Miroku's POV

"Small, simple, safe price

Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets

This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals

And I am not afraid to die

I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.

I want the pain of payment

What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts

Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks

Would you be my little cut?

Would you be my thousand fucks?

And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid

To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts

My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter

I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart

Love is not like anything

Especially a fucking knife

Look at me, you can tell

By the way I move and do my hair

Do you think that it's me or it's not me?

I don't even care

I'm alive

I don't smell

I'm the cleanest I have ever been.

I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry (dry)

Just look at me, look at me now

I'm a fake x4

Just look at me, look at me now

I'm a fake x4

Do I drink? Do I date?

I've got perfect placement all my ink

Satisfied, in your eyes

I'm the biggest fan I've got right now

I made sure, that I look how I wanted to look

The people around me, the people surround me

I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry (dry)

Just look at me, look at me now

I'm a fake x4

Just look at me, look at me now

I'm a fake x4

My stomach hurts now, and all tied off in lace

I pray, I beg for anything, to hit me in the face

and this sickness isn't me, and I pray to fall from grace

The last thing I see is feeling

And I'm telling you I'm a fake x4

And I'm telling you I'm a fake"

i spit a little after i finished singing/screaming. Practice has been getting a bit difficult. I'm trying my best at new things with my voice, im working on screaming and its been going pretty damn good. Falling From Grace kicks ass and everyone in town knows about us. We've been playing shows at bars and shit now. We'll be going on tour to play at other small places, skate parks, and bars like next week... fun. I then threw up little, and lit a cigarette. Jesus my fucking throat kills. I sat on the floor of Inuyasha gararge and watched Inuyasha for a few moments. It was strange how it seemed like everytime i seen him he looked a bit different. His bangs have grown out more and his hair is short to his shoulders and he flips his bangs to the sides and his hair always looks like he never combs it. which i doubt he does.. ((picture Gerard Ways hairs. lead singer of my chemical romance is ya didnt know.. i just have a hard time picturing guys with hair as long as inuyashas so i cut it))

Inuyasha moved his hair outa of his face and smiled at the girl standing in front of the garage door. she was cute. kind of short with long blonde hair with brown lowlights. Her name is ashley, and the young age of 15. she's been coming to see us practice for the last few weeks. She has a huge crush on shippou and Inuyasha. Obviously.

But Inuyasha never even thinks about being with toher girls since him and Kagome got together a few months ago. and shippou revealed to us all that he's "queer". im not making fun of gay people. thast the exact word he called himself.

IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SORRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY im so very very very very very very very very VERY VERY very very multiplied by 1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 S.O.R.R.Y! i just feel bad about not updating in like... a very long time. Please update to motivate me. boost my confidence. make me happy. i was planning on deleting this story but it people let me know that they still love it i'll continue.

hugs and kisses

brittany