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A/N.Thanks for all the people who have reviewed and even to those people who have read,but not reviewed.You all motivate me to write more!

Chapter Eleven

Buffy was in the bathroom when the panic struck .All of a sudden,the events of the last 24 hours hit her,hard.She found that she couldn't breathe easily.She broke out into a cold sweat and she couldn't get the picture of Riley out of her head. Riley breaking her arm, Riley coming home. Riley was going to come home,to her. He was going to come home to her and do what this time?She felt the tears and she let them come this time. She slumped down against the bath,knocking over a glass bottle.It hit the floor and smashed,but Buffy was unaware.She sat with her face in her hands,sobbing.

Spike heard the smash from the sofa.He glanced up at Angel and without hesitation he was up the stairs.He found Buffy,slumped against the bath,sobbing loudly.Almost immediately he was at her side, and pulled her onto his lap, soothing her with gentle words.His heart ached and despite his own resolve to be strong, his own tears fell against Buffy's hair. Angel looked at them from the bathroom doorway,rubbing his face anxiously. He felt powerless to help them. He closed the door and slipped downstairs to the telephone.

Spike rocked Buffy in his arms, stroking her hair."Come on luv.You know I can't stand it when you cry.Look" He lifted up her chin gently."You set me off too.People'll think I'm a right ponce!" He was certain he saw the slight curve of a smile on her tear stained face.She reached up and gently wiped the tears from his face.

"You're beautiful" She said softly and Spike raised his eyebrows sharply.

"Thanks luv, but that doesn't do a lot for my manly reputation." Buffy laughed this time and shifted in his lap.

"You don't have a manly reputation."

Spike tried to look offended."What? Loads of women at work fancy me!"

Buffy smiled at him.

"Big ego much, the only one I know at work who fancies you is Andrew!"

"Oh great!So much for my manhood."

In a heartbeat the atmosphere changed between them.Buffy shifted again in his lap and she raised her eyebrows at him.

"I don't think there's any doubt about your manhood,"She smiled at the feel of his growing erection."You manhood sure has a mind of it's own." She shifted in his lap so that she was straddled across him.Spike looked at the growing desire in her eyes and he gently stroked her cheek.

"You, Buffy, are..." He paused and tilted his head at her. Buffy waited, charging the sexual tension between them by rubbing against him.

"You are," Spike continued and traced his hand down her neck and down to the v of her t-shirt. He stroked the creamy flesh,just above the start of her breasts.

"You are," He said finally,"My everything."

Buffy opened her eyes wide and she felt the tears prick the back of her eyes She had never felt so adored and loved. Had this only happened in the last day, she felt she had known this man forever.She realised then that she had been waiting for him. Waiting forever.

She leant forward and kissed his lips, gently exploring his mouth. She waited until he opened his lips in invitation.She gently traced her tongue across his teeth and along the inside of his mouth. She found his tongue and she gently played with him.Spike returned the kiss and wound his hands through her hair. He pulled her to him, until there was no space between them.Buffy felt the burn coming from her stomach . The desire to be as close to him as she could get moved all rational thought to the back of her mind.She needed him and now.She pulled away from him and he groaned in protest. She reached between them and slowly unzipped his trousers, watching his darkening eyes.She smiled as his penis sprang, excited to be free. She stood slowly then and pulled down her trousers and her pretty pink thong. She watched the desire in Spikes face as she stood before him .She felt no embarrassment as he stared with longing at her.After what seemed like an eternity she returned to his knees and without hesitation she sank slowly onto his length.Her eyes never left his as he closed his eyes in pleasure.

Feeling her eyes on him, Spike opened his eyes.Watching her as they enjoyed the moment of stillness.Buffy began to gently lift herself up and then down on his penis and Spike groaned at the pleasure of this simple movement.This moment was about how much they loved each other. Buffy began to move more and she pressed her forehead against Spike's. Their eyes never leaving each other as the mounting desire took over. They both knew they would not last long, but this was about their first time.Buffy felt the tingle from her toes upwards as they made sharp movements against each other.

She felt the tears fall from her eyes, this was the most beautiful experience she had ever felt.Spike kissed the tears away and kissed her lips gently, he held onto her upper arms.He felt himself begin to freefall and he saw stars in her eyes. He watched as Buffy began her own blissful fall and he felt the tears at the back of his eyes.He breathed heavily and waited for her to come down.

"Buffy" he said softly as she opened her eyes.He couldn't find the words to describe the feeling he had."I love you." It didn't seem enough, what he felt at that moment was more than that,more than he'd ever felt in his whole life.Buffy gently touched his lips and found that she couldn't form words.

"I love you too" She managed.

They sat together for what seemed like hours, neither wanting to move,this perfect moment somehow shielding them from whatever madness waited for them outside the bathroom door.

Angel replaced the phone and sighed.

It was done.

He thought it would've given him more pleasure. He had just organised major payback for that bastard Riley,and yet it left him with a cold feeling.A feeling that started in the pit of his stomach and threatened to engulf him.