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Nobody ever said it would be easy.

Chapter Nine: Finding out.

It had been one hell of a night for all of them. Emotions were running high, enormous amounts of alcohol was consumed, floods of tears were wept, hugs after hugs were given and all of their throats were sore for talking for hours.

After Sirius had stormed out James and Remus ran after him. They knew where he was going - the shrieking shake. The marauders had their own private stash of illegal alcohol and knew Sirius would drown his sorrows. After two bottles of fire whiskey Sirius told the boys that he did get with Michelle to make Amaya jealous but never expected her to go with Malfoy. He told them that she drove him crazy but couldn't stop himself thinking about her when they weren't around. He couldn't understand the effect she had on him, he couldn't understand why he was being drawn to her. He admitted to the boys that he's never felt like this about anyone else before and didn't know what to do about it.

The thought of being committed to someone scared all three of them but James and Remus told him that when your with the one you want, those feelings disappear and are replaced with love, passion and fire. This confused him even more. There was this air of mystery about her which intrigued him, and he had fucked it right up. He drank another bottle of fire whiskey and passed out.

The girls had a similar night. Lily and Nicole went up to the girls dorm to find a sobbing Amaya. She couldn't understand Sirius and his ways. One minute he was being so sweet and caring towards her and the next he made her as made as hell. She finally admitted that yes she did like him and yes she did want to be with him and now she didn't care about the consequences, she would deal with them when they arose. She told them that she felt guilty about her friends back home. She missed them so much but didn't do anything to find a way to get back.

She couldn't obviously reveal to much. Sirius was a man the confuse her, she didn't mind because she liked a challenge, but one thing that scared her was being hurt. She voiced this to them, telling them that he didn't want to get hurt by him, and didn't want to be just a fling to him. They reassured her that they had never seen Sirius act like this around a girl before and that he would do anything to make her happy. This calmed Hermione down a lot but she was still really mad at him. Some of the things that he had said to her cut deep. She wasn't going running this time. If he wanted to be with her then he apologised to her. Once hugs were shared Hermione fell asleep in the arms of the two girls.

Hermione woke up and images of the previous night came flashing back to her. This put her in a foul mood. She dressed in black jeans and a black wool jumper with matching black trainers. Black. That's how she felt. The weather complimented her outfit really well. Rain clouds poured over the Hogwarts ground causing all the outdoor morning lessons to be cancelled. This suited her just fine. She had the morning away from him.

Sirius woke up with a banging hang over, flashes of last nights argument with Amaya came back to him and he groaned. He looked out the window and saw that the weather suited his mood. Black, cloudy and miserable. Black baggy trousers and a black t-shirt expressed how he felt as well.

Hermione was getting sick and tired of walking around the castle on her own so she decided to venture outside. The rain had stopped by now so she wouldn't get wet. Half an hour later she found herself standing by the lake throwing in stones and watching as they were sucked under by the giant squid. She needed to talk to someone. She was sick of keeping this to herself. She needed to tell someone how she really felt. She needed to tell someone that she wanted to go home. She was sick of lying to her friends about who she was and what she knew. She hated keeping it from them. She wanted to go home and stop all the lies and cheating.

Sirius wandered around the school grounds with nothing to do but think. He thought about Amaya mainly, and the argument they had last night. He must have really hurt her, he was harsh and he knew it. He sighed and turned the corner. Then he saw her. Her back was to him and she was throwing stones into the lake. He thought about approaching her and talking to her. Was the a good idea? Yes. He took a deep breath and walked slowly over to her, but stopped and jumped behind a tree when he saw Dumbledore approach.

'Hello Professor.'

'Miss Gra - Williams. If you don't mind me asking why are you out here in the cold?'

'I don't really know sir, I can't fell it.'

'I suggest you get inside Miss Williams before it starts to rain again.'

'Yes sir, Sir?'

'Yes Miss Williams'

'Can I ask you a question Sir?'

'Of course, I'll try my best to answer.'

'When can I go home?'

Sirius who had been listening was shocked by this question. He knew immediately that he had drove her to this and he also knew that he didn't want to loose her. Not after falling for her. He leaned in closer to hear from behind the tree.

'Go home? I thought you were enjoying your stay here?'

'I am, I was. I don't know. I just find myself arguing with the people I care about. I hate lying and pretending to them. It's hard to face them knowing what I know professor.'

'Miss Williams, I understand that it must be hard for you coming from the future and meeting people you know and or are associated with. I am aware you are developing certain relationships with people as well and that can't be easy. I think that the best way to make you feel better is perhaps tell me what's on your mind. Now before you do, I will tell you that I will obliviate my mind after this conversation encase we talk about the future, is that ok?'

'Yes sir thank you.'

'Ok, tell me what's on your mind?'

'Is it wrong to like someone who is 20 years older than you? That they also happen to be the godfather of your best friend. Is it right to keep from telling someone that one of their best friends will betray them and it will result in sending them to Azkaban for 13 years for murderers of their other best friends that they didn't commit. Is it wrong not to tell him that I watched him die at the hands of his cousin? Am I a bad person for not telling people close to me that in a few years they will die and leave a child to be raised by Muggles? I know so much that could help and rid Voldermort for good, but I can't say anything. It's driving me insane!'

'Miss Williams that is a lot to take in. Lets take this one bit at a time. I take it you are talking about the marauders?'

Sirius's heart was racing, he shouldn't listen to this, it was his future, James, all of them. But he had a right to know doesn't he?

'Yes Professor.'

'Ok, Young Mr Sirius Black is obviously the lucky man?'

Hermione blushed and nodded.

'Ok perhaps it's best if you tell me again but with names? Then perhaps I can understand a bit better.'

'Ok, well I'll start from the nearest thing. Lily and James will have a son in a few years, my best friend. Voldermort will try and destroy the Potters as well as the son. No body really knows why. He kills Lily and James but can't actually kill Harry. That's when he will disappear. For a good 10 years. Next I suppose is that James will make Peter his secret keeper, Sirius was it before because he's Harry's godfather but convinces him Peter is a better option. But Peter sells them to Voldermort. That's how he knows where they are. Sirius goes after Peter but he is framed for the murder of Lily and James and is sent to Azkaban for 13 years while Peter escapes. Sirius eventually gets out for revenge but has to go into hiding. Then he'll go and try and save Harry from the department of Mysteries where Bellatrix kills him.'

Sirius was shocked beyond belief. She knew all of this and kept it from them. He could understand why she kept it from them, it's not like you exactly want to know when you're going to die is it. He couldn't believe what he was taking in.

Hermione had tears in her eyes. She had finally told someone.

Dumbledore was his usual cool, calm and composed self.

'Miss Williams I am indeed disturbed to hear such things. Now that you have told me I'm not sure what will happen. I will of course erase my mind. My advice to you Miss Williams is follow your heart. We were all put on this planet for a reason and perhaps doing something in this time to change the our come of the future is what you must do. Do what feels right and let nature take it's course. You can face the consequences when and if they arrive. Do what feels right.'

With that Dumbledore turned away and walked back up to the castle. Do what feels right. doing something in this time to change the outcome of the future is what you must do. These words echoed in her mind. Perhaps he was right. Perhaps maybe letting something slip would be a good thing. Perhaps telling Dumbledore that had changed the future already. She sighed and threw the last stone into the lake and followed Dumbledore up to the school for lunch.

Sirius still couldn't comprehend what he just heard. He should obliviate his mind, he knew he should, but something was keeping him from doing so. What though.

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