Chapter11: Dreams can come true

3 days. 3 very long painful days for the 16 year old Sirius Black. He watched as Hermione passed out in his arms, as his professors worked on her body behind closed curtains, as he stared at her lifeless body hour after hour. He was assured by Dumbledore that she was going to be fine, but, there was something that made him stay by her bedside day after day, night after night, something that wouldn't let go.

Now, as he watched her laugh with Lily, he wondered if anything was going to be the same again, now that he knew.

It seemed like forever since he had told her. It seemed like that. Every time they would say something to one another there was this tension in the air. He couldn't blame her for that, it was his fault. The night she woke up was still clear in his mind,

She woke up in the middle of the night, whimpering. He stayed with her day and night so was there when she woke. She asked what happened and he wasn't sure how to respond. Dumbledore had put it down to the time travelling, so that's what he said. He had hoped that she had forgotten that he needed to speak to her the day she collapsed. No such luck. With in minutes of waking she asked him what was wrong. Sirius couldn't lie to her. So he told her. He told her everything. From how he felt, to what he overheard. He remembered her expression as he confessed, it was a cross between shock, confusion and relief. They didn't discuss it further than that. They just left it out in the open.

Just like Sirius, Hermione remembers what he said to her, that night when she woke up.

She never expected him to turn around and tell her that he heard everything. What was she to do now? This was surly going to mess up the time line. He knew his future, he knew about Peter. There was no way she could deal with his questions that night, she just left everything out in the open. When she woke up that night, when she saw Sirius's face, she was relieved. Relieved to see Sirius's instead of somebody, to her he was her protector. She wasn't sure why she felt like that, she just did. Many times she tried to ignore the growing feelings between them, but they always seem to come back.

So now it was three days later, still, out in the open, and he was annoyed. He wanted to talk to her about it but never had the chance. There was always somebody around. He had to talk to her about it, it was all he thought about.

Now, it was a late in the afternoon of a Saturday and they were taking her back to Griffindor Tower. Sirius couldn't help but fuss over her.

'For the tenth time, I'm fine Sirius!'

'I'm just checking!'

'Come on leave the poor girl alone Padfoot, she doesn't need you fussing over her.'

'Thank you Remus.'

'So I think we should nick some food from the kitchens and have a feast in the dorm, what you ladies think?'

Lily and Nicole looked at Hermione, leaving the decision up to her. They didn't want to make her do anything she didn't want to. Hermione looked up at them and saw them pleading with their eyes. Spend the night in the boys dorm with them. Why not? She could always leave when she wanted to. And this way Sirius couldn't get her on her own and question her.

'Sure. Sounds like fun.'

The girls faces lit up. They jumped up and hugged the life out of her.

The girls made their way back to the tower still with smiles on their faces, whilst the guys went to the kitchens.

Sirius was in his own world. He didn't engage in conversation between his two best friends. Which was very unusual, Sirius was usually the life and soul and now he was mopping around like a lost puppy. (a.n I'm sorry, my friend told me to put it in.) He just stared at the floor. His behaviour didn't go unnoticed, Remus nudged James in the ribs and pointed out Sirius. He shrugged his shoulders.

'Hey Padfoot, you've been awfully quite.'

'O what. O it's nothing.'

'You sure man?'

'Yeah fine.'

'Is it Amaya?'

'Mmmm.'

'I thought you were happy she was out?'

'I am, just, I don't know, can't stop wondering if she's ok.'

James and Remus glanced knowingly at each other, they had never seen him like this, even if he didn't admit it to them, even if they didn't know himself, they knew.

In the girls dorm, Lily and Nicole where giggling and gathering some bits together. Hermione sat at the end of her bed. Deep in thought.

'You sure we won't get caught?'

'Of course Lily! You and Remus are prefects!'

'Yeah your right. Hey Amaya, you quiet, anything wrong?'

'No I'm fine.'

Just like James and Remus, the two girls glanced at each other. Even though she hadn't been here that long, they knew her well enough to know she had more than just feelings for Sirius. Even if she didn't know it.

'Ok, some on lets go find them.'

A few hours later and a dozen bottles of butterbeer, the six of them sat in the boys dorm chatting about past pranks.

'And then he had to go up to McGonagal and kiss her cheek with bright pink hair!'

The room exploded with laughter.

'That wasn't funny Moony.'

'O lighten up Prongs.'

'Hey guys I don't mean to be a spoil sport but I think I'm going to head to bed.'

'Ok Amaya, we'll see you in the morning yeah?'

'Yeah sure.'

Hermione got up from her place on the floor and walked out of the door. Sirius followed her with his eyes, battling with the thoughts in his mind.

Go after her! This is your chance to talk!

What if she don't want to?

You won't know unless you try!

Sirius got up and left the dorm, ignoring the calls after him. He spotted Hermione half way down the stair case.

'Amaya!'

'Hey Sirius, anything wrong?'

'No, I just wanted to speak with you.'

Her stomach did something strange. It dropped but at the same time it fluttered. She blushed, how does he do this to me?

'O, Erm ok.'

Come on Hermione you knew this was going to happen sooner or later, might as well be now.

He lead her over to the couches in the common room. The sat next to each other, but Sirius couldn't bring himself to speak.

'Sirius? What did you want to talk about?'

You could hear the nervousness in her voice. He took a deep breath and looked at her.

'Amaya, you know what I heard by the lake, and I want to talk to you about it.'

She nodded for him to continue.

'I can't say I wasn't surprised but there isn't much I can do about it is there? I wanted to tell you that you shouldn't worry about it, the consequences I mean. Someone once told me to cross complicated bridges when I came to them, so that's what I'm going to do and that's what you should do too.'

'Sirius, do you realise what I've done? I've messed up time by letting you hear that! I have no idea what I'll be going back to.'

Her eyes shone with tears of fear, confusion and worry.

'Amaya, If what's meant to happen happens, then it was meant to be. But how do you know that you coming back here wasn't meant to change time? For the better?'

'I-I-I don't.'

She looked down at her hands, confused more than ever.

'Everything happens for a reason ok? And you can't help that. Over the last few days I've been thinking over what I heard from you. And I've actually learnt something. To seize what you have.'

She looked up at him, He's right. I don't know that this wasn't meant to happen.

'I can't believe I'm going to say this but your right.'

'I know.'

No other words were said. It didn't need to be said. Sirius leaned down and kissed her. It wasn't forceful or vigorous. It wasn't harsh or ruthless. It was soft and gentle. It was breathtaking.

Hermione didn't know what to do. Kiss him back? Push him off? She closed her eyes and leaned into it. Go with it. Seize what you have. His words repeated themselves in her head.

Sirius felt her lean in. A wave of relief spread over him. He sucked on her bottom lip and pushed his tongue into her mouth.

She didn't fight it. She didn't push him off. She went with it. She wrapped her arms around his neck and twisted her tongue in time with his. She felt his hand sneak to the nap of her neck and tangle itself into her hair. Hermione couldn't believe what she was doing, so long she battled with herself against this and now her just let her instinct take over.

Sirius ran his hand up her thigh and let it rest on her waist, he started to push her back when they heard a lot of commotion. They pulled apart and their heads shot to the stair case where Lily, James, Remus and Nicole stood clapping.

'About time!'

'Get in their Padfoot!'

'Took long enough!'

'Get a room!'

They looked at each other and burst out laughing. They through pillows at the idiots by the stairs, telling them to go away. Once they had left Hermione felt embarrassed. Sirius saw how uncomfortable she looked, he lifted her chin and got her to face him.

'What is it?'

'Nothing, just, just don't hurt me ok?'

'I wouldn't even dream of it.'

He smiled down at her, caught her in a hungry kiss and tickled her waist. She giggled and gave in to what she denied herself for so long.

dark raven

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