I only want to be accepted

by DarkRaven-04

All she wants is to be accepted. Her family hate her. at school shes a mudblood. Can she see acceptance in the dark? read and review

6. chapter 6: over heard convos pt 2

I only want to be excepted

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Chapter 6: Over heard conversation pt 2

The room was in silence. Did they just hear correctly? Did she just say she would do it? How did she know what they were talking about anyway? There was one person in the room that was not impressed on the meeting being disrupted like that and that was Mad eye Moody.

'How do you know what we were talking about eh?'

'I was outside.'

'How long you been out there? Eves dropping. Very deceitful that. And rude. How dare you listen in on a meeting? Why are you up so early anyway?'

'I heard enough. I was up early because I heard a bang from down here-'

The whole room turned to Tonks who was slowly slipping down into her chair.

'Tonks! It's your fault she heard us you clumsily twit! Why can't you be more careful? In future watch where you are going!'

'I'm sorry that I interrupted your meeting Mad eye. However I am NOT sorry for eves dropping or waking up because of the bang. It is not Tonks' fault I was awake, I was up already. And if I hadn't heard that bang then I would have never have heard the conversation about the special project and I wouldn't have just said yes to doing it. You would be back to square one and having no information because I'm pretty sure you wouldn't have asked me. And in future I would appreciate it if you would treat those around you with a little more respect. They are all in the same boat as you and hopefully if I will be apart of it as well. I think you owe Tonks an apology.'

Hermione folded her arms across her chest and looked at Moody. The room was in shock. Most of them tried to contain their laughter. Nobody ever stood up to Mad eye. They were scared of him and now they had just seen this 16-year-old girl in her pyjamas tell him off.

It was hilarious.

Even Snape had a smile on his face. This girl was full of spunk and they liked it.

Fred and George however were thinking that even in her pj's she still looks hot. The Weasley twins and Lee Jordan didn't even prank Moody and they pranked everyone! They just wouldn't go anywhere near him.

Dumbledore was looking at Hermione with admiration. This was his top student and he had to admire her boldness and bravery. Sirius and Lupin sat open-mouthed staring at her. They always knew Hermione had a mouth on her but had never seen it in action. They were so proud of her. She had put the Marauders to shame with the sneakiness, not even Mad eye had detected her. She had them told one of the scariest people to apologize to Tonks. And she was willing to risk her life for the light side. She wanted to be the insider and they hadn't even asked her yet. She was so brave and willing to risk everything for them. There was nothing she could do or say now that would discourage that. S

irius cleared his throat.

'I believe Moody that you still owe Tonks an apology.'

'Yes I'm sorry Tonks.' he mummbled

'I'm sorry I couldn't quite hear that.'

'Sirius you heard me perfectly well.'

'But I didn't.'

'Yes well Miss Granger. Ok I'm sorry. Happy?'

'Yes.'Hermione looked around the room with a big grin on her face.

'I think I speak for everyone here when I say well-done Hermione! You stood up to Moody and that is saying something! And I want to say how proud of you I am for coming in here in the middle of a meeting. It must have taken some courage to say outside and listen, AND you were undetected by Moody. Very well done.'

'Yes you defiantly put us Marauders to shame. And I just want to add you are a true Gryffindor by coming in here and telling us that you'll do it. It shows to bravery to risk your life for everyone and loyalty to the light side. Even if the overall decision is no, you showed that you were willing to take Voldermort on and help the light side become victorious.'

'I don't believe this! How can you stand there and congratulate her on signing her life away at such a young age? She's not even of age and you are telling her she can do this? It's ridiculous. She can't do this, especially the way you want her to. She's 16! A child! Absolutely not. You cannot possible let her do this! She's so inexperienced in such matters!'

'O Molly, she's 16 and she is nearly of age! She wants to do this. She's a smart girl she knows what she's getting herself into and even if she doesn't we will tell her everything if she is absolutely sure she wants to.'

'I thought you were a smart man Remus! I can't believe you are going along with this! She's a baby!'

Hermione was getting annoyed at them talking about her as if she wasn't there. She was standing there in the room with them.

'Molly she's not a baby! Come on she's 16! And a very attractive young girl! Times have changed since you were 16 Molly and I doubt she is inexperienced.'

Hermione flushed a deep red. It was true, she wasn't inexperienced. She went out with Krum in the fourth year and he was 18, they didn't just kiss and hold hands. She's had Muggle flings over the summers as well. She wasn't Miss prissy how everybody made her out to be. People would probably be shocked if they found out what she did at Muggle parties.

'CAN YOU NOT TALK ABOUT ME AS IF I'M NOT HERE PLEASE!'

Again everybody turned to face Hermione.

'Thank you. Can I say something? Good. Well firstly thank you Sirius, Remus I'm glad you're a proud of me. And Mrs. Weasley I'm not signing my life away and I'm far from a child and defiantly not inexperienced.'

Again she flushed deep red. Most people raised their eyebrows.

'O grow up, I'm 16! It's perfectly legal for me to have sex-'

'Hermione that's really not the point.'

'But Mrs. Weasley it is! What you're a trying to say I think is that im not experienced enough in sex or seduction to pull this off. I take it that I would have to flirt to some high degree with Voldermort and probably offer myself on a plate to him? Exactly. Mrs. Weasley. I want to do this. I've always wanted to prove myself. Do something worth while. And I've never had the opportunity. I've never really been talented at much and the only thing I've ever excelled in is school! I want to do something that can help others. If I did this then I would be getting information for the light side that could potentially increase our chances of winning this war. I think the more knowledge we have about him and his activities, the better prepared we are when it comes to the final battle. I'm sure I'm not the only one here that doesn't want to see their friends and family die at the hands of evil. And I'm sure you don't either.'

She stopped and looked around the room. All eyes were on her again.

'I can also find out his weaknesses, which will help Harry out in the final Battle. I know Harry is talented and has beaten him before. But I assume now he is a lot stronger and more powerful. He can probably take down Harry like a shot. I do not doubt Harry at all. I just think the more we know about him the better right? And if you need me to prove myself then I will. I'm sure you all doubt whether I can actually seduce him to our advantage? Well I'm sorry but I believe I can get anything out of men.'

Some of the order laughed at this and a woman in the back shouted out.

'Child please, what do you know? We are not talking about pouting and whining a little to get him to go shopping with you. We talking about being a prick tease, and getting vital information out of him.'

'Do not treat me as a child. And I can show you. Ok I'll show you that I can get £20 out of Fred Weasley.'

Everybody knew how tight these boys were with money and there was no way that they were giving up any money. However Fred looked slightly flustered.

'Please, he is merely a child himself. I'm talking fully-grown Wizard here. Ok you think you can get anything out of men? Get Sirius to have a hair cut and change his clothes. And then we might consider you.'

'Hey hey hey, not happening. I like the rugged look thank you.'

Hermione transfigured her clothes into a short grey pleated skirt, which if she bent over could see her underwear. Tight white shirt which showed her ample chest in a black bra. She was practically falling out of her shirt. She made her hair into pigtails and pulled up her socks. Sirius widened his eyes at his secret fantasy standing right in front of him.

'This ought to be good.'

'Hermione this isn't going to work,'

'Really?'

She sat her self of the table next to Sirius, he skirt rode up her thighs and Sirius couldn't help but look. Hermione scanned her eyes all over his body. She sat back and smirked. She watched as he did the same.

'Like what you see?'

'Most defiantly- I mean no, Hermione please this won't work.'

Hermione wasn't listening to him. She locked her eyes with him and licked her lips. She jumped down from the table and kneeled in front of him. (No! please clean your minds out of such dirty thoughts!) She put her hands into his hair and began to run her fingers through it. She ran her hands down the back of his neck, sending shivers down his spine. The room was silent. Nobody said a word, they were all watching this 16-year-old girl sitting in front of Sirius not saying a word but leaving him speechless.

'You have the most gorgeous eyes you know that.'

She barley said it above a whisper, just enough so he could hear it.

'I um.'

'It's just such a shame you have all of this hair in the way.'

She stroked the sides of his face and leaned in to moving his hair out the way. She bit her lip and looked at him. In his mind he couldn't believe what was going on. The amazing girl sitting in front of him in her school uniform, his biggest desire. Her delicate fingers moving across his face. Biting her lip in an o so not innocent way. He knew she was 16 but at the moment he didn't care.

'I just love guys eyes and it's so sexy when you can see them.'

At the moment Sirius was trying to suppress a moan, she had just ran her finger over his lips. He would do anything to kiss her or touch her at the moment. Even though it was so wrong but that just added to the excitement.

'Sirius?'

'Yeah?'

'Would you…?'

She leaned into his ear and whispered. She kisses his ear slightly.

'Yeah?'

She moved to the other ear.

'Like to…?'

Kissing his ear and moved to face him. Eye level.

'For me…?'

She leaned in closer. Literally inches apart.

'Cut you hair? It would look so good on you.'

He grabbed his wand, never leaving her eyes and cast a spell that shortened his hair. Hermione smirked at him. That's half of it and she's barley touched him. Now the clothes should be easy.

'You know what I love? A guy in jeans. Makes them look so rugged and rough. With your knew hair you'd look absolutely irresistible.

She ran her hands up his chest and bit on her bottom lip. Sirius glanced down at her chest that was heaving.

'You know there's a pair of jeans on the stairs. Why don't you put them on, then later I could take them off?'

He practically jumped up from his seat. Hermione let out a sigh. Waved her wand once. Then turned back to the group. She transfigured her clothes into a pair of jeans and a top. Looked at her watch and then turned around, just as Sirius came running back in. The group were speechless, how could she have got the frumpiest man alive to cut his hair and change his clothes. No way. The woman in the back was speechless to.

'I stand corrected.'

'Sirius, I'm sorry you were a victim but you do look much better.'

He was searching for is schoolgirl. She was no where in sight. Then realization then hit him. He felt like such a fool for falling for it, but he had to admit she was good. There was one person however that didn't look impressed.

'O please. Miss Granger, Sirius has been celibate for years. Of course he would do anything in a skirt. We are not talking about a sex-deprived man here. The Dark Lord is no fool, either. He would see through your pathetic role-plays. He may be evil but he has class. I doubt very much you could do that to an intelligent man of class and sophistication.'

An idea struck Hermione. Ok Sirius was easy, that was for sure. What about Snape? They would have to let her do it if she could convince Snape.

'Tell me sir, do you consider you self an intelligent man?'

'Yes Miss Granger, I do.'

'What about a classy man. You wouldn't settle of any sleazy act would you?'

'No I certainly would not.'

'What about a sophisticated man?'

'Of course, but what has this got to do with anything?'

'How old are you professor?'

'That is none of your business Miss Granger. I do not have to share my personal details with you. Now-'

'Would you change your mind about me if I could get you to tell me your age?'

'Miss Granger, you cannot wrap me around your little finger like the others.'

Again Hermione wasn't listening, she was studying him.

'Can I ask you a question professor? You consider yourself to have similar tastes to him, tell me what sort of attire would I be wearing?'

'His likes them to show themselves off. If they have nice legs then he wants them to show them. Again with their breasts or arse. He likes them to look good, but not necessarily comfortable. In other words he likes his whores to look like whores.'

'Ok well I'm not sure if I'm exactly comfortable looking like that, but I have another way around it.'

'Miss Granger this is pointless, why are you even doing this?'

'Because I am going to prove to you that I can do this.'

With that she transfigured her clothes yet again, this time into a deep red dress. Not any normal dress either. It was a strapless and very tight and ended mid thigh. It was made of a PVC material. You would think it would look trashy but she pulled it off. It looked well…HOT! Snape's eyes were practically falling out of his head. One of his best students standing in front of him wearing a very provocative red dress. She walked up to him with a smirk on her face but walked straight past him. He watched her as she swayed her hips past him. She ran her hand over his should, along his back and then along his other shoulder. She leaned in and whispered in his ear.

'I bet you like this dress don't you sir?'

'Miss-'

'Shh'

She placed one of her fingers on his lip to silence him which he immediately obeyed.

'I like an older man and I think you like a younger women.'

'Is that so?'

'Yes it is.'

She sat on the table in front of him and placed her foot on his knee. He had a good view of her legs and a little higher. He was very tempted to look but had to keep reminding himself that he was her professor. She shook her head, which made her curls flow down her shoulders.

'I bet professor that you are about 28?'

'No.'

'No? Well you've defiantly got the body of a 28 year old.'

Behind her Sirius spat out his tea. Hermione shot him a warning glance, which silenced him. She turned back to Snape. He was proving harder to brake than she originally thought. She would have to do something she really didn't not want to do.

'Yes you have the muscles and build of a younger man. Nothing like Sirius who is all fat.'

She obviously said this quieter, so Sirius couldn't hear her. Snape smirked at his.

'Umm defiantly, such powerful arms, and strong legs.'

She ran one of her feet up his legs closer and closer to his crotch. It was obvious he was quite uncomfortable at this point.

'Sevvy, you don't mind me calling you that do you? It's not like I'm in school for you to put little naughty me in detention all on my own now is it?'

'Erm n-no I guess not.'

'That's good because I hate those cold dark dungeons especially if I'm all alone.'

'Well erm.'

She removed her foot and leaned forward. She leant into his ear giving him full view of her breasts. He loosened his top button on his shirt.

'You would keep me company wouldn't you professor?'

'I, er.'

'It would get awfully lonely down there. Especially if there wasn't somebody to keep me company. Isn't that right professor?'

'Yes I suppose it is.'

'Do you like teaching sir?

'Yes.'

'Do you like my dress sir?'

'Yes.'

'Your 39 aren't you professor?'

'Yes.'

Hermione smiled triumphantly and jumped down from the table. Again she changed into her jeans and top, while Snape sat back groaning. He couldn't believe that he fell for it. The room again was in shock.

'How?'

She turned to the twins how were looking at her gobsmacked.

'It's simple. You just have to find out what they want and like. It's obvious if you think about it and know somebody well enough. I mean look at Sirius. I knew he liked the school outfit because that's when he was in his prime. He was a ladies man at school and spent most of his adult life in Azkaban. So obviously that took him back to all the times at school when he was with all those girls. Professor Snape was a little harder to figure out because I don't know him that well, but when he said he was similar to Voldermort it was obvious that he would want me to be a whore as well. He is surrounded by teenage girls and older women all day, it's obvious he would want something a little more adventurous.'

'Miss Granger that is all good and well. But we still haven't made a firm decision. Yes you were with an idea, but I still have a few reservations about using you in this project. Yes it was my idea but I'm still not convinced. Yes you have proved that you can use men, even though Voldermort would of course be a lot more of a challenge. But I'm not sure how much of your time this would take up. If he takes a shine to you he might want you for his 'personal' use more often than we anticipated. I'm not sure how you can fit your studies around that.'

'Ok I understand your concern but why can't I use my time turner? If he wants me late at night and I'm back early hours or something then I can turn back time and get a few more hours sleep. If he wants me during the day then I'll go and catch up at night, giving my self a few few few hours every now and then. And if it really becomes to much then I will try and explain to him that my grades are falling and you are becoming suspicious, so I will have to take it easy.'

'Ok, well we can cross that bridge if and when we come to it I suppose. But miss Granger you are still very young and I fear that the kind of things that go on may damage you later on in life.'

'I understand that Professor but you said yourself that I'm a strong-minded person and look at what I've experienced already with Harry and Ron. I know it doesn't really compare to anything like this, but I suppose if I really can't handle it then you can obliviate my mind and I'll live the rest of my mind as a Muggle.'

'Miss Granger you know that nobody would let you do that. But the things at these revels are very serious. If you are excepted you would be excepted to rape and kill Muggles, go on raids and kill wizards. I wouldn't be surprised if he will pass you around the Death Eaters as well.'

'I was thinking about that when I was outside and isn't there something you can teach me to clear my mind and block my self away. I know I've read something about it. It's like going to a safe place in your mind so you don't concentrate at what's going on. Your body is there but your mind and soul are not.'

'You really have thought about this haven't you? Yes there is such a state of mind but it very difficult to master. I'm unaware that any of your professors can do it so I can teach you myself if it comes to it.'

'I'm sorry for jumping in like this Dumbledore but I was just thinking about what she has been through recently. You know with her family?'

'I am still here.'

'Yes Sirius I was thinking about that myself. I don't think she is emotionally ready for such a task. It would put so much pressure on her and possible bring back bad feelings?'

'Hello!'

'Yeah exactly I think it's far to soon.'

'DO YOU MIND!'

Sirius and Dumbledore turned to a very irate Hermione.

'I understand what you are saying about my situation I really do but I know there is nothing I can do about now it so why fret? If Dumbledore teaches me to escape my mind with that then why can't I adapt it to free my mind of them?'

'Can someone explain to the rest of us what's going on?'

Hermione turned to the order that looked very confused. Should she tell them? What if it's the only way to convince them? Well if shes been through that then she can go through that right?'

'Well, I'm not sure how many-'

'Hermione you don't have to do this you know.'

'Yes, it's your personal business, you don't have to tell the order.'

'No it's ok. If they can see I have come through this then I can get through that right?'

'Hermione these are totally different situations.'

'Miss Granger, you do not have to do this.'

'Please it's fine honestly. Right I won't go into explicit detail, but some of you know and some of you may not, but the day Dumbledore and some of you rescued me, I was in a bit of a state. That was because earlier that day I was beaten and raped by people I thought were my family.'

There was a gasped around the room. They were just staring at her.

'I've been having a fair bit of trouble with my family because I'm different since I was born. The lot of them rejected me the second I was brought home. I'm nothing like them and never will be. Before you ask, no my parents or family do NOT care that I'm here, if anything they are jumping for joy. And I suppose the last thing I better say is that I'm not an only child like most of you think. I have two brothers and sisters. We share the same dad and our mums believe it or not are sisters! Well I'm not going into any more detail about my family history or torment I got. But I think you should know that the one that beat me was indeed my brother and he has threatened to rape and beat my little 13 year old cousin.'

Nobody really knew what to say to the young witch in front of them. It was terrible that she had ever gone through such a thing. Some of them wanted to cry for her. Others wanted to jump up and hug her, while others wanted to go and show her family a piece of their mind. Nobody deserved to be treated like that. That such of abuse was rarely heard of in the Wizarding world, that's why it had come as such a shock.

'And I think if I can come through that, still alive and kicking then I can do this. Please give me a try. I just want to prove to myself that I'm worth something and I want to help. Not just help in the medical ward. I want to help Harry win this. And I think that I'm the right person for this, I think that I'm your only hope.'

'Miss Granger. Can you wait outside? We will have to talk about this.'

Hermione turned and left the kitchen. She heard the door close behind her and some spells being said on the other side. She was left in her own thoughts now and boy was her mind buzzing, Can I really do this? Maybe Tonks was better choice, she was more experienced than she was. What would Harry and Ron say? Did she care what they thought? This was her decision not theirs!

She couldn't believe what she had done in there either. Snape! Sirius! What she whore! God.

She felt up her professor Eww! I'm not telling Harry and Ron that!

She must have been out there longer than she thought because before she knew it, the kitchen door swung open and she was ushered back into the kitchen. People were giving her rather odd looks. She wasn't sure what sort of looks they were.

'Miss Granger?'

'Umm? O yeah right.'

'Ok well we've given this a lot of thought.'

'Ok. And...'

'And we've made our decision.'

A.N o well you'll have to wait until next time to find out whether they are going to let her or not. I didn't rate this chapter much. O well tell me what you though please.