A/N. Well… here I go again, ill get around to finishing the other fics of, but Im in a different frame of mind at the mo so I just cant right now. Hope you like this one.

Disclaimer: I don't own it goes away to cry

Chapter 2:

By the time the meeting was over she was tired, tired of acting like she cared, half of her was happy she was head girl, but then the other half despised the way people looked at her. They looked at her with all this expectation this willing her to succeed. She couldn't be who she wanted to be because they were stopping her, holding her back, pushing her in to hole she didn't want to be in. She felt like screaming out she needed to get out of there, and now. She stood up and excused herself from the compartment. She felt so trapped, she was in the hallway of the train but she just needed to get out of there and she couldn't leave. It was like being back at home, she constantly felt trapped and alone as if time moved slower in some places and her mind raced.

She went back to her compartment and put her music on, Malfoy entered behind her. He sat there watching her, she had her eyes closed and had no idea he was closely observing her every move. He watched as she breathed in, she had a look on her face that made it seem as if every time she did it hurt her to do so. He watched the gentle rise and fall of her chest as she released the air from her lungs. He watched and took her gentle movements in. He looked at her creamy skin, the way her eyelashes were fanned out on her cheeks, the way her lips were gently closed until she licked them softy, causing his mouth to open. He realised she was asleep when her arm fell sideways and hung gently down, he moved across to put it back gently moving her to one side of the bench, but as he tried to move her she moved in to him. He sat on the bench and she snuggled in to him. He hadn't really even figured out why he wanted to touch her, to hold her but he did. So he gently moved her frame to make her more comfortable and allowed her to wrap an arm around him and hold on to him. She stirred once or twice and breathed heavily before returning to her peaceful slumber.

He was so confused, she looked so different. He had watched her in the meeting, she was different, feigning interest rather than actually being interested, the teachers may not notice but he did. He looked at how she was dressed. In black, with a dark green shirt on that stuck to her like a second skin. Open of course to show her assets nicely but not too much, which he of course had to admire while she was sleeping. 'This would probably freak her out if she woke up' he thought to himself, he knew shed changed last year and some of his friends had told him she was a laugh and one hell of a drinker, but could she really be that different? Would she really be his friend? He bloody well hoped so, he couldn't do another year at her throat all the time it was too much, they'd be living together this year and it was too much to be attacking her all the time.

The bell sounded and she woke with a start, he held her so she didn't fall off the bench and she turned to him, for a second she looked puzzled. Then she just said

"Sorry"

Her head falling to the floor, whether it was embarrassment or fear he didn't no, but he didn't like either. He simply looked at her, pulling her chin up so she looked at him n said,

"No problem, listen I was thinking… what with this year being our last and us having to work so closely I was thinking what would you say to calling a truce? No jokes, honestly I hear you're quite the party girl nowadays n I think we should put the past behind us… what do you say?"

"Ok, fine, im tired of all that too"

She looked at him and smiled, but the smile was dejected, defeated and he knew it. Something had happened, she didn't believe he wanted to be friends but she wasn't going to argue. He just pulled her up and gave her a hug, realising what he had done he let her go and looked uncomfortable, it was that look in her eye, it had made him need to repair something, fix her.

She looked at him and immediately said:

"I don't need your pity, I don't know what s going on with you but im not in a place where I need you to mess me around so im asking you just leave me alone and ill leave you."

With that she left. He left after her and got in to one of the carriages, leaving alone before anyone else could jump in. He thought to himself all the way up to school. He was so confused, seeing her, he'd always thought that she was beautiful but when he saw her, her brown curls had become a deep chocolate colour, they were perfectly falling down her back, gently framing her face, with those beautiful big eyes, eyes that made him think she was looking deep in to his soul as if there were nothing to block there penetrating stare. She had filled out in all the right places as well, as that shirt and those tight trousers proved. He closed his eyes but things got no better. Suddenly she was opening that shirt, her trousers were being slid of those hips by his own hands and she was climbing on top of him, he was sliding in to her and she was riding him hard, those curls bouncing on her breasts as he grabbed them and played with them, her moaning 'Draco… oh…'

"Draco…" this time the voice was more urgent

"Malfoy... Get your ass of the floor, what the hell are you doing?"

It was her, but she was fully clothed now and less willing to ride him he guessed. He smirked to himself, now that was a pleasing dream. The only problem being he now had a problem to take care of, thanking Merlin for robes he pulled them around him and got up, when he felon the floor he couldn't remember but oh well.

"What is it? I thought you were avoiding me?"

"Malfoy, we still have duties, and the Head girl n Boy are supposed to eat at the staff table tonight so we have to walk in and sit together, all the first years are ready to go in and you're lying on the floor, what's up with you?"

"Nothing, keep your knickers on I fell asleep ok?" Oh but how much he'd love it if those knickers were to come off again. 'Contain yourself man you already have a boner here' he reprimanded himself as he walked to the great hall watching her move her ass in front of him. When they got to the doors she threw her school robe on. 'Damn' he thought to himself.

As they walked in the hall fell silent, they went to their seats and he pulled her chair out for her, she smiled and sat. Dumbledore rambled on and then said "tuck in" and the food appeared, she barley touched anything he noticed eating only a little of what little she put on her plate. When they were shown to their dorms she looked mildly happy, not like the old Granger, who would have been elated, she simply looked like it didn't faze her, and it didn't matter, anymore. He wondered to himself… 'What had changed, why didn't anything matter?'

When she went to her room she looked at her things, they were neatly arranged so she lay on her bed. Waiting for nothing, normally she would have received a letter saying settle in have a good year and we love you… from her parents, but she didn't, because they didn't… not anymore. She put some baggy trousers and a hoodie on to make herself more comfy.

She got up and went to the little kitchen they had just off the common room. She made herself a hot chocolate and sat on the cold counter top, cross-legged and stared at the same place on the floor. Malfoy came in about 9ish wearing his boxers and holding a book. He looked at her, she had tear stains on her face and she was holding a mug, it was half full but looked cold, it had half separated. She looked like she was in a trace, completely gone. He walked over to her and took the mug; she stirred at his movement and his contact.

"What, what is it Malfoy... I was drinking that."

"This Granger, is stone cold, ill make you a fresh one. How long have you been in here? And here..." he handed her a soft tissue from the side "…come on, you look tired come with me, I think we should talk."

She wiped her face and followed his instructions; sliding gently off the side and stumbling in the process, having jelly legs from sitting in the same position for do long. He caught her easily and led her to the sofa in the common room. He left her there while he went to make her hot chocolate, returning in a few moments. He sat beside her and said:

"Listen I want you to call me Draco, were living together now and I meant it before when I said I wanted to be friends so please use my first name ok?"

"Ok, call me Hermione then if you like, or you can just call me Herms, whatever." She said looking at him quickly then looking away.

"Whats wrong? Why are you upset and alone? I know we've been friends all of an hour, but I don't want you to be upset and alone, if you don't want to tell me I understand but you shouldn't be alone." He finished by gently moving her chin to look at him.

"Ok" She said, not arguing with anything he said.

"Hermione, please just say something, it's like your not even you anymore, whats happened? And before you ask, I do care I have cared for while and I just want t get to know you, but this isn't you so be who you are, im not saying you have to be in to your work like you were 1st and 2nd year, or be the party animal like you were 5th and 6th year but be yourself with me ok?"

She looked up herself this time, her eyes brimming with tears and a shadow of a smile on her face; she looked in to his eyes and threw her arms around him. He held her like that for a long time, she cried and he held her and just gently stroked her back, until she fell asleep. Since she had password protected her door he couldn't lay her on her own bed and he couldn't leave her to freeze in the common room when the fire was dying anyway so he gently picked her up and carried her to his room, placing her on his bed and slipping her hoodie off to reveal a vest to, and her arms, which were covered with scars. He closed his eyes, and wondered 'what has she been through to make her do this?' he slipped her under the covers and brought her to him, she snuggled to him like she did on the train. He closed his eyes and tried to get himself to sleep hoping having her next to him want going to cause a 'problem'.

A/N. Well… hope you liked... please review!