Affirmation: True to Life

Hiei X Botan

Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho or Savage Garden.

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Love was unintentional, blind to whoever was marked with his golden tipped love arrows. A jester amongst gods and demons, a fiend against cold hearted men who bitterly fought against his arrows with callous hearts meant for no love.

Yet Love always found a way in, a secret target even unknown to the coldest of all men and gods and demons. Expert marksman, yes, expert matchmaker? Never. Love loved to fool around with his shooting and matching making matches that almost could never be but were.

That was Love's personal joy.

Love's personal joyrides were his constant pain. She was his undoing. Blue hair, swallowing into the rivers of life. Shiny magenta showing through the mass of blue like shiny mica rocks.

She was difficult. Her logic confounding, confusing to him especially. She had her good times though. She was a challenge, a bother that he willingly allowed into his life, that he willingly admitted to loving even if Love was a jerk.

This, however, was nbot one of their better times. Sure, he loved her, but she sometimes was too difficult. Another flash of blue hair and shiny eyes came into his memory.

Sitting up, Hiei clenched his fists. Their argument had consisted of little BotanxHiei children. Ones the damn woman had no idea of having. He wanted children, badly, not only because of his demonic instincts but because he could feel his life going on, slowly approaching the time to father Hiei jerks and Bubbly Botans.

He was getting old. He would be about four hundred and eighty something in demon years which amounted to about thirty three years old in stupid human years. Closing his eyes in concentration, he kept his watch upon their home, particularly their bedroom window. Blue hair flashed through the vinyl blinds when he watched, rocking back and forth.

Demon longevity was increased double at least to most in human years. He barely understood it, but he knew that he was ready for children and settling down even if he had to quit being Mukuro's heir, though truth be said that he did want his kin to experience Makai as much as the human world.

And the woman he wanted to bear his children was there in his rocking chair sulking from her latest bout of anger at him.

She was sitting there, rocking back and forth, allowing her neck to be easily seen. He wanted dearly to reach out, but he knew they both needed the space especially since she was really hurting right now. Her words had rung true to him even if he wasn't going to readily admit it to anyone but himself.

She wasn't as sure as he was about parenthood. She didn't know what she thought turly and that had easily caused him to become enraged. Though she was his, she sometimes didn't act like it. Growling, he watched her.

Rocking back and forth, lost in her thoughts as would be normal when they argued, Botan didn't seem to be disturbed as his Jagan eye powered up. His bond with her only helped to discern her moods and when she was at her best moments for concievement. In return, she, however, only got his vague feelings and he was sure she could feel the bitterness he held towards Koenma.

The spot where his third eye was glowed underneath his bandanna, the eye opening to the soft material of white. His connection with her made him feel as if he was beside her, in her thoughts, in her soul with every movement like his own.

'Why can't I have children? I should! I have a human body, a…..horny' Hiei nearly fell off at that point, holding onto the branch, picking himself back up, red tinging his cheeks. 'demon, and an unusually weird marriage.'

(It's quite normal, damnit.) He cursed to himself, growling lowly towards his chosen bride. Hiei knew he hadn't spoken into her mind, but he'd been damn near it.

'All I want is to make him happy…….I don't know why I can't manage that….' He could the extreme dispair going through his link as if it were his own, spreading into his body like rain soaking the ground.

He cursed himself again for the umpteenth time that month. Hiei was one to keep his temper in check…….Okay…….sometimes. He could remember whe he first made the annowing ferry girl his. Such a disaster was hilarious now, but then it had been drastic and insanity plunged into one.

Her angry yet undeniably exciting glare towards him when she found out probrably had been the best part. He had loved that expression, often trying to recreate the fuming pouty glare she had summoned up during her anger. The beating the shit out of him while he was held down by the fox-demon's plant ropes definetely hadn't been loving but ut was worth that look.

Hiei growled dismissively at the horribly bittersweet memory and returned his attention back to the disruptive and insightful thoughts of his significant other.

'I mean, I know I eventually want Hiei and Botan kids, but not now! I'm perfectly fine without carrying a child for nine months and then having eighteen years of being unsure. Hiei, though, would be an excellent father, but me? I have no memories of my family, nothing……I don't even have anyone able to help me at the starting point of it all.' He practically couldn't help but smile at that thought. She thought he would make an excellent father.

Toying with a piece of blue hair, Botan hugged her knees to herself. Her mind still toiling. Whenever her mind came upon her demon husband, she felt as if she was often in a sense of confusion that often had the lingering feeling of knowing she was a special part of Hiei's world. After all, she was his heart.

Here she was, and by herself, hugging her lone body in his rocking chair. He'd have a coniption fit if he knew that but what he didn't know, never would hurt him in domestic matters such as finding out she couldn't cook worth a shit.

Though Hiei watched over her in his tree, her words and thoughts to herself shook his mind. Her words were true.

'I believe……silly as it may seem, that I am loved when I'm by myself, alone, even if Hiei is angry at me, I love him……' With a cyptic smile, only shown to a certain blue-haired diety, he decided to end their spacing out period by apologizing in a most unusual Hiei way.

Who ever knew koorimes knew how to sing?

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Okay, I've been through my first week of classes and its been fun. I've been trying to hurry up typing up everything so I can send the fanfic and post it. I've been having fun at the Rhode Island School of Design. It's great to have fun at and I love most of my classes.