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"God, I feel seventeen again." Rory smiled as they made their way across the bridge. "Sneaking out of the house to come to the bridge and meet you. Except this time we have kids and we are completely lost in how to handle that. Oh, yeah, and we're only 24." Jess nodded and they were soon sitting beside each other in front of the sparkling water that lay beneath them in the night. "What are we going to do?" Rory started crying.

"Hey, hey, where did all the water works come from?" Jess asked.

"I'm sorry, it's just……… everything is so screwed up right now. And sometimes I can't even think, I just have to cry. And believe me it may sound stupid, 'cause maybe it is stupid. But, I don't know. Crying is an outlet for everything that is wrong in my life, or everything that is supposed to be right." Rory sighed as she wiped the tears from her cheeks. "I'm sorry."

"I have never met anyone like you, Rory Gilmore." Jess smiled. "And we may be screwed right now. But I have a feeling that you may be okay."

"Will you be okay?"

"I don't think so." Jess laughed. "But don't worry about it. I will always be here. Screwed. And available to help you. Even though I can't help myself." Rory thought about this for a few seconds then just looked at Jess.

"Can I tell you a secret?"

"Always." He whispered.

"Actually two secrets." Rory corrected herself.

"Go ahead."

"I love you." Rory smiled. "But don't tell anyone." She whispered. "That may sound so horrible for you because I don't think that your able to love me back. But, that's okay. 'Cause even though I may move on and not be with you. I'll pine for you. Always. Because there will always be this little story playing in my head that has me and you together. In a little picture frame on top of a mantle." She laughed. "And this love that I have for you is eternal. Even though it may not be love love, it could just as easily be friend love, or lust love. All I know is that I love you, and always will. And for some reason that doesn't scare me at all."

"How can you deal with loving me when you know that we could never be together?"

"Because we can be together. But we're incompatible. And all the forces of the universe are against us." Rory smiled. "We're like two puzzle pieces that at first they seem to fit, and you feel with all your heart that they should fit, but at the end boom they don't fit. And you feel so disappointed because they could fit and you could make them fit if you tried hard enough. But, you can't. Just because you won't." Rory stopped for a second and smiled at Jess. He started to say something but she silenced him. "And please… don't say that you love me also."

"Why?"

"Just don't."

"Why?" He asked again.

"Because I already know it." Jess smiled at this, and laid down on the bridge. He was cold. The bridge was cold. But, he didn't want to leave. He never wanted to leave. Rory sighed and quickly joined him.

"Hey, you only told me one secret." Jess reminded her.

"I know. I was kind of avoiding telling you the other." Rory confessed.

"You don't have to tell me. Really."

"No. I want to tell you. I have to tell someone." Rory sighed. "Umm... The exact time when my water broke was when me and Paris were playing scrabble. Not exactly a memorable moment. But, she took me to the hospital and she was the only one there. My grandparents had kicked me out when they found out that you were the father. Oh, and they gave me a five minute lecture about the proper boys that I was supposed to be hanging out with." Jess smiled. "Anyways, I was there... alone. And I definitely didn't want Paris being in the room when I was having Nick. So, she waited outside. And the whole time that I sat there, in birth, with the biggest pain in my life. All I could think about was you, and how you weren't there holding my hand. It was as almost as I didn't even feel anything. Because I was already feeling so much pain that you weren't there."

"Rory, I could have..." Jess started but Rory silenced him.

"Please don't say anything. I need to finish my story."She smiled. "Okay, so, after Nick was born... the nurse asked me if I would like to hold my new baby son. And I remembered looking in his eyes and seeing you. Exactly you. Oh my god, I had never felt so much heart ache in such a long time. It was like something had exploded right in front of me. So, she asked me again. And I said no. And suddenly became frantic. I couldn't help but close my eyes to keep myself from seeing my baby and partly to keep me from crying."

Rory could see how Jess was hurting too, while she was telling her this. But, she thought it was only fair to finish.

"I refused to hold my son when I left the hospital and arrived at the apartment. I wouldn't look at him... not even a glance." She could feel the tears streaming down her face. "I just wanted to d-d-die right then and there. I couldn't get out of bed for weeks. And Lane and Paris would stay with me and take care of the baby. They would always suggest to call Lorelai or even call you. Because I was bad, I was really really bad." Rory sobbed. "I had never actually been mentally ill in my life before. But I was." Jess rolled over on his side, and looked in Rory's eyes. He sat up and made her sit up while she was shaking and sobbing. He sat her on his lap and put her head on his chest. Jess put his hands around her and held her tightly.

"Rory, stop, I don't want you to tell me any more. I know it hurts for you. And I don't want to hear it." Jess whispered into her hair.

"N-n-n-o. I have to finish." Rory sniffled. "And every time they would say your name, I would mentally break down all over again and run out of the room. Because I didn't want anything that would remind me of you. I made them go when they started to bring up your name regularly. And they wanted me to have a therapist come to my apartment. But, I yelled and I screamed and I made them get out." She could feel Jess' muscles hardening. And his grip on her getting stronger. "That night the baby started crying, so I finally for the first time went in his room. I was forced to hold him and bring him to the rocking chair so he would stop crying."

Jess sighed, maybe preparing for the worst, or just hoping for it to finish.

"And I would close my eyes and rock him. Because I couldn't seem to look at his face. But just then, I just slowly opened my eyes. And I saw an angelic face looking back at me. And I thought about what I had been doing those days. And I thought about you and your mom." Rory sobbed. "How I was starting to be like Liz. This kid had done nothing wrong, and I was treating him like crap. Then, I apologized to him. Soundly, and softly. And I thought that maybe a reminder of you wouldn't be that bad. Oh, but it was. And as Nick grew up, he started looking more and more like you. But every day I would act like nothing ever happened, and like I was all better. Paris and Lane helped me through the day, they never talked about what had happened. And to this day every single night I take out your pictures and compare them to a sleeping Nick and just cry." Rory shrugged. "I can't believe I did all that. But, like I told you, I'm not perfect. And every time I talk to you or see you again. And you make it impossible for me to say anything. Because you start making these awful propositions, for me to run away with you, or to go back to you. But, after all that all I can do is hate you. And that night, that you came to my dorm, every time I said no it was like having my world implode over and over again. I felt like fire works were going on in my heart. But for my sake, I couldn't take a chance on you so you could just leave."

Rory looked up at Jess and he had his eyes closed. She was sure that he wasn't sleeping. Because he wasn't. But, she knew that if he opened his eyes he would cry.

"And every time I would see you it hurt me so bad, because of the fact that I wouldn't see you again. Or even the possibility that this would happen. So, all I could do is shut down and not be with you at all." Rory finished, she was still crying but she didn't really care. "You must think I'm some kind of crazy person." She slowly released herself from his grip.

"Rory." He only said her name.

"I probably am. You probably don't ever want to speak to me again."

"Rory, I think you are not crazy." Jess sighed. "Just wounded and hurt. And I did all that."

"No, Jess, don't you get it? I did all that. I didn't tell you that I was pregnant or anything of the sort. I made myself shut down and hate Nick." Rory stated. "You know, mom is the same way." Jess looked at her weirdly. "The first time Luke broke up with her she left him a message to come to her house and sit by her while she cried. And he came and broke the door, then fixed the door. But, when he came in, mom wasn't in there because she had gone to Luke's to get the answering machine tape so he wouldn't hear the message."

"Sounds typical Lorelai and Luke." Jess sighed. "But, Rory, if you want, I could never go. I could stay with you and help you with Nick. We could be together. You don't have to cry every night."

"No, Jess, no!" Rory exclaimed. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell or scream or anything. Jess, I didn't tell you this story just to get your sympathy or to get you to move in with me or so we could be together. I told you this story so you know where I'm coming from when I tell you that I can't be with you."

"I'm sorry." Jess whispered. "All that you had to go through was horrible. Actually, everything your going through is horrible. But, I'm not sorry for that. Because you don't want my sympathy. I'm sorry for leaving the first time. Because I know that this is all based on that. I truly did love you, Rory."

"I know." Rory sobbed. She moved back on his lap. And he welcomed her with open arms. Once her head was on his chest, he laid down with her on top of her. Rory just cried on to his shirt, and he tried to comfort her as well as he knew how to. "Thank you." She whispered in between sobs.

"Why?"

"For staying in mom and Luke's life while I was away. You were their perfect little Rory for a little while." She finished. And then soundly fell asleep. Jess didn't even think about moving. He slept also. And she would secretly wake up sometimes and look up and Jess, and smile. Because she had no tears left.

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