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A/N: Okay, many of you were like, "Oh, no, does that mean their not going to be together?", or "Oh no, they have to be together!" This is a Literati people. Think. Trust me, it may take a while... but I'll get where you guys want me to get. Okay, now that I got that out... I am SO glad for the great reviews that you all gave me on the last chapter. You are all amazing! Seriously, this story would not be what it is without my faboulus reviewers. So, keep on reviewing, please dont stop. Tell me what you think, or even yell at me if you dont like it. lol. Okay, well, I hope you enjoy this!
The sun raised slowly above their beloved bridge. Rory felt the sun shine on her face, and was forced to wake up. When she opened her eyes, she found herself covered with Jess' jacket. She was still on top of him, her head resting on his chest. And he was sound asleep. She smiled and then kissed his chest, that was covered with his black Metallica T- shirt. He opened his eyes when she did this and smiled down at her.
"I wish I could wake up every morning like this." He said with a hoarse voice, since he had just woken up.
"You mean, on a cold bridge with you freezing to death while the damn sun shines on your face, oh yeah, good thing that we don't move a lot in our sleep because we would have ended up in the lake sleeping with the fishes." Rory smiled.
"You know what I meant." Jess rolled his eyes. "You kissing my chest to wake me up and..."
"Who said I kissed your chest to wake you up? I might have kissed your chest just because I wanted to." Rory interrupted him.
"Alright then you kissing my chest period." Jess smiled. Rory smiled then laid her head on his chest again, then after about a few minutes she sat up and kissed him square in the mouth. "Don't toy with me, Gilmore."
"Sorry." Rory put her finger across her lips. "I'm really sorry. I just... I can usually stop myself from kissing you... I'm sorry." She shifted uncomfortably and just looked down at the lake.
"Hey, don't be embarrassed." Jess sighed and moved over next to her. Rory shook her head. "Rory, you wanted to kiss me, and I was here looking kissable. You don't have to apologize. I don't have a girlfriend, and you don't have a boyfriend. So, no harm done." Rory still shook her head. "What are you shaking your head at?"
"No, Jess, no. I can't just kiss you whenever I want. It's wrong. And I'm pulling you along. When we're nothing... not boyfriend and girlfriend. I just can't kiss you like that. In the middle of a conversation, just because I want to." Rory stated.
"You can." Jess insisted. "I don't care. You can kiss me whenever you want and it doesn't have to mean anything. Rory, your going through a hard time right now, and you need an outlet. I'm not sure that crying is doing anything for you. So, please."
"No, Jess. You deserve better than this. Than me." Rory sighed. "I'm completely an emotional mess and I can't deal with anyone but me and Nick. You already added Hannah, so you can't add yourself."
"What kind of rule is that?"
"Jess, just please. This is what's going to help me." Rory insisted. "You need to stop me from kissing you or anything else."
"I don't think I'm that strong, Rory." Jess sighed.
"Yes, you are. Please, Jess. Everything is forgiven after this." Jess hesitated for a second then sighed.
"Okay." He moved a little closer to Rory.
"Don't give me temptation, Jess."
"I'm not giving you anything. I'll stop you. I promised and I never go down on my word." Jess stated. They sat in silence for a minute until Rory looked up at him and laughed.
"What are we still doing here?" Rory asked still laughing.
"We're stopping you from kissing me." Jess smiled.
"Right." Rory smiled back. They looked into each other's eyes and saw a nice sparkle of laughter and happiness. They saw it each time they were together. "Let's go home." She stood up and offered her hand. He took it and they walked hand in hand. "Are we allowed to be walking with our hands joined?"
"Why not? Our mouths are not touching." Jess smirked. "We're friends and this is what friends do." Rory smiled and nodded. After a little while she put her head on his shoulder, he put his arm around her and hugged her into his side.
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They finally made it to the house, and as soon as they did, the two kids ran out to greet them.
"Mommy, daddy!" Hannah yelled as she ran towards them. She reached her mom and dad and hugged their legs. Which made them stay hugged together. Soon, Nick joined her but held out her hands so Jess would pick him up. He did, and then let go of Rory.
"Hey, buddy." Jess smiled. "What's up?"
"Why were you and Rory so close?" Nick asked.
"Nick, I told you to please call me mom." Rory sighed.
"Were you guys kissing?" Nick asked with a disgusted look on his face. Rory and Jess looked at each other then hesitated, until Hannah spoke.
"Are you guys going to get married?" Hannah opened her eyes really wide. They both started to say something but Hannah interrupted them. "Oh my gosh, that would be sooo cool. I can be your flower girl. My friend, Jane, said that she was a flower girl in her aunt's wedding and she got to wear the prettiest dress in the whole wide world. But I bet if I was flower girl in your wedding I would be prettier than her, 'cause daddy says that I'm the prettiest girl in the earth..."
"Umm, sweetie, how about we just go inside for now?" Rory suggested.
"She talks a lot." Nick whispered to Jess.
"Tell me about it." Jess rolled his eyes.
"Hey, no whispering." Rory exclaimed. Jess and Nick nodded and then they all headed into the house. Luke and Lorelai were sitting on the couch discussing if Candace Cameron from Full House was dead or alive.
"No, Luke, she's dead. They said so in this article. She died in a car crash when she was twenty- one. You should know that. My god." Lorelai exclaimed.
"Lorelai, I'm telling you. She just did an interview for ABC Family. She's alive." Luke insisted.
"Then it was an old interview."
"No, it wasn't..."
"Mommy and daddy are getting married!" Hannah announced breaking their conversation.
"What?" They both exclaimed.
"Yes, they are." Hannah smiled. "They just told us." Rory and Jess shook their heads behind Hannah so they would see that it wasn't true. Lorelai and Luke sighed in relief but then turned their attention back to Hannah.
"Oh, well, I think that I should talk to the happily engaged couple in the kitchen." Lorelai smiled.
"Don't be too hard on them. They just want you to be happy for them." Hannah whispered.
"Right..." Lorelai smiled nervously. She took them each by the arms and led them to the kitchen. "What the hell is going on? Hannah thinks your getting married. And I'm pretty sure that she already told Nick about it. Oh, and Luke has to deal with them out there and their questions. And Luke gets nervous when he is being asked all these questions by his grandchildren. So, talk, explain."
"Well, you know kids these days, they make up so much stuff that you don't even now what their talking about half of the time." Rory replied.
"Nope. Try again."
"What do you mean 'try again' we're not shopping for shoes here. I just told you and explained." Rory sighed.
"Look, I know Hannah is pretty smart. But she did not get to marriage by herself. She could have gotten to you two together by herself. But, not marriage." Lorelai stated. "So, please, tell me. I won't say anything if you don't want me to."
"You'll say something, mother."
"I won't. You have my word." Lorelai said. Rory stayed silent. "Ugh, come on, Rory. I hate being the one to be out of your little click." She still remained silent. "Alright, then, Jess, tell me what the madness is all about." First he looked at Rory, then at Lorelai.
"Alright." Jess rolled his eyes. "When we arrived to the house, we were kind of holding hands, and I had my arm around her and she was snuggled against me. So, Nick started talking about kissing. Then, Hannah started talking about marriage." Lorelai smiled.
"Are you thinking about marriage?"
"What? No! Me and Jess aren't even together." Rory said almost instantly.
"Oh, okay."
"What?" Rory asked.
"What domean by what?"
"You want to say something." Rory stated. "So, say it. Because me and Jess need some opinion on this. We have no idea what we're doing. And you're a mom, and I don't know. Just please. Say something."
"Wrong. All wrong." Lorelai blurted out. Rory and Jess looked surprised. "You are handling this all wrong. I'm sorry to be so honest, but I am going to be. These are my grandchildren and I can't have them like this."
"Like what?" Jess asked. She didn't respond. "Like what, Lorelai?"
"You are confusing them. A lot." Lorelai sighed. "First they have both of their parents. Which they haven't had until now, yesterday. How do you think they feel about that? You haven't considered their feelings on any of the decisions you are making. I'm sorry but it's the truth. First, there is no sign of you guys being together..."
"Because we aren't together!" Rory exclaimed.
"Alright. Then, why were you guys coming back to the house all lovy dovy and together? In my opinion, very together." Lorelai asked.
"Because..." They both started.
"Okay, pretend you're a little kid with these big hopes and dreams. And then, your mom comes back into the picture. And you're like, "Wow, this is incredible. All my dreams are coming true. I'm having a mommy and a daddy." And you see how those are together, 'Mommy and Daddy?' That is how every kid in the world is thinking." Lorelai sighed. "And then, they see no sign of them being together. They shrug and say, 'Oh well.' But, then you see them all snuggled up and together..."
"Oh my god." Rory whispered.
"Yeah." Lorelai sighed. "They are so confused, hun. They don't know what to think or what to believe. Their little kids. They don't know all the problems of the world, and they don't want to know them. But, you two, go around like everything you do doesn't effect your kids. Well, it does. If you screw up, they are disappointed. You have to think about them. And ask yourself the same damn question that me and Luke have been asking ourselves. Are the two of you together?"
"I'm a horrible mom." Rory started, and sat down on the chair.
"No, honey, that wasn't the question." Lorelai tried to stop her from crying. "Please, don't cry... umm... think happy thoughts. Chocolate, unicorns, bunnies, Jess naked." Jess looked at her with an eyebrow raised. "What?" He just shook her head.
"I am... I'm a horrible mom. And everyone knows it." Rory cried.
"No, everyone doesn't know it." Lorelai tried.
"Yes, they do. You know it, Luke knows it." Rory sniffled.
"That's not everyone." Lorelai stated. Rory started to cry hardly. "Jess, do something. Don't just stand there like an idiot."
"And what do you suggest I do?" Jess asked, in a hushed tone.
"Comfort her." She mumbled, rolling her eyes.
"Umm, okay." Jess sat down next to her and rubbed her back. Lorelai looked at him and sighed. She motioned for him to say something. "Rory, you are not a bad mom."
"Now that was just poetic." Lorelai said sarcastically.
"Sorry." Jess rolled his eyes. "Umm, Rory, would you like to go into the bed room and lie down for a little while?" He asked. Rory lifted her head and nodded. Jess didn't see too many tears on her face, so this emotional break down couldn't be that bad. Jess stood up and waited until she went into the bedroom. "I'll be there in a minute." He exclaimed. She nodded and crawled into bed, while Jess went back outside with Lorelai.
"Thank you." Lorelai smiled. "I bet she'll feel better after a nap. You suck at comforting, by the way."
"Nice to know." Jess nodded.
"Okay, well, go back in there before she starts crying because of the color of her sheets." Lorelai laughed. Jess rolled his eyes, but did as he was told.
"Back." He cooed. Rory smiled when she saw him but still snuggled under the covers.
"I need to get in my pajamas." Rory sighed. "But I don't wanna get up."
"I will get them." Jess stated. Rory smiled then nodded. He got up and went to her cabinet. "Don't you think you should take a shower before you go to sleep? I mean, sure, it's only morning, but you might feel better. And cleaner."
"I should." Rory sighed. "But don't leave. Wait for me, please. You're the only thing that keeps me sane. And in my case that's literally." Jess smiled, then went to the bookshelf, and heard the shower turn on. He looked around, then found Howl on her desk. He smiled and picked it up.
Rory put on her towel, then walked out of the bathroom. After she had taken a bath. She found him sitting on the bed, with Howl in his hands. He looked up at her when he heard the bathroom door open.
"Get changed immediately." Jess exclaimed.
"Relax." Rory laughed. "Why are do you get so nervous when I'm naked?"
"Because. If I wanted to, I could take that towel off of you in one second flat. Trust me." Jess sighed. "Besides, one of us has to stay sane. And I'm definitely not sane when you only have a teeny tiny towel on you." He smirked, but put his hands over his eyes. "There. Get changed." Rory just rolled her eyes. But, she just looked for her clothes. She got tired of holding up her towel, so she just let it drop. "Oh, god."
"What is wrong with you?" Rory mumbled.
"Nothing." Jess sighed. "I know that your naked."
"And that's making you uncomfortable?"
"Yes." He paused. "No." Rory looked at him, amused at this. "I can't open my eyes, but I want to. And I know that your just standing there. Naked. Right in front of me."
"My god, Jess. Just open your eyes." Rory rolled her eyes. "I really don't mind."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes." Rory stated. Jess took off his hand slowly, and smirked. "Don't do that."
"What?" He asked, with his eyes glued on her.
"Ask me if you can look and then when you look you smirk. You can't do that." Rory stated.
"There are rules of looking at you naked?"
"Yup." Rory smiled.
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Rory woke up after her nap. She felt more rested and emotionally stable. She heard a knock on the door.
"Come in." She exclaimed. Her mom entered the room with a smile on her face. "Hey, mom."
"Hey, sweetheart." Lorelai smiled and sat on her bed with a small jump. "The nap helped, huh?"
"Yeah." Rory smiled. "Thank you for dealing with me. I'm a huge emotional mess right now..." Lorelai nodded, and smiled at her daughter.
"Jess went out with the kids. They were getting anxious and annoying." Lorelai smiled. Rory nodded and looked down at her lap. "What's wrong, hun?"
"I can't cry." Rory stated.
"That's your problem?"
"No. It's just that I've cried so much these past months. And Jess hates it when I cry. And I don't want to cry." Rory bit her lip.
"Rory, I hate this." Lorelai sighed. "We used to be so close and now that your back it isn't going back to the way things were before. Now I feel responsible to be all motherlike because of this new thing that you're going through."
"But you don't have to be." Rory sighed. "Me and Jess talked about it last night."
"Ah, yes, the mystery night."
"Mom, I can't tell you anything about that right now. But, can you help me make a decision on the whole Jess thing?" Rory asked.
"Of course." Lorelai smiled. "Alright, meet me out in the living room. I have a pint of Mocha Chocolate ice cream calling our names." She patted her lap, then walked out the door. Rory sighed.
"Who's the father?" Emily demanded.
"You met him when we were together." Rory said quietly. "Jess Mariano."
"The boy who had the black eye?" Emily asked and she just nodded. "And the boy who ruined the car that your boyfriend gave you?"
"Yes, grandma."
"That is completely unacceptable." Emily huffed. "First, you let that boy into our home. And then you sneak into the pool house and loose your virginity." Rory looked at her with shock.
"I did not loose my virginity to Jess." Rory exclaimed. "I lost my virginity when I was 19!"
"You can not be serious." Emily muttered. "You get pregnant now when everything is perfect?"
"Everything has hardly been perfect, Grandma! I'm not at Yale. I'm completely on bad terms with my mom. And I'm living in the bedroom next to you because you think that I might have sex. My god, everything is not the way supposed to be. I'm in the DAR. And now I'm pregnant. Now that just tops everything off!"
"Go to your room right now, young lady!" Emily exclaimed. "Calm down."
"I'm not your daughter, Emily." It had been the first time she had called her by her first name. "And Jess is the father. And no matter how scummy you think he is, I'm going to have this baby with him!"
"Is he going to support this baby? Are the two of you going to move in together? Does he even know?"
"No, he does not know." Rory stated.
"That is really wonderful, Rory." Emily rolled her eyes. "Besides, it's better if you don't tell him. He will just run away again, like he always does. He will leave you heartbroken. Again. This baby isn't going to be happy with him. He is not going to be happy about this. You shouldn't tell him." Emily sighed. "That way you could stay with us, and finish that awful community service."
"No!"
"What?"
"No! I am not going live under this awful roof." Rory replied.
"Where would you rather be? With the father of your baby? I don't think that's going to happen."
"Stop insulting Jess."
"Why are you defending him?"
"Because..."
"If you are going to insist on having this baby, and defending him. With no reason at all. Then, I don't want you living here. So, don't even try to persuade me."
"I wouldn't dream of it." She replied with venom in her eyes.
"You listened to my mother?" Lorelai asked in disbelief. Rory sadly nodded. "Nobody listens to my mother. Not even my father listens to my mother. That's how bad listening to my mother is."
"Well, I did." Rory sighed. "I couldn't trust myself making this decision. And... I don't know. My head is screwed up."
"You're blaming this on your head?"Lorelai asked. "What did you're head ever do to you?" Rory rolled her eyes. "Look, Rory, for me, the real problem here is that you don't trust Jess with your heart. I mean, I don't blame you. I wouldn't trust Jess with my heart even if he gave me a million dollars..."
"Mom." She warned.
"Hold on. I'm getting to the point." Lorelai stopped her. "But, Have you seen Jess now? He is different than how he was when you guys were in high school. Look at him, he has a kid, and he is very responsible. We have stayed in touch with Jess since you were at Mom and Dad's. Hannah is a great kid, Jess raised her wonderfully. She is so smart, and pretty. Jess wants you back, and I can't blame him, your quite a catch." She smiled. "And I think that if you guys got back together, you would be the threat to the relationship."
"What?" She asked.
"Oh my god, I can't believe I'm taking Jess' side, and not my own daughter's. But, I'm trying to help you guys out." She sighed. "Rory. You are definitely not ready to be in a relationship. To be honest with you, you're a mess. You are still trying to get your life back to normal. And... Jess already has a life. He is super together. I think that it would be best to wait until both of you are ready."
Rory nodded. "I have been trying to convince him of that. But, he won't listen. He for some reason has to have me. And I am no good for him. Not now. And I don't know if I will ever be." Lorelai smiled, she was happy that her daughter was figuring this out. "I love him. And I told him that..."
"Wait. You told him that you loved him?"
"Yeah."
"Oh, no, Rory!" Lorelai exclaimed. "You have already done harm. Did you give him the Rory face? I bet you gave him the Rory face."
"What 'Rory face'?"
"The 'Hey, I'm Rory, don't you want to pet me?' face." Lorelai replied.
"I do not have that face." She protested.
"Yes, you do." Lorelai stated. "And you gave it to Jess when you told him that you loved him. Nobody can resist that face. You gave it to me when you wanted to get that stupid atlas when you were like 5!"
"Oh, yeah, I remember that atlas." Rory smiled. "But, I did not give you any sort of face to get it."
"You gave him the face." Lorelai sighed, shaking her head.