wrote this based on a real experience… read & review hope u enjoy it…
Just a short ficlet I wrote before my orthodontist appointment.
Mwah
-Lor
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry potter OR the veronicas' song Everything I'm Not!
Learning toTreasure What You Have
Oh no
Don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you were something different
That's when it all just fell apart
Like you're so perfect
And I can't measure up
Well I'm not perfect
Just all messed up
I remember when we were best friends. When it was just Harry, Ron & I- not Harry, Ron, me & Anita.
Of course Ron loves Anita, she's everything I'm not; gorgeous, curvy, thin, blonde, tanned and funny. I sigh and look across the table at Ron and Anita. If I can just get his attention! If I can just talk to him like we used, he might see that we could be more than friends- he might see how much I need him.
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
"So Ron, do want to come with me to get my books?" I ask smiling, pleading he'll agree. Ron turned his gaze from Anita to me, "Can't you go alone?" he asked, sounding somewhat annoyed. I can feel my face fall into a frown. Harry looks at Ron angrily, "Uh… I'll just go after lunch," I say sadly, as Ron returns to his conversation with Anita.
It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah all by yourself
You're all messed up
The bell goes and indicates that to everyone that lunch is over and it's time to go to class. We all stand, and Harry, Ron & Anita make their way to History of Magic. I, on the other hand am heading to my dorm to retrieve my books.
I rush into class just as Professor Binns is welcoming the class. I slip into my assigned seat between Harry and Ron. We are told to read the chapter on 'Wizards & Warlocks of Australia' and write ten points about the chapter.
I glance up from my finished work and see Ron next to me, looking over at Anita. I feel a wave of dread and jealousy. Why won't he pay attention to me?
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
Ever since her first day at Hogwarts Anita had Ron wrapped around her finger. And now, because I waited too long to tell him I love him, he's with her.
But, I know that he's happy, that's all that matters too me. I feel a tap on my arm; Harry's trying to hide a smug grin. I glare at him, he's knows I like Ron… I can tell, just by his smirk.
I turn back to my work, but seeing as I'm finished I decided to write a note to Ron. I know that I'll NEVER EVER give it to him, but it's a way to put my heart at ease.
Now wait a minute
Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had
Hey don't u get it
I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life
Ron,
I know you're with Anita and I know you love her. But, I need you to know that I love you too.
Since Anita came, I haven't even had a real conversation with you. She's tearing us apart! If I can't have you as my soul mate, at least be my friend! Go back to being my best friend.
Take the time to talk to me, to see how I am and to find out what I'm doing. I want to know about you as well.
Don't forget if you and Anita break up- I'll still be here waiting for you. I'd wait a million years to hear you say that you love me.
I know it won't happen over night- but I will get over you. Even if takes my whole life- I will try, just for you.
I'd do anything for you…
Love
Mione
I glanced over at Ron again, to make sure he hadn't seen my letter. To my surprise Ron is writing hastily, maybe he realized that he's in History of Magic and it's not Let's All Stare at Anita time. I quickly fold up the note and stuff it in my bag. Not knowing what to do I begin to read Hogwarts; A History.
As I'm reading I see something on my desk. I pick it up and look at it… I know that writing.
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
It's a letter to me… from Ron. I look over at him, but he's returned to his favourite thing to do: staring at Anita.
Hermione,
I saw the note.
I want you to know I need you as a friend too. I am truly sorry that I haven't spoken to you a lot lately. It's not that I don't want to; it's just that if I do, I'm afraid make Anita angry.
She jealous of our friendship, I can tell. She thinks were too close- I don't. I think we're at a perfect stage. We're best friends- I mean, nothing can beat that!
I'm sorry you've fallen in love with me- trust me you deserve better. But, I promise you; I love you as much as a friend can love another friend. But, sadly for Anita I've loved you for years. The only reason I didn't act on it was because; I'm afraid to lose you.
Also I know I'll still have you long after Anita and I break up- so who knows? Maybe in the future we will go out. But for now we have to just be friends…
Just know; I'd do anything for you too.
Love
Ron
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
As I read the last line of the letter my eyes were leaking tears. I was confused about what Ron was saying, but I understood one thing.
For now our friendship is everything we need- and that suits me just fine, besides; who knows what the future will bring…
Like it? Im not sure… anywho read & review!
Mwah
-Lor
