Affirmation: True to Life

Botan/Hiei

A/N: I still am sorry about the highly intense offending I might've done!! I really hope it is all right and that I'm forgiven but it goes with my plot line. You'll see!!

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People made life complicated.

It was actually pretty simple. One grows up, matures into a beauty to grow old after giving their reproducing genes to the next androgynous generation.

It had continued for at least three millennia, and every single human had at least one complicating matter in their life at least once.

Anything could set the simplicity away into complete madness. Anything. Getting a new car, new child, new life, another chance for things to go the way they should've long before, fairy tales that happened because of the perservering families or single parents.

Any sense of chaos could screw the delicate balance of a human's fractured life such as death, disease, and war. Humans had seen so many and yet they continued on with their drive going back to the simplicity endeared to them in times too hazardous to think of luxuries.

Even if he wasn't human, he still was one deep down.

Human hearts were spotted in her mind as dabbed chunks of darkness and black, shades of grey and who knew that he would have a problem with this small scene.

But this was silly beyond all reason and he would not talk nor even look at her. The tree branch they shared, his arms holding her to his body, sturdy for them and yet he still hadn't looked back to her.

A simple display of affection from a child to its mother had caused his instant shutting up.

Great. She had to deal with HER 'child' before they even decided to have children, that was if she could have children. She still had no idea about that.

That one look of affectionate habit from Hirgana Yumiko, third grader, a habitual specimen of amusement when he was bored, to Hirigana Laina had caused him to suffer and she knew that he had known she saw that regret, that pain come up unbidden.

Her demon was still as unfeeling as ever it seemed except when she often broke his barriers to let herself in her home.

But this had unglued his mind and returned him to a place she knew she didn't exist in.

His childhood memories of his parents or what parents he had.

His eyes had shone a dark crimson as if they were no longer able to go back to the mirthful red she often saw.

He was really in pain.

Botan had never dealt with the pain of her parents or her childhood. She had no idea how to respond to something she never remembered or dealt with.

It was simple for her because her past was her past and often it stayed that way. Koenma never even gave her a hint of her past at all. So she knew that she would never know it.

So she had no idea how to deal with his memories.

'What's wrong, Yuuen?' She thought towards her husband, clutching her worried hand around his arms, hoping he had heard her. With his youkai power in her, growing to form an entity with her own, had helped her immensely whenever she needed to contact him and he was out of range.

His pet name, Yuuen, was just how he was. Dark chocolate flavoring upon vanilla ice cream it seemed. Her heart shook and immediately told her to refocus.

"……….My mother……..I wonder, would she have ever held me like that?" His husky voice seemed soft and broken down into reverie trying to remember how to form words from mind to mouth. He never talked about his past. When he had begun trying to mate with her, they never brought it up. It just didn't seem to be deemed important simply because she never cared.

'Your mother?' She never cared because it brought her great sadness that she never knew what her childhood had been like so in turn, since she had nothing to tell him, he might as well not have told her.

'My mother threw me off a cliff.' Gasping audibly, she felt the pin pricks of tears that shouldn't come but were. His arms tightened their hold, nose nuzzling softly through blue waves of hair.

'……….Well, are you sure it was her?' Botan was never sure what to say except what she could immediately on her mind.

'……….hn.' He wasn't.

'I see……..' Even without seeing his eyes, she could tell that he wasn't sure.

'Woman…..' He was warning her not to interrupt his thoughts, but they both knew she could hear the words and respond to them.

'Yuuen, ' She paused in thought, worry ebbing over her message. She finally laced the sentence she had wanted to tell him.

'Would I hold my children like that?' She almost choked on a sob as he mentioned that. Why was he bringing probably non-existant BotanxHiei children into this?!

'Yuuen…..' Her low growl was warning him to stay away from the reproduction talk. She wasn't ready to be a mother, not yet when she was nearly new with her body.

'Would my mother have done what she did if she could've done that with me at least once?' His questions arose even more as he thought over his past with the bandits and then by himself. No Botan or mother there for him.

'Yuuen.' She stated his name in her thought, trying to interrupt the already insecure demon, hoping to get through to him with her laced sentence.

'I really wonder sometimes, Woman.' He paused in his gentle nuzzling, moving his legs to wrap around her stomach.

'Yuuen!!' Turning to face him, magenta flashed with the eerie feeling of love.

'What, woman?' He was caught in her trap like any other time. Her eyes were majestic, creating a fantasy out of them that often was fulfilled.

'…..You might think this is silly, she went against her element along with your father, I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do, even if…….it ended up with giving you up against their will or not.' She cupped a palm to her cheek, using her knee as leverage. Her left arm twisted to hold onto his neck.

'………….' He knew she was right deep down. His woman always tended to be right when it came down to matters of the heart, matters he had no idea on how to handle.

'Hiei……..I'll never allow that to happen to our children.' She finalized her thought with a dark glare. So she gave into the children idea, though she didn't exactly say that she would be having children but she did want them sometime in her life.

'……..thank you, woman.' A small gentle smile came across his face. Reassured, Botan twisted around to face him, then raised her hands up under his shirt, caressing his chest with her gentle fingertips. A moan escaped him as he realized the glare was gone from his wife.

'You're welcome, love.' A growl later and she found herself back in their bedroom, in their bed.

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