Disclaimer (as if you haven't guessed yet) I do NOT own Gundam Wing or its characters...sniffles

The Tears He Shed

You know it's true what they say, you really don't know what you got till it's gone. It's been weeks since he left, but it felt more like years. I had no idea where he was and neither did anyone else. I worried about him constantly, and my heart ached to be near him again.

I hated myself.

I hated my actions.

I hated the fact that I didn't stop him.

I hated not having him around.

I knew it was my fault that he was no longer here with me, and I knew I couldn't just stay in the house we created into a home. Everything had reminded me of him and it hurt so much. It seemed like the once happy home I lived had in turned on me, punishing me for what I had done wrong.

This was not how I wanted things to be. This was not how I wanted to live.

I always thought I would live out my days and be happy...as long as I was with Heero. But now I have come to find that all good things must come to an end.

My body trembled as I placed my hand over the doorknob. I opened the door to face the world that had turned on me; I stepped outside and shut the door behind me. I was never going to go back to it...alone.

I had made my final decision...I was going to find Heero.

I knew it wasn't going to be easy.

I knew my odds were against me.

I knew that he could have been anywhere, but it felt like I was being drawn towards one place in particular...the place where he proposed to me.

It just seemed like the right place. I don't know why, but it seemed like Heero was calling me to come for him...just like I did when I was there...

That was love.

That's what brought him to me when I needed him the most, and that's what's leading me to him now.

The park was far away from where I was, but that didn't matter to me. What matter was that Heero needed me...just like I needed him.

I ran as fast as I could to get to him, I wasn't going to let myself waste anymore time. I hated myself for not doing this sooner and I would constantly tell myself what an idiot I was to have waited so long.

My chest began to burn from breathing so hard, but I wouldn't let that slow me down. Each step I took was leading me closer to him I could just feel it.

My heart felt like it was going to explode by the time I could faintly see the park in the distance.

I knew this was my chance to make things right again.

As I got closer to the park I was able to see the broken swing set that I had once occupied. I could barley make out the shape of someone sitting on the only available swing because their head was hung low. I knew it was Heero, and it was tearing me apart.

When I approached him he made no effort to acknowledge me, he just kept his head low and slowly swayed back and forth. His hands were clutching the same metal chains that I had once held on to in my time of need. I took a step to be closer to him and began to speak.

"Heero, I'm so sorry. I understand now, we belong together. I understand the pressures of getting married, and I now know that even the perfect soldier has reasons to be worried. Heero, our love led me to you. Our bond is so strong it doesn't need words. I just wish I came sooner."

I dropped to my knees and rested my head in his lap. I could feel his tears as they hit my face and I knew that he was listening.

"Please Heero; I have been so stupid to ever doubt what we have for each other. What we have Heero is real. I love you Heero."

He suddenly wrapped his arms around me and lowered himself to his knees. We were both kneeling on the ground locked in each others embrace. It felt so good to be back, this is where I belonged.

This is how everything is supposed to be. Heero will get over his habits, he is strong, I know he's worried about us, but when you're engaged who wouldn't be? I understood now.

I looked down to see his hand was still clenched into a tight fist. I untwined his fingers gently to discover the ring that I had foolishly taken off.

Heero placed it on my finger where it belonged, with tears in his eyes. At that moment I knew that nothing was going to ever get in the way of our love ever again, all because of the tears he shed.

Owari