After Rogue went to her room picked up her pajamas said a quick hi to Kitty who was reading a book, she headed to the bathroom to take a shower. She was glad when she found it wasn't occupied. Although it was pretty late for most of the kids in the school anyway.

Starting the shower she quickly stripped down out of her wet clothes and got in under the not to hot water. It felt wonderful.

As usual when taking showers she found herself thinking.

She knew she wasn't angry, not even frustrated about what just happened. She had just kissed one totally hot guy who seemed to be genuinely attracted to her. It left her feeling satisfied and somewhat gleeful.

A strange combination for her to say the least.

Since his arrival at the school she had been avoiding him. She knew she was attracted to him whether she wanted to admit it to herself or not. So she decided it was best to stay away from him. Besides she couldn't have a true relationship with him anyway. And being in the same room with him or hearing him speak only made her insides hurt and anger boil up inside her. But now that she could touch him, even if for a couple of minutes didn't that change things?

Do I want to be in a relationship? She asked herself.

She knew the answer was yes.

But do I want a relationship with Gambit? He seems kind of like a loose canon. What if he is just using me? But she didn't really believe that.

The couple times they had come into contact she couldn't help but notice they way that he looked at her. It was almost the same way that Scott and Jean looked at one another. Lovingly.

She took her sponge and soap and started lathering it up so she could wash herself.

But he is such a shameless flirt. And most of the girls here have a crush on him. Even Kitty.

He will probably just end up hurting you.

That isn't true he feels something for you I am sure of it.

What if you decide to start something with him only for him to disappoint you or betray you? You have been hurt enough, best not to open yourself up to any more pain!

But that kiss, she couldn't get it out of her head. She could almost still feel his lips against hers and his body pressed firmly against her.She had never felt anything like that ever. And it wasn't just that she was able to finally touch someone, it was the fact that it was Gambit kissing her, touching her..loving her!

Where did that come from? she asked herself. He doesn't love you!

He is more the love them and leave them variety.

He Probably just lusts after you. That is all. Nothing more. Wants someone no one else can touch.

He is a thief so of course he likes going after things that are thought unattainable...

She finished washing herself and rinsed the soap off her body as well as the sponge. Placing them back in their little cranny hole in the shower she started shampooing her hair. The smell of strawberries penetrated her senses and she found herself thinking about how Gambit smelled.

Wonderful She told herself. Cigarette smell and all.

Can't you think of anything besides Gambit? She berated herself.

Not at the moment

She wondered if he was still standing there in the danger room where she had left him.

Probably not.

I wonder what he is doing right now?

Maybe he is thinking about me as much as I am thinking about him.

She rinsed out her hair and started applying conditioner to it.

I have never been in a romantic relationship before. Maybe I don't want to be she told herself calmly.

Yes you do! Especially if it is with Gambit...Remy LeBeau.

She let out a long sigh as she rinsed out the conditioner. When that was done she twisted the cold water dial so that the it became hotter.

Slowly lowering herself down inside the bathtub she brought her legs up to her chest. The water from the shower head caressed her back soothing her sore muscles and joints.

After about ten minutes she turned the water off. She then shook her head to get some of the water out of her hair and ears and then got out. Grabbing a towel she slowly dried herself off. After getting dressed she stopped in front of the steamed covered mirror. Wiping it off she stared at herself. Suddenly she didn't see the angry, untouchable, depressed girl that she usually saw. She just saw contentment that made it's way to her face in the form of a slight smile, that seemed to have penetrated her eyes and weren't usually as hard as she liked them to be.

She felt more like a human being. Like a person. Like a woman?

All that from 2 kisses!

She opened the bathroom door and made her way back to her room. She found Kitty was still reading her book, she looked up at her as she entered. Rogue gave her a small smile.

"Did you have a good workout?" Kitty asked her.

"Yes." You have no idea She thought.

She put her workout clothes in the dirty hamper and then laid down on her bed. Flipping on her back, she stared up at the ceiling.

Suddenly remembering something she got up and made her way over to her dresser. Opening her drawer she quickly found what she was looking for. A Queen of hearts card. Ripping it in half she threw it away.

"Why did you do that?!" Kitty asked slightly shocked.

"Don't need it anymore."

Which was the truth she knew she didn't need it anymore. She kept that to remind her of Gambit. But, Rogue had decided... She wanted to be with Gambit. Even if she got hurt, even regardless of all the thoughts in her head telling her no. She knew she no longer wanted to be alone. And there was no reason for her to be any longer.

"Why not?" Kitty asked her holding on to her book in such a way so that she didn't loose her spot.

"I just don't." Kitty must have known she wasn't going to get any more of a response so after giving her a confused look she started to read it again. But Rogue could tell that Kitty was still slightly watching her over the top of the book.

I will tell her, just not tonight. My thoughts and feeling need to be my own... at least for now.

Besides what if it was too late... Maybe he doesn't want me anymore.

But she didn't want to think that. She wouldn't think that. Not after she finally had decided to let someone into her life. Such a rare occurrence for her. Peeling of the comforter she slipped underneath it and the sheet.

She found her thoughts were slowing down and decided she would go to sleep. She turned the lamp off on her nightstand.

"Going to sleep already? You don't mind if I keep my light on a little longer do you?" Kitty asked her softly.

"No, I guess not. Goodnight Kitty." She yawned.

"Goodnight Rogue."

"Rogue?" She heard kitty say softy a couple minutes later.

"Yea?" She let out a short sigh and shifted in her bed so she could look at Kitty.

"Are you ok? You usually don't go to bed this early.. "

Rogue noticed Kitty had put the book down along side her which meant she was ready for a long conversation.

But tonight she is going to be disappointed.

"I am just tired Kitty that is all."

With that she rolled over on to her stomach placed the pillow over head to show Kitty the conversation was over and slowly drifted of into the one place she usually was happy-Dream world.

Rogue woke up to what was a very early day for her, especially considering that it was Saturday morning and she could sleep in.

But not today She reminded herself. She had a book to finish reading and a report to write not to mention she wanted to talk to Gambit. Although working on her report was a good enough reason as any to put that off.

Not long after waking up she got dressed put her makeup on, made her bed and then quietly got back on it careful not to wake Kitty. She opened her book and for the next hour read it until she was finished.

Done reading the book she got up and she sat down in front of her laptop computerand set her book down beside it- in case she needed it. She then started typing away, trying to put what she hoped were coherent thoughts in her report.

For the next 2 hours she didn't budge, not even when Kitty got up and then later asked her if she wanted to go to the mall with her. A little Later than that Kitty came back and brought her some orange juice and a bagel noticing that she never went down to get breakfast.

When Rogue finally finished the report and spell checked it she printed it out so that she could re-read it the next day to make sure it all made sense.

All in all she was pretty satisfied with what she wrote. Getting up she stretched and then made her way downstairs.

She was ready to talk to Gambit nervousness or not.

Rogue was surprised after looking in the Rec room, the kitchen, the roof and even the garage where he sometimes worked that he was nowhere to be found. She saw that his motorcycle was still there. He has to be around here somewhere she told herself. She figured that he probably had slept in, he was known to do that more often than not.

Making her way up to his room she knocked quietly on his door. After a couple seconds of hearing nothing she knocked louder..still nothing. She knew from hearing some of the girls talking that he was a very light sleeper.

He should have answered his door by now.

Some of the younger students passed by as she was knocking the second time, their faces betraying their confusion as to why Rogue would even be at his door.

"Gambit" she said loudly knocking again..."Remy!"

Still nothing.

"Something wrong Rogue?" She heard from behind her.

She turned around and knew that she was blushing. Scott stared at her intently waiting for her reply.

"I ah just wanted ta talk to gambit, but he doesn't seem ta be in his room."

She was glad when he didn't ask her why she was looking for him-instead Scott tried turning Gambit's doorknob.

"Well it is not locked, I am sure he won't mind if I check on him."

Rogue knew that statement wasn't true. Gambit did not like Scott, everyone knew that...well maybe everyone but Scott himself. He was sometimes oblivious to those sort of things.

She watched as Scott slowly opened the door and stuck his head in. He then looked back at Rogue opened the door wider and stepped through. Rogue took the opportunity to glance inside and then followed after him. The first thing she noticed was how immaculate Gambit's room was, somehow she didn't expect that of him. The second thing she noticed was that his bed was made...as if he had never slept in it.

Scott turned around and faced her.

"He must have gotten up early this morning." He said while looking over Gambit's room again.

"Ya know he rarely gets up early."

"I haven't seen him this morning but I am sure he is around here someplace." Scott said ushering her out of the room and closing the door behind them.

She tried not to blush more..."I already looked all around for him and his bike is still in the garage. Ya know he doesn't go anywhere without it."

"Huh" Scott responded. He then gave her what was supposed to be a reassuring smile.

"I am sure he will turn up. He does disappear sometimes."

"You're right." Rogue said quickly wanting to end the conversation before Scott started asking questions she didn't want to answer "Thanks for helping me out."

Not that he was much help..like I couldn't have opened the door and looked inside myself. If he wasn't anyone but Scott I would swear he was being nosy. She looked back at Scott who was standing in the middle of the hallway a puzzled, yet thoughtful look on his face. But then again maybe he was.

With that she turned around and headed back to her room. And banged right into someone.

"Rogue watch it! She looked up at Kitty. "Are you ok Rogue, you seem a little distracted?"

"Yea, I am ok, just have a lot on my mind."

"Thought that goes without saying." Kitty said jokingly. "So you want to do something with me?"

"Like what?" She really didn't want to do anything. She felt like going to her room, turning some really loud music on and drowning all her thoughts away with them.

But then she decided she didn't want to mope around. And she could use more of a distraction than that. Besides she could talk to Gambit later when he returned back from where ever he had gone to.

Many, many hours later Kitty and Rogue returned back to the mansion. They had spent the day driving around doing various things. Kitty had even talked Rogue into riding a horse which she really enjoyed. Not that she told Kitty that.

It was now dark and they were somewhat later than their curfew. Turning into the driveway Rogue knew immediately that something wasn't right. For one the gate was wide open. And after driving up further she saw that there were two cop cars out in front of the house-their lights flashing.

"I know that this isn't because we are an hour past curfew" Kitty said trying to make light of it all "Right Rogue?"

Rogue didn't reply.

Rogue slowed down the car and parked behind one of the cop cars--they were blocking off the garage. Stepping out of the car she slammed the door shut. Right away she got a flashlight shown into her face.

"You can't be here right now" an older cop told Rogue while looking at her and Kitty.

"We live here" she told the uniformed officer.

He looked her and Kitty over.

"Can I see some id"

Rogue handed it to him first since hers was in her pocket, Kitty took a little longer as she rummaged through her things.

"Yes, Professor Xavier said two of his students were sill out."

He handed then back there ids and motioned to them that it was ok to go inside.

"What is going on?" she asked before moving.

"I think it is best you hear it from the officers inside."

At that moment she wished that she had telepathic abilities.

Kitty and Rogue quickly made their way into the school and then to the Professor's office where they found two officers, Scott, Jean, Kurt and of course the Professor sitting behind his desk.

Scott and Kurt had there faces down as if unable to face her and Kitty. Jean looked at her but then quickly turned around in her chair.

Did I just see tears in Jean's eyes?

Rogue spoke up before Kitty did, interrupting whatever the Professor and one of the officers were saying. By the tone of their voices Rogue knew it wasn't good.

"Professor." She asked concerned edged in her voice. "What is going on?"

The Professor looked up at her and glanced over at Kitty but then his eyes rested back on her. She noticed he looked somewhat stressed out...

"Professor?" She repeated and then found that she was holding her breath waiting for his reply. He let out a long sigh and said slowly sadness in his voice.

"It's Gambit."