Ah yes well as we all know, life sucks, and sucks really hard sometimes especially now. People I know are probably confused by this comment because I always seem happy and I got everything going for me. Yeah I'd say that too, but unfortunately that what gets me annoyed cause I'm not allowed to be sad. Either I don't have a reason a good enough one to be sad or I can't 'cause I need to be there for support (a friend of mine's mother died a week before my granddad, so I can't really be sad around him right, because right now it's more important for me to be there for him). teh song's by Goo Goo Dolls called Name, added it for affect i guess.
Summery: Lexy is taking the lost of her grandfather by shutting out reality what will happen to her? And what will happen to her relationship with Ray?
Disclaimer: DODS
Chapter 4: Name
Lexy sat staring on her bed staring at the blank wall opposite of her. All at once a million thoughts ran through her head, each one as different as the first. Things had settled down to the point were people had stopped dropping in unexpectedly and things had returned to somewhat normal. Gran would sit by the window and stare out it instead of the table in the dark room. Lexy's mother would run out on errands finally leaving the house.
Finally growing weary of her self, Lexy got up and walked out of her room. As she digressed down the hall way she found herself in her grandfather's library.
She wandered over to the desk and found that he had been reading up one of his favorite English writer, James Herriot.
And even though the moment passed me by
I still can't turn away
Lexy gingerly ran her fingers over the object on the desk each thing bringing back a memory of her grandfather. Tears once again pricked Lexy's eyes forcing her to turn and exit the room.She suddenly heard a soft muffled noise coming from down the hallway. Lexy crept down the hallway expecting it to be Gran but when Lexy neared the end she realized the noise was coming from her mother's room. Lexy slowly slid the door open. There, crouched over the bed was Lexy's mother trying her best to muffle her sobs by cover her face in a pillow.
Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way
And letters that you never meant to send
Get lost or thrown away
"Mom?" Lexy asked warily. She saw her mom jolt a bit before looking up and wiping tears away from her eyes quickly. Her mom got up and sat down on the bed. Lexy sat down beside her.
And now we're grown up orphans
That never knew their names
We don't belong to no one
That's a shame
Lexy's mother's breath quivered as she took a deep breath in. "He loved you, you know… he was so… proud of you too." Lexy's mom wiped away another tear that was sliding down her face. "Your grandfather…" Tears now were falling form Lexy's eyes. "He was so proud everything you did… He said he… couldn't of asked for a better… granddaughter" Lexy turned towards her mother who pulled her into a strong embrace. "Never forget that... he loved you so much."
But if you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won't tell no one your name
Lexy couldn't take it anymore. She dug her face into her mothers shoulder and started to sob.
And I won't tell em your name
Lexy and her mother rocked back and forth on the bed, both's cheekswere wet. the pair cried in each other's arm until their eyes ran dry.
Scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are
The week had passed slowly after wards. Lexy found escape through the back alleys around the apartment and in her room by tuning out the world. She had heard three times from Ray that week. He had some good and bad news. The group had managed to postpone the match with only damaging they're reputation. He told her that to repair the damage she would have to cream Ricka, along with every one else who were facing someone else.
You grew up way too fast
And now there's nothing to believe
And reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
'3, 2, 1,' Lexy launched her blade into the bowl. 'Come on now keep it up; keep it up! I Gotta stay focused.'Lexy had been practicing for over now. 'I don't get it! Why dose my blade keep slowing down! Come on Siya, we're stronger then this.' Siya was Lexy's bit beast. She was a mixture of elements but mostly of the air. One of her special attacks was the "Change of Wind" where her blade would encircle her opponents then hit them from every direction just like the wind changing direction. 'Oh, no! No, no, no, no! Don't slow down.' Lexy's blade came to a dead stop in the center of the bowl. 'Shit, what the hell is going on?'
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em your name
Lexy bent down and picked up her blade. Slowly twisting it in her hand she examined it. "Fuck, it's chipped." There on the blade's weight ring was a chip about as big as a rice grain. Lexy thought backwards in time to think about when it could have happened. It hit her, when she had come home from her cousin's house.
I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are come back down
Her mom had been silent all the way home and at that time Lexy didn't know about her grandfather. When her mom finally told her and she had escaped to her room Lexy took her over night bag and chucked it against her wall as hard as she could throw it. "Fuck, Ray's going to kill me..." Lexy slumped down on the pavement and rested her head again the brick wall of the alleyway. Her breathing was uneasy from her work out. "Things just couldn't get worse could they?" she asked herself, tears once again blocking her vision.
And I won't tell em your name
Ok, it's at my semi normal length, lol. So you don't have to deal with a short but sweet chapter . I meant to post this on the anniversary of my grandfather but was unable. This chapter was dedicated to Mrs. Laundry who suffered a sever heart attack and went into a coma yesterday and will die tonight when they take her of life support…