I have these chapters already written, it just depends on how many reviews I get before I decide to put them up. Yes, I am evil, but if it gets reviews, it gets me reviews.
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CHAPTER SIX
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I blushed brightly as Van pushed me up against the wall and looked at me. "Van…" I breathed.
"Hitomi, I love you, you know that right?" Van asked me in what sounded like a pleading voice.
"Yes Van, but…" I protested and he kissed me. Gods I didn't want to do this until I was married but I couldn't help myself. Why was it that hormone's could easily take over a person's sense of control. "We need to stop." I said as I realized that my hands where going up his shirt, ready to take it off at any moment. "I'm sorry Van, I love you, and I know that you love me, but I want to wait until we're married to do this." I begged and managed to hold my body back from doing the opposite to what I was saying. He sighed and just held me and rested his head against me. "I'm sorry Hitomi." Van apologized. "I've just been waiting so long to be with you."
"I'm sorry Van, I know how you feel and you know how I feel. I.. I just want to wait until the right moment." I said.
"When we're married you mean." Van corrected me and I sighed. "Yes, when we're married." I agreed. "I'm sorry." I apologized.
"You have nothing to apologize for; it is I who is at fault." Van said. "I should have been able to hold myself from wanting to do that." My knees suddenly buckled from underneath me, and had it not been for Van's quick reflexes I would have been on the floor. "What's wrong?" Van asked quickly and worried.
"I don't know…" I answered truthfully. "My legs just seemed to give away." He placed his hand to my forehead. "You're not running fervor, should I have a healer look at you?" He asked worriedly.
"No, I'll be fine; I just don't know why it happened that's all." I said and hoped that I would be fine. Before I could protest Van picked me up and put me on to my bed. "Van…"
"If you can't stand, I want you to sit for a while until you are able to stand again." Van answered and I shook my head and sighed. "You worry too much." I said as he sat next to me and I rested my head against his chest as he sat next to me. "You're warm…" I said blushing. "Can you sleep with me again tonight Van? I want to make up to you for not wanting to do that yet." I said.
"You don't have to make up for that, it is I who have to make it up to you, Hitomi Kanzaki." Van said sweetly. "Yes, of course." He said almost forgetting about her sudden collapse earlier. He climbed in to bed next to me and I fell asleep.
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Van woke up late that night hearing the sounds of troubled breathing and painful cries for help. He soon realized that it came from Hitomi. "Hitomi…" Van whispered to his future wife as he shook her gently to wake her. "Wake up…" He stooped instantly and had the dreadful feeling that something was wrong. "Hitomi!" He said again louder and could feel that her cloths where drenched in sweat. It wasn't too hot of a day and it was quite cool actually. She shouldn't have been bothered by the blanket so he brought his hand once again to her forehead and felt that it was very hot. Van's heart beat fast as he felt how hot her temperature was. "Hitomi…" Van said before he quickly jumped out of bed and ran out of the room not caring who saw him run out of her room. 'Healer…' He thought as his heart beat fast. 'I must get a healer!'
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It was painful to breathe and she couldn't tell why, she felt someone touching her, not in any perverted way, but she could feel their cool fingers against her forehead. "Van!" She tried to call out but could not make a sound. Why was it so hot? She hoped that the palace wasn't on fire again, no that wasn't possible, she could tell that she was still in her room and on her bed.
"Hitomi!" She could hear Van's worried voice call out to her as she laid there unmoving and mute. "VAN!" She tried to call out but words where useless when you couldn't speak.
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"It is lucky that I know which poison it is." The healer said to Van who stood eagerly next to Hitomi's side. "Do whatever it is that you need to do to get her better." Van ordered.
"She'll still be in some pain after this and will be very weak. Right now she is unable to speak and move, and I'm not sure if her voice will come back after I give the antidote." The healer said.
"Just do it before it spreads through out her even more." Van ordered.
"Yes your highness, but it will take some time to prepare."
"How long?"
"No more then an hour, two at the most."
"How long does she have?" Van asked with a highly worried tone.
"Until sunrise the most." The healer answered. "I must go and quickly make the antidote; I have the things I need in my office."
"Go quickly then. Your office is not too far from the palace, I'll have one of my fastest horses to take you." Van said.
"Yes, thank you. I will be back before sunrise."
"GO!" Van ordered loudly and the healer ran out. Van moved back to the bed and sat next to Hitomi and dipped the dried cloth back in to the bowl of water and made it damp before replacing it on her forehead. "Come back to me, Hitomi." He pleaded and sat by her side and held her hand. He didn't know what more he could do, his heart raced as panic swept through his entire body.
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The hour felt as if it had passed by slowly and Merle had somehow heard of Hitomi's poison and came to sit with him in her room. "She'll be alright Van-Sama!" Merle tried to reassure Van who looked like crap at this point. "The healer should be back soon." Merle said in a calm manner.
"I hope that you're right Merle." Van said and Merle looked at him and notice that tears where now coming down his face. "The healer said that it would take her two hours at the most to get the antidote made and that Hitomi would be weak even after she took it and possibly mute!" Van said and felt comforting hands of his adopted younger sister holding him.
"She'll be alright Van-Sama, Hitomi has gotten through things worse then this before." Merle said as she tried to comfort the man she loved. "She'll be alright, she has to be."
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Hitomi looked around her as she felt herself drift away. "Is this heaven?" She thought as she looked at the serene place around her.
"No." A familiar voice said. "This is the world between the living and the dead." Her grandmother's voice told her and then moments later Hitomi saw her grandmother appear.
"Grandma…" Hitomi said somewhat shocked. "Am I dieing?" She asked.
"Yes." Her grandma replied. "I have come to send you back however; it is not yet your time."
"How, I wasn't seriously wounded or anything." I protested.
"You where poisoned." Hitomi's grandmother replied. "If the antidote is not given to you before sunrise you will truly die."
"Poisoned… that would explain a lot to why dinner tasted weird." I said trying to make things humorous. "Van, gods, Van will be sad." I said and then fell to my knees. "I don't want to make Van sad."
"Then fight." Grandmother said. "Fight to live for the man you love."
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The healer came back an hour later and rushed in to the room. "She needs to take this, your highness." The healer said quickly and ordered Van and Merle to the side. She lifted Hitomi's head up and forced open the lips and put her head down when it was done.
"At least she was able to drink enough." The healer said sighing. "She might have done it subconscious but it was done."
"So she'll be alright now right?" Merle asked.
"That all depends on her." The healer replied. "I have done all I can."
Van said nothing; he just sat at Hitomi's side and held her hand.
"Remember, she will be weak and may still be mute. This poison leaves the victim with a high fervor, paralyzed, and mute. They also have a hard time to breath and can feel pain for no reason. That antidote took all of that away. The fever will take a while to get back to normal and that other thing…" She started to say.
"Hitomi…" Van said as he watched Hitomi open her eyes and look up at him.
"Van…" She tried to say but no words came out. She felt Van put his head on her and could feel wet tears soak her blouse. She somehow managed to bring her tired arms up to hold him. 'Why doesn't my voice come out?' She looked around worried. 'Why?'
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She later found out that she had lost her voice which was a slight cost since she almost lost her life. She was forced to stay in bed for the day even though she felt better. Van was pissed that someone had tried to kill her and was still on the loose. She hated it when Van visited her since things where so strange. She could tell that he was smiling, it wasn't a real smile, knowing that it was fake. She rested her head against Van's chest. Van just looked down at her and held her. She wanted to speak with him, she liked being able to speak to him and he wouldn't tell her what was going on. She was stuck here, in this room, as a prisoner. Guards where posted out of her door and Van locked his room when he left so she couldn't get out that way. "Van…" She wanted to say. "I'm sorry." Van had to leave and she was alone again. Merle came to visit her and brought her some flowers.
"Thanks." I wrote down on a piece of paper to which I managed to get my hands on from someplace.
"Well that's better then the way that we've been communicating." Merle said and I glared.
"What the hell is that suppose to mean?" I wrote. "Anyway, how's Van taking all of this? Has he talked to you about it?" I asked.
"I'm surprised that you're even strong enough to write." Merle said sighing. "Van-Sama's not doing too well. He acts strong on the outside but on the inside, I know he's upset at himself for not protecting you better." Merle replied with a sigh. "Sorry but I had to tell him about the fight that you and Celena had at the ball." Merle apologized.
"WHAT?" I wrote down angrily. "Now he's going to blame Celena, it might not have been her!"
"Van's asking the cooks who have been in the kitchen that night, they said that Celena hasn't been in there at all." Merle said. "Actually Allen and Celena left the very next morning after the ball since Allen had to get back to Asturia."
I sighed. All of this trouble for Van, just because of me, maybe I shouldn't have come back, then it would have been better for everyone. The door knocked at that moment and I looked up. "Go ahead and say who is it Merle, please, you know I can't speak." I wrote.
"Yes?" Merle asked.
"It's Sakura. I brought the first dress for Lady Hitomi." Sakura said. "The guards are giving me a hard time."
Merle sighed and walked to the door and opened it. "It's alright." Merle said and motioned for Sakura to come in.
"But!" One of the guards started to protest.
"No buts," Merle snapped. "Unless if you rather have Lady Hitomi go around naked."
I chunked something at Merle and watched as it missed. "DAMN IT!" I shouted in the back of my mind. Merle closed the door and walked back over. Sakura showed me a red dress, which was the first material that I and Merle had picked out and I gaped at it. "It's beautiful!" I wrote down. It was a thin red strap with thin black stripes going up and down the center.
"Try it on." Sakura suggested. "I also brought you a change of underclothing." She said and noted to the bag. "I figured that you would most likely need a change by now."
"Van-Sama doesn't want Lady Hitomi getting up too much." Merle protested. "He'll have my neck!"
"I'll be fine if I stand for only a few minutes." I protested. "I'm not that weak!" I didn't have my full strength but my strength allowed me to stand for minutes at a time. Enough to get to the bathroom, I'd sit on the toilet seat and would change that way.
"Fine." Merle gave in. Merle reluctantly helped me to the bathroom and Sakura carried the bag with my under cloths and the dress and put them inside after Merle helped me inside. I sat down instantly once they shut the door and undressed. It was nice to get a change of underwear and the bra, there was none. I sighed again as I then reached for the dress and managed to pull it on sitting down.
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"Where's Hitomi?" Van asked Merle as he entered having had come on his short break to check up on her.
"She had to use the bathroom." Merle answered which wasn't a complete lie. She just didn't want to tell Van-Sama yet so this could be a surprise to him. She hated to admit it, but she knew that Van liked, loved Hitomi and that she would never compare with the love that Van had for Hitomi. She could just silently stand by and watch as her love was swept away in someone else's arms. She would gladly give it up though, the idea of being Van-Sama's wife. She would have a hard time getting over these feelings since it felt like every part of her was dieing, however, she knew that she would live, and she would have to be there for Van-Sama when he needed her.
"Sakura, what are you doing here?" Van asked not meaning to be as rude as he sounded.
"You'll see your highness." Sakura said and a few minutes later Hitomi came out, walking slowly of course and stopped once she saw Van who stared at her.
"You look…" Van started to say but was interrupted by Hitomi falling. Van caught her before she fell to the floor. "Hitomi!"
I just looked at him blushing brightly as he carried me back to the bed and sat me down. "Sorry Van." I wrote and handed to him and he brushed my cheek. "Just don't push yourself too hard yet." He replied and forgot that Merle and Sakura where in the room and kissed me. When he broke the kiss he blushed and turned to Sakura. "Thanks Sakura, its…" He started to say.
"For her, yes I know your highness. I was paid to do this type of thing. I am considered the best out of many." Sakura said. "Excuse me, Merle can see me to the door."
My eyes shamefully looked at the floor as his gaze meant mine once we where alone. I wanted him to know how sorry I was for being such a pain in the ass. If he had chosen another would he have the same problem?
"Hitomi…" Van said wanting to know what was wrong.
I realized that I couldn't have him. I wanted him to be happy, and that happiness wouldn't be found if he stayed with me. I pushed him away as he touched my shoulder. I stood up and put some distance between us only to clumsily fall to the floor. "DAMN!" I tried to shout but only noise came out. Why, why me? Why does everything terrible have to happen to me? Tears started to fall from my eyes and I felt Van's comforting arms around me moments later. I could feel that he was hesitant since I had just pushed him away moments before. Why did he love me? Why? I had betrayed him many times before and yet he still cared for me, he still loved me. He had waited five long years for me. WHY DID HE STILL FEEL THAT WAY! It was then when I felt him take hold of my hand and press something in to it after he managed to pribe open the tightly closed fingers. I looked at a black box in my hand and I stared at it wondering what it was. I opened it and gasped and looked at Van who just smiled.
"I love you, Hitomi Kanzaki." Van said with out hesitation. "I love you, never forget that." He said and took the ring which was heart shaped and placed it on my finger. "You will be my wife, Hitomi, you already promised me that." He said and I clung to him and cried.