I only want to be excepted
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Chapter 4: Letters and trying to escape
Hermione sat in her room at Grimmauld place exhausted from today's events. It had been one long day for her, all her family shit and then finding Sirius, all she wanted to do was sleep. She had said goodnight to everyone down stairs who were still excited about Sirius and went to her room. She didn't have to share with Ginny anymore because they had finally cleaned the whole house out.
Hermione took a nice long shower and got changed into some fresh nightclothes. Now sitting there in the darkened room she heard a light tapping at her window, it was about 1 o'clock in the morning who was owling her now? She got up and strolled over to her window and opened it, in flew two owls, her owls Oaky and Olly. She made sure she had two owls when she was at home so she could keep in contact with Harry and Ron. But she had left them there. She went over to Oaky and untied the letter from her leg. She gave a little hoot and went to sit on her bed. Hermione opened the letter.
Mi,
I can't believe you've finally gone, I'm so proud of you. But the others aren't. I can't believe what they are saying about you Mi, your mum and dad don't care that you've gone, I heard them say to Jason it was about time the freak left and that they were going to kick you out. Alex told them what he did to you in the kitchen but they didn't seem to care, they said you had it coming.
Everyone seems glad you've left even Nan. Hermione I'm sorry I wish I were a witch too then I could be with you. Your probably with all your magic friends and not thinking about me at all. It's ok, it doesn't matter, I'm glad your away from the family to be honest.
Jason and Dan are saying the reason you left is because you threw yourself at them offering them sex and pleasure but when they turned you down you contacted your wizard friends and told them they raped you. Mi, I don't believe a word of it because well a little while ago I heard Dan and Jason talking outside. I heard what happened Mi and I'm so so sorry. Dan was boasting about how good you tasted and how he couldn't wait to see you again. They were saying what they were going to do to you and Mi it was horrible. I was in shock and I tried to run away I did Mi, but I knocked over the bin in the kitchen and they heard. The came rushing in and asked me how much I heard, I told them nothing but they didn't believe me.
Hermione was crying she knew what was next and it was her fault.
They backed me against the kitchen table and covered my mouth so I wouldn't scream, but they said if I ever told anyone what they heard they would do to me what they did to you. That's when Dan put his hand up my shirt. I was so scared Mi they kept touching me in places I didn't want them too. They said if I heard from you I was to tell you that if I didn't come back then they would make me their playmate. Mi, please I can't bare that it was too much in the kitchen. Please come home, I miss you. Tell your mum and dad the truth I'm sure they'll understand please Mi, I'm begging you I don't want them to touch me again I can't. Please save me from them I can't bare it. If you come back then you can get a flat so you don't have to live with them and then I can live with you. Please I can't be on my own. Your a witch can't you do something?
Lots of love
Charlie
P.s There must be something you can do.
Hermione was in tears, she couldn't leave her cousin there like that to be raped and beaten by her cousins. She couldn't do that to her. She was about to respond when Olly started to nip her. She forgot about that letter and opened it. Her heart stopped when she saw whom it was from.
My dear little sis,
Why'd you leave like that? I didn't get a chance to say a proper good bye. It wasn't nice to leave like that, me and Dan were really hurt. We told the family what you done. You know, coming on all desperate and willing to us. How could you do something like that, we are your cousins? But I must say now you've gone I miss having you soft firm body around me. But don't worry, when the wizards aren't around, we will come and take you home, where you belong. Don't worry about that 'Mione, you can't hide forever.
O do you know who we found eves dropping earlier? Yeah sweet little innocent Charlie. Not as nice looking as you though but still. Yeah we found her listening on our convosations about how good you were so we deicide to teach her a lesson. Dan said her breasts aren't as big or as firm as yours, he said she didn't smell as sweet either. But he said she was tighter than you, you dirty little whore.
She couldn't believe it, he was accusing her of sleeping around? She lost her virginity to her cousin, she felt so used and dirty.
So we thought because Charlie isn't as nice as you, we'd use her until we get you back. Our playmate. So until you come back o dear sweet 'Mione Charlie can please us. We will find you, and when we do you'll never leave us again. We will beat every ounce of magic out of you don't worry about that. When you haven't got that magic scum around you we will have you.
Our precious 'Mione
Dan and Jason
She dropped the letters and fell to her knees in tears. What was she going to do? If she went back then she would never be back in the magically community again. They would beat her till her life depended on it and she could never do any magic again. They would use her like a rag doll between them. Getting her to please them whenever they pleased and there would be nothing she could do. Her family wouldn't believe her and she had no one to run to. But at least Charlie would be free from that. She couldn't let her baby cousin be subjected to that by them. No way could she. She had to save her. If she didn't go back she would be raped day and night. It's not fair that a 13 year old girl to go through that. Jason and Dan would make sure that she kept her mouth shut as well. It was her fault that Charlie was in this mess in the first place. If she had never left then Charlie would have never eves dropped and Dan and Jason would have never abused her. She had to leave that was final.
She picked up a quill and wrote back to them.
Charlie,
Don't worry they aren't going to hurt you any more. I'm coming home. I won't let them touch you again. I'm so sorry I left in the first place because this would have never happened. I'm sorry. I'll be home as soon as I can.
Love you
Hermione.
Jason and Dan
Don't you dare touch her again. She's 13 years old. You don't have to worry about finding me. I'm coming back. I can't let you do that to the one other decent person in this family. I don't care what you do to me, I can take it but you leave her alone. She has nothing to do with this. I can assure you that I will not be found by any magical person either.
Hermione
She sent the letters back with her owls.
Hermione looked at her clock it read 3.30am. If she was to go she had to go now, everybody was in bed and nobody would wake up this early. It was now or never. She looked outside her door and made sure there was no lights or noise coming from down stairs. There wasn't.
She garbbed a piece of parchment and scribbed a note to the rest of the house. They would find it in the morning.
Im sorryI had to go, they'd do it to charlie ifI didn't. if you already haven't fill the rest in about what happened. I'm so sorry. there was no other way. Don't come and find me. It would be worse if you did.
Hermione.
She hadn't unpacked yet so all of her things were still in her trunk. She made it feather light and shrank it so it was in her pocket. She slowly opened the door with the two letters she got and her note. She was going to leave the letters so they would know what she meant.
She looked down the corridor to make sure no one was having a midnight wondering. It was clear, she stepped out and closed the door behind her. She gave the corridor one final look and made her way over to the stairs. She stairs tend to squeak so she took then one at a time, creeping down so they didn't make any noise. She got to the last few and stepped on it. It made a large creek and her heart stopped. Shit did someone hear? She stood there for a few seconds to see if anyone came out there room, nobody did, so she carried one. She got to the bottom and let out a sigh. There was no lights on in the kitchen or the other rooms so she quickly made her way into the kitchen.
She stands in the door way and scans the room. Thankfully nobody was there, they had all gone to bed. She sees the fire place with some ambers still lit and hurried over there. She put the letters on the table and pulled he little bag out of her pocket. She got a handful of floo power and went to through it in. But then she heard a voice and stopped.
'And where do you think you are going?'She spun around to see Dumbledore's eyes twinkling in the dark. He stepped out of the shadows towards her.
'I-I-I have to-to go.'
She couldn't meet his eyes. She looked at the floor instead.
'I hope you don't mean going home? BecauseI can't let you do that. Especially after today.'
'You don't understand ifI don't go back, they'll do it to Charlie,I can't let that happen.'
'Who will do what?'
She handed him the letters. His eyes read them and when he looked up the twinkle had gone. It was replaced by anger and sadness.
'You see, I have no choice.'
'Miss Granger, please sit down. Have a cup of tea with me.'
She reluctantly sat at the table with him and Dumbledore made a tray with a pot of tea appear with cups, sugar and milk. He made her one and sat it in front of her. She muttered a thank you and took a sip.
'Miss Granger, after reading these letters,I hope you can understand that I can't let you leave.'
'Please sir I have to. You read what they'll do to her. I can handle that family I've been doing it for years, please.'
'Miss Granger, how long has this been going on?'
'What do you mean?'
'Your family. Why do you hate them so much, and why do they treat you like this?'
Hermione was considering whether to tell him or not. She decided she had no other choice. she let it spill.
'Since the day I born. I've been the bastard child who split up the family. I have two brothers and sisters. We share the same dad and our mum's are sisters. I've always been the blame for splitting my aunt and him up with there kids. I'm the living proof of their failed family.
'So I've been treated like shit - sorry. My family is screwed up big time. I mean my cousin Amy beats her children Charlie and Gregg on Christmas day a few years ago. Charlie's the one in the letter. She did it because she was drunk. She put Gregg in hospital and Charlie was out cold for a few hours. It's not the first time that's happened either. I've witnessed it many times.
'Jason and Sam my half brother/cousins are regularly in fights with each other, getting each other arrested. I was there last week when John smashed an ashtray over Scot's head. the majority of my family have a criminal record for drugs, rape, bank robbery, GBH - grievous body harm - ABH - actual bodily harm.
They've done tax fraud, have illegal credit cards. You name it they've done it. And I'm the only one that hasn't. I'm the only one that hasn't done drugs or committed a crime and I'm penalised for it. I'm the only one that uses my brain as well. It doesn't help being a witch either. That's just another thing they can throw at me. Being a freak and not part of this family because I can do magic. They hate anything new. I've never been excepted in the family. My dad treats me like shit. I don't exist to him, unless he wants me to pose like the good little girl in front of his friends. And I have to do it or he'll hit me. He's only hit me the once but I learned from that.'
She stopped to get her breath. She couldn't meet the headmasters eye, she just looked at her hands and let the tears flow.
'Every summer's the same. I'm ignored most of the time. I hear the constant news about what my family's done now. And usually before the summers out we have a big family BBQ. Everybody's there. Even my great aunts that live in Wales. But it always ends the same way. My aunts get drunk and my aunt Val rambles on about how I'm a disgrace to this family and I should be ashamed of my self.
'SometimesI get really angry and I make something blow up. Like Harry.Last yearI made the dip bowl brake. But that was a mistake because it made them worse. They were ALL shouting at me. They said so many hurtful things. And usually the day or so before I'm due back at Hogwarts, I'll et a visit from my dad or uncle or cousins, telling me that I'm not welcome to come back. I usually threaten them with magic so they have to. But we were sent letters during 4th year and my dad found it. When I got home he had this smirk on his face and showed me the letter. He shouted so much at me and did hit me. I wanted to run away and never go back. I wasn't excepted in that family and never would be. I just wanted to get away.'
She wiped her eyes, and Dumbledore made a fresh cup of tea.
'Recently it's been getting worse. Charlie confides in me about everything. Her mum is worse so she comes to us most weekends. Jason's worse as well she smokes a lot and is constantly high. O he smokes drugs and it sort of makes them happy-'
'Miss Granger I may be old but I knwo about Muggle drugs. I take it it's cannabis?'
'Yeah, well he's become a lot more violent. And today he took it out on me in the morning anyway. He was arguing with his sister and I came down and told them to be quiet and gave my opinion on a matter. He didn't like that so he slapped me about a bit. Well he must of called my other cousin over Danny, because later on he came up to my room and started touching me. I didn't like it and told him to stop.
It was awful, I never want to feel like that again. That's why earlier I shouted at Harry and Ron for calling me 'Mione. He kept calling me it and it just reminds me of him. So now they've told the family I came on to them, and they believe them. Why shouldn't they? It's not like they are going to believe a witch over the precious boys is it. I'm just so scared for Charlie. I couldn't care less what they do to me, it's her I don't want hurt.'
She brought one of her knees up and hugged it. She still had tears coming down her face and was playing with her cup.
'Before I got my Hogwarts letter things weren't to bad. I could handle it. I wasn't excepted fully, but they still acknowledged me, but then when I got it. That was it. I was the freak, the black sheep, the one that didn't belong.'
She cried into her knees. Hard. Dumbledore moved so he was sitting next to her and rubbed her back.
'I-I- only want to-to-to be accepted. Do something that people will like me for. Go somewhere where people won't sn-sn-sneer at me or call me n-n-names.'
'What about Hogwarts and the Magic world. You're excepted there.'
'No I'm not. I'm a Mudblood. I'm rejected because I'm a Muggle born. I can't get away from it. Everywhere I go, I get abused.'
'Hermione, people that use the word 'Mudblood' are no better than your family. The are scared of anything new and can't except anything new. Just because you are Muggle born doesn't make you any less of a witch. You are a very powerful witch and my top student I've seen in years.'
'Thank you. But it still doesn't solve the fact about Charlie. Please you have to do something. I have to get her out of there.'
Dumbledore could hear the panic in her voice.
'Are they at your house now?'
'Yes.'
'Then myself and some of the Order will pay them a visit tomorrow. We will warn them about hurting you or Charlie, we can cast a spell that will let you know if she's being hurt in any way. Is that ok?'
'O yes sir. thank you so much.'
Hermione leapt from her chair and hugged him. He hugged her back and smiled. Neither of them noticed the figure under the invisible cloak sneak out of the kitchen.
'Miss Granger, you better get to bed.'
'Yes sir, and thank you.'
She smiled at him and left the room, throwing the letters into the fire. She made her way up to her bedroom and fell into a dreamless sleep.
down the hall, the figure under the invisible cloak sat on his bed in shock. He couldn't believe what he had just heard. He had know idea that Hermione went through that every year. He felt so bad about listening, but she had woken him up. He would have to talk to her about it.
A.N ok another chapter down! u no the drill.
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