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Chapter 15: 1st day of school
September 1st, 8:44am and everybody in the Black house was fast asleep. Nobody moved, nobody spoke, the only sound that could be heard was the faint snoring of Roland Weasley.
However, the peaceful slumbers of the residents were to be short lived, the seconds ticked closer and closer to 8:45 and this was to be the trigger of a mass riot.
15 seconds to go, Ron gave a loud snort and rolled over in his bed.
13 seconds to go, Sirius had a small smile playing on his lips as he mumbled 'snivillious'
9 seconds to go, Harry's right arm was outstretched and his hand curled around an imaginary snitch.
6 seconds to go, Ginny took a sharp intake of breath and started mumbling incoherent nonsense 'but the teddy said we could fly!'
3 seconds to go, Hermione slept soundly. No mumbling, no smile, no noise, no movement.
8:45
'Get up! Come on! Out of bed! Get ready!'
Mrs Weasley's voice boomed throughout the house. The five people all sat up with a start and rubbed their eyes.
Ron and Harry gingerly climbed out of their beds, grunting their greetings as they made some movements of life. Ron took his wash bag and made for the door. Just as he crossed the doorway, in the room opposite, a young red head emerged also carrying her wash bag. They sized each other up, trying to figure out the next ones movements. Ginny seizing her opportunity sprinted towards the bathroom door and slammed it shut in her brothers face. Loud bangs could be heard all over the house as Ron smashed the door.
'Come on Gin!'
'I can't hear you!'
'You're going to be forever!'
'La la la can't hear you!'
Harry went to the door with a smile on his face, this happened every morning, and every time it ended the same -Ginny would beat him - Ron would bang the door for 10 minutes then leave - She'd come out - Hermione would then beat him to it.
Harry heard someone chuckle down the hall. It was Hermione and she was still in her pj's. A pair of red pj trousers with gold bears and a red tank top. Harry too was still in his pj's, a pair of blue shorts and a white t-shirt. Both people thought that the other looked so cute in their pj's, with their tousled hair and clumsy movements.
'He will never learn.'
'I know. Why didn't he shower last night when I told him to? Would have saved so much time.'
'Well that's the smart thing to do. We showered last night and now we have to just get dressed.'
Harry flushed. Yes they did shower last night - not together. He was going to have a late night shower to save time in the morning, but on his way to the bathroom he saw Hermione come out of it with nothing but a little white towel on. Her skin was tinged red, he assumed because of the heat of the water, her hair was soaking but was pinned at the top of her head. You could see the tops of her breast and her long shapely legs. When Hermione noticed that he was staring she had rolled her eyes and told him it was all his (A.N. the shower, not her) As she went passed him, she swayed her hips a little more than needed but she didn't care.
Hermione watched as Harry blushed. She giggled, made her way over to him and gave him a good morning kiss. He smiled at her and watched as she went back into her room.
After about 1/2 hour, Mrs Weasley's screech could be heard again.
'Move it! Breakfast now!'
Harry and Hermione raced down the stairs fully dressed. Hermione could feel how frustrated and panicky she was and wasn't going to make it worse. Ron followed in a few seconds later still in his pj's looking a feeling thoroughly annoyed.
'Ronald! Why are you not dressed?'
'Ginny's hogging the bathroom!'
Just as she mentioned her name, she came waltzing in fully dressed and very cheerful.
'What are you talking about? It's been free for 10mintues.'
Ron growled at her and ran from the room. The three of them wolfed down their breakfast of eggs, bacon and toast.
'Bring your trunks down here and the animals.'
Animals. Shit. Hermione's eyes widened, she forgot about Crookshanks. She speed out the room just as Ron did to find her cat.
20minutes later Hermione still hadn't found the bandy-legged creature and was beginning to panic. She had scratches up her arms from where she found her under her bed and tried to coax her out but the cat flipped out and attacked her. She ran back down the stairs and was going to try the kitchen again. Just as she rounded the corner she felt a pair of strong arms grab her, one around her waist and the other over her mouth, working to pull her into a closet.
In the closet the person spun her around causing Hermione to gasp, but before she could scream the person silenced her with their lips. The second she felt this persons lips on hers, she knew who it was. Harry. His lips were silky and tender and he always smelt faintly of apples.
She knew it was him by the way his cold hands rubbed circles on her waist. She knew it was him by the softness of his hair when she ran her fingers through the back. She knew it was him by the way his kisses could take her breath away in an instant and leave her feeling dizzy.
After she realised she needed to breathe she pulled away and looked at him. She could she faint traces of lip gloss on his lips. She could see in his eyes the need for her and she could feel how much he wanted her.
'Explain yourself Potter!'
Harry groaned and started to kiss her neck. She sighed at the feeling it sent through her and pulled back reluctantly.
'Tell me why you thought it necessary to pull me into a dirty closet and kiss me.'
'I'm sorry Mi, but I can't resist when you look like that.'
Hermione looked down at herself. She wore a pair of pink dolly shoes, a light denim pleated skirt and a pink 'I love Minnie Mouse' t-shirt. Her hair was pulled back into a pony tail.
'Try again Harry, there is nothing special with what I'm wearing.'
He groaned again.
'Ever since I saw you last night in that towel I can't stop thinking about you. And for the record, you look dead sexy like that.'
Harry was about to kiss her again when there was a sharp knock at the front door, their escort had arrived. The two of them snuck out of the closet and stood behind Mrs Weasley who was opening the door. The only person that did notice them was Sirius who came out of the kitchen just in time to see them sneak out. He gave his godson a quick wink and handed a very embarrassed Hermione her cat.
'Ginny! Ron! Down here, now!
10minutes later 8 people were finally ready to leave the Black residence with two owls, a cat and four very large trunks. Tonks who was one of their escorts explained that she 'borrowed' two ministry cars for them.
'Right! Harry, Hermione, Remus and me in the first car. Gin, Ron, Mad eye and Kingsley in the second.'
It took a few minutes to pile in the cars and finally they were seated. Tonks was in the front of the car, with Harry, Hermione and Remus in the back.
The car wasn't exactly large and the mood Harry was in didn't make matters any better. He was extremely irritated that he and Hermione were interrupted, they hadn't had much time to be alone since they started going out. You would think that Grimmuald place was big enough for them to sneak off for a quick kiss every now and then, but under the watchful eyes of Mrs Weasley and Hermione's training, they hardly got any time together. Now, with Hermione's bare leg brushing up against his every now and then and the fact he couldn't do anything about it pissed him off severely. It wasn't fair, he was a hormonal 16 year old boy, with his beautiful girlfriend pressed up against him and he was powerless to do a thing!
Fuck it, it's only Tonks and Remus, they won't care.
He put his arm around her and she nuzzled closer to him. He started to stoke the stray hair and the back of her neck, knowing she loved this and that it was a weak point for her. He felt her put a hand on his thigh and she looked up at him with a mischievous glint in her eye. That's it, he couldn't resist any longer. He shifted them slightly and kissed her hard. She responded eagerly by opening her mouth almost instantly, their tongues clashed impatiently. Her hand was slowly moving upwards, gently stroking his thigh. His other hand moved to her revealed leg and drew lazy circles on it causing Hermione to whimper.
'O will you stop!'
They pulled apart to see a very appalled and disgusted Remus sitting next to them. At the front of the car, Tonks burst out laughing at Remus's reaction.
'O come on Remmie! They're young! Leave them be!'
'No, I'm not sitting here while they moan, groan and fondle!'
'It's not like we haven't done that!'
Harry and Hermione exploded with laughter as the blush crept up Remus's neck. They were a couple?
'Since when?'
Hermione was still laughing slightly, while Harry just sat their in shock awaiting his answer.
'Beginning of the summer.'
Remus's voice was barley a mumble. Hermione could feel how jealous he was feeling.
'Jealous much Lupin?'
'Aww Remmie, would it be better if I came and sat with you?'
He didn't have time to reply as Tonks clambered over the seats and practically sat in his lap. She captured his lips in a fiery kiss and soon they were at it. Remus had one hand up the back of her shirt and the other tangled in her waist length black hair.
Harry's mouth was open and he was still staring wide eyed at the pair. Hermione giggled at his expression, reached up and cupped his face. She brought his attention back to her, he smiled naughtily at her.
'Now where were we?'
The two cars arrived at Kings cross station a while later, however this went unnoticed by one particular car. The occupants of the other car got out and waited for the others to exit. After a few minutes it was apparent that the passengers of the first car had no intention of getting out yet. Ron, Ginny, Kingsley and Mad eye, made their way over to the car. The Weasley's approached the right side while Mad eye and Kingsley approached the left. Simultaneously the four of them opened the back doors.
On the right where Ron and Ginny were, Harry and Hermione tumbled out with Hermione landing on top of Harry. Ron and Ginny looked at them with raised eyebrows. They quickly scrambled up, trying to straighten themselves out.
On the left, Remus and Tonks were in the same type of predicament. They too jumped up trying to gain back some dignity.
'Erm shall we er get going?'
Remus grabbed a flushed Tonks' hand and sped away. Harry and Hermione followed fast to get out of such an uncomfortable situation.
At fifteen minutes to 11 the 8 of them stood on platform 9 3/4 saying their goodbyes. Ron and Ginny went off to find a compartment. The two couples stood facing each other awkwardly.
Kingsley and Moody, sensing the tension said they would wait outside for them.
'Erm, Hermione could I have a word?'
Hermione nodded and was lead away by Tonks.
'Hermione, I'm going to give you something. Now, I know you're smart so you won't be stupid about the relations you have with Harry. Just, when you do, you know, be careful. I don't want one of my favourite girl getting preggers on me now do I?'
Hermione's eyes widened in surprise. She didn't realise she was going to have this chat with her.
'Tonks! Me and Harry - we haven't!'
'I know! But that's why I wanted to give you this.'
Tonks reached into her robes and pulled out a vile with pink liquid. Hermione eyed it warily.
'Its a passion enhancer potion!'
Hermione gasped, blushed and was horrified all at the same time.
Passion enhancer! O.MY.GOD I'm so embarrassed. This is not happening.
'I, erm, well, we haven't even, erm -'
'Hermione shh! If you and Harry both drink two drops of it 5minutes before you do, you'll be going at it like rabbits!'
No, no, no, stop this conversation before I die!
'Tonks!'
She smiled wickedly at her. It was funny seeing the look on Hermione's face. She put it in her robe and Tonks guided her back to the boys.
When Tonks lead Hermione away, Remus knew what she was giving her. He turned to Harry and a smile played on his lips.
'Look Harry, I didn't realise the extent of yours and Hermione's relationship until I saw you in the car, but I just want to say something to you.'
Not the birds and the bees! Please I'm 16!
'Remus, I really don't need the birds and the bees talk!'
'Merlin no Harry! I still remember what's it's like to be 16 and in love-'
In love! I wouldn't go that far! Yes, she's my best friend. Yes, she's amazingly smart, beautiful, exciting, and intoxicating. Yes, I hate not being around her. Yes, she's all I think about. Yes, she makes me excited and nervous at the same time but in love? I don't know about that.
'- We're not in love.'
'Not yet. But I'm just saying when you finally get around to having sex-'
'Remus! This is so embarrassing.'
My old professor didn't just say sex! He's not talking to me about sex!
'Harry it needs to be said! Look when you do, just be careful, you don't need a baby around, you're still children yourself.'
Ok, please ground just swallow me up now!
'Ok Remus can we just stop this conversation?'
'Ok Harry just one last thing. Don't hurt her. She's been through so much already.'
'Remus, I know! I have no intention of hurting her. She means the world to me!'
Just as Remus was going to say something else Tonks and a very red Hermione appeared.
'Ok, have a good year you two! And Hermione, don't brake it ok?'
'Yes, bye Tonks!'
Hermione turned to leave, but something caught her eye. Someone with white blonde hair. Malfoy.
Shit, I forgot all about him.
But just as quick as she had seen his hair, it was gone again. Shaking her head she took Harry's hand and followed him to the train.
Hermione was about to climb onto it when she felt someone grab her arse. She spun around to see Malfoy stride passed her. He looked at her with a thirst in his eyes and licked his lips.
Hermione knew she couldn't ignore him so she winked playfully and went into the compartment. Little did she know that, that little incident didn't go unnoticed.
Tonks and Remus stood their looking at the door that just slammed shut, not believing what they just saw.
'Did that just? Did you see?'
'Did Malfoy touch Hermione's arse, lick his lips and Hermione wink at him?'
'That's what I thought. But Harry...'
'Not our business! Come on Tonks.'
'Merlin, you should have seen her Ginny, fur all over her face and a tail!'
Ginny, Harry and Ron were rolling around on the floor laughing. Hermione, however, wasn't. She hated that memory and wanted to curse Ron for bringing it up.
'Must be the first time Hermione's ever made a mistake!'
'The potion was perfect, I just had the wrong hair.'
She sat back pouting with her hands across her chest. She hated being reminded of her mistakes.
'You still botched it up Herms!'
'Shut up Ron, and don't call me Herms!'
'Yeah, I'm the only one who can call her that!'
Wanna bet?
'Think again Potter. Nobody calls me Herms and the next one that does will be missing some vital body parts.'
The four of them sat there laughing, teasing and joking with each other, perfectly happy with the train journey.
Hermione smiled to herself, these were her best friends. She loved them so much. She had hated lying to them all these years. But it was necessary, they would never have understood.
What's that? Arrogance. Not Harry, not Ron, not Ginny. It's closer. Malfoy! Shit. Erm stage something.
Hermione had to think on her feet. Malfoy was coming, if he saw her so cosy with Harry and Ron, he'd tell Voldermort and her cover would be blown. She said she hated them.
She jumped up and faced Ron who was sitting next to her.
'I'm so sorry Ron.'
SLAP.
She struck him across his face. When her hand connected with his cheek it made a sickening TWAP sound. There was silence in the whole compartment. Hermione could see Ron's eyes glistening, he looked up at her confused. He opened his mouth to say something, but Hermione cut him off. Malfoy was right outside.
'HOW DARE YOU TOUCH ME LIKE THAT RON!'
Harry, Ron and Ginny sat there stunned into disbelief, what the hell was she doing?
'W-w-what are you talking about Hermione?'
'YOU! EVERY TIME I SIT NEXT TO YOU YOUR HANDS BEGIN TO WONDER! I DON'T LIKE IT. SO KEEP YOUR FILTHY, FUMBLING, GROPING HANDS TO YOURSELF.'
Outside the compartment, Malfoy was leaning against the side listening to every word.
The golden trio breaking up? And Weasley's feeling her up! God that filth thinks he's actually got a chance with her.
Malfoy leaned in closer, this was great. He could use this against Potter.
'Mi, what are you talking about? Ron didn't do anything!'
'You are always defending him Harry! I'm sick of it!'
Malfoy took this as a chance to rub slat into the already infected wound. He waltzed in and interrupted the slagging match.
'Well well well, is the untouchable golden Griffindor trio breaking up?'
'Get the hell out Malfoy.'
'No actually Weasleyette, I don't think I will.'
His eyes roamed the compartment. Harry and Ginny were sitting on his right, both shared the look on confusion and annoyance. To his left was Ron, he had a nice red hand print forming on his cheek and his ears were burning red. Standing up in front of Ron was Hermione. He let his eyes roam over her body.
'Not bad Mudblood.'
Hermione knew she was going to regret this later and was going to have to do a lot of grovelling to her friends but she had to play along. She let a smirk form on her lips as she made her way over to him. She circled him and came to stand in front of him.
'Not so bad yourself ferret.'
Harry chocked on the drink he was currently swallowing, Ron's eyes were blazing and Ginny just sat there never taking her eyes off of them. Malfoy draped his arm over Hermione's shoulder and whispered in her ear. He made sure that the others, however, could hear him.
'Why don't we go back to my compartment? Nobody will touch you there, unless of course you want me to.'
Malfoy kissed the base of her ear, and Hermione placed a hand on his chest.
'Sure, I was getting bothered by the company in this compartment anyhow.'
He turned her around and steered her out, before she left she turned to her 3 shocked friends and mouthed
'I'm so sorry.'
The three Gryffindor's sat their bewildered. Finally Ginny found her voice,
'Did that just happen?'
He leaded her away from her safe haven and took her down the train to his compartment. Once they reached it Malfoy turned to his to goons.
'Wait out here, don't let anybody in got it?'
'Yes Draco.'
Hermione followed him in and closed the door behind her. She knew what he wanted and she knew she couldn't say no. If she did then it would all be over. All she could think about was Harry and how hurt he was going to be because of it. Malfoy and him are worst enemies, and to know that his girlfriend is alone, in a compartment, with him. She hated herself.
The second she closed the door she was backed up against it with Malfoy's arms either side of her head.
'Finally alone Mudblood.'
'Yes we are.'
Malfoy didn't hesitate a second longer, he pushed forward and his lips collided with hers. Hermione felt the bile rise in her throat. This kiss didn't leave her breathless like Harry's did. This kiss didn't make her shiver in anticipation. He was nothing like Harry. His hands went to her waist and pulled her forward, hips contacting with hips. She gasps and the abruptness of his actions, the second her mouth was open he slid his snake like lounge in and it collided with hers. Hermione felt his rough hands pushing her top up, his hands were cold, it reminded her a lot of John.
Her head was now spinning, thoughts of John and Dan plagued her mind. Malfoy was no better than them, he didn't care about how it felt for her, all they were interested in was sex and what they could get. He was now kissing down her neck, sharp little bites causing her to flinch. This was sickening, why on earth was she doing this? It didn't feel right, it was awful and she felt awful. Just as Malfoy was going to push the top up further the train came to a sudden halt.
The two of them fell apart slightly breathless from their encounter. Hermione pushed down her top and redid her hair, Malfoy too composed his self.
'We better get going.'
Malfoy smirked at her and again slung his arm over her shoulder. She latched her hand with his and smiled, pretending he was Harry. The two of them walked off the train and made their way over to the carriages. But 5 feet away from the train they bumped into some other students.
'Watch it - O look who it is, Potter and the Weasels.'
Hermione's head shot around and the mention of her friends names. Her eyes locked with Harry's and they were filled with hurt and anger. But one thing Hermione could feel from him was disgust.
At this very moment in time Hermione never felt worse in her life, just looking into his vibrant green eyes which were filled with agony made her heart clench.
She looked away, she couldn't face him in front of Malfoy.
'You know your Mudblood isn't that bad.'
Ron scowled at him, his ears were turning red and his fists were clenched. Harry just stared at her, he never took his eyes off her since they bumped into each other.
'Come on Malfoy lets go.'
Harry watched as Malfoy led her away, he whispered something in her ear and let his hand slid down to her backside. He was fuming, Hermione was giggling and Malfoy was feeling her up.
Harry's fists clenched at the site. Ron grabbed onto Harry's arm and dragged him into a carriage away from the site before them.
He knew that something like this was going to happen sooner or later, he knew that is was coming, but nothing could have prepared him for the onslaught of emotions that he felt, when he saw Hermione in the arms of another man, a man who he hated with a passion. The hurt when Hermione screamed at them in the compartment. The pain he felt when he realised what must have gone on when they were alone. The anger that built up inside him when Malfoy groped her.
Nothing could have prepared him for the constant ache now in his heart.
In the compartment, Ron watched the emotions play across Harry's face.
'Harry? Harry mate?'
'What?'
He didn't mean to snap, but at the moment all he wanted to do was rip Malfoy's head off.
'I'm sorry.'
Ron leaned back, ears tinged red. He hated seeing his best mate like this.
'Ron, mate I didn't mean to snap. I-I- just, I just want to rip Malfoy to pieces!'
'Hey man, I know, I hate to imagine what you're going though.'
'Yeah, I swear, I mean does she have to do it to that extent? I knew it was coming, she told me about what she had to do, but I hate this. Why does she have to do this for the bloody Order?'
'I don't know man. Come on were here.'
The two of them jumped down from the carriage and made their way up to the entrance hall, hoping that was the last of the display they had to witness. How wrong they were.
At the doors, stood Malfoy and Hermione. He had one arm around her waist and was again whispering in her ear. Hermione was giggling again and was lightly touching his chest.
Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Harry and Ron approach.
This was the worst thing in the world. It was tormenting her and she couldn't begin to imagine what it was doing to Harry.
God I feel so guilty. This isn't right, it should be Harry kissing my neck and whispering in my ear. It should be Harry's arms on me, not Malfoy's. This isn't right.
The entrance hall doors swung open and crowds of people started to file through. Harry and Ron brushed past her.
'Hey Malfoy, we better get going, I'll catch up with you another time.'
'Make sure you do.'
Hermione left and made her way into the great hall. She had to make amends with her best friends. She had to make them understand. She had to apologise.
She made her way over to Griffindor table and sat down next to Harry, opposite Ginny and Ron.
The three of them didn't acknowledge her as she sat, they just turned the attention to the head table, waiting for the feast to begin.
Hermione take a deep breath and apologise.
Hermione looked over at Harry, he was trying so hard not to look at her, but even with him not looking at her she could still fell the amount of disgust and hurt from him.
Hermione placed a hand on his arm,
'Harry?'
'Don't touch me whore.'
She withdrew her hand and placed it back in her lap. Tears were threatening to spill over her lashes.
Whore? Am I a whore? God, I really hurt him.
The rest of the feast was eaten in silence. Hermione knew not to try and talk to them, it would only make matters worse.
At the end, Harry, Ron and Ginny, got up and left the hall with out her. She felt like shit. She deserved everything that they threw at her. She was a whore and didn't deserve such a wonderful boyfriend like Harry, and didn't deserve best friends like Ginny and Ron.
You know what? They are going to listen to me. I'm going to make them see it my way if they like it or not.
With that Hermione stood up and raced out the hall after them.
She reached the portrait a few minutes later and went through. She saw the three of them sitting by the fire chatting. Once they saw her they got up and tried to make their way over to the dorms.
She hurried over to them and blocked the way to the dorms.
'Get out the way.'
'Not until you listen.'
'We don't want to listen to you Hermione. Nothing you say could justify the way you acted towards Harry and Ron.'
'If you don't listen to me, I swear, I will hex you so bad you won't be able to walk for a month.'
The three of them eyes her wearily, if she said she would do something like that, then the chances were that she would actually do it.
They glanced at each other and made their way over to the fire, where they were minutes before.
Hermione let out the breath she didn't realise she was holding.
Once there, Hermione cast a silencing charm around them and stood in front of the fire.
'Out with it then.'
'Look I just want to apologise first for what happened in the compartment. I never meant to slap you Ron, and I'm so sorry for screaming and shouting.'
'Why'd you do it?'
'Gin, I'm sorry. I had to. That night at the meeting, Malfoy was kicking up a fuss about me being there so I had to promise him that if he shut up I'd make it worth his while. I really didn't think I would have to do that so soon, and I never imagined I would have to do it in full show of everyone.'
She looked around with pleading eyes at them.
Please, come on. I've said I'm sorry. Please.
'Look, I know you think I'm a bitch, but if I didn't do that, he would have gone straight to Voldermort and made up some cock and bull story, ratting me out and my cover would have been blown. Please, I'm so sorry about what I did, I never meant to hurt any of you.'
Ginny stood up and faced her friend. She was a little taller than Hermione and very intimidating.
Hermione thought she was going to slap her, but when Ginny leaned forward and hugged her she was more than relieved.
'I know you wouldn't do that on purpose.'
'Thanks Gin.'
They pulled apart and smiled. Next to them Ron got up and hugged her as well.
'I'm sorry for slapping you Ron.'
'It's ok Hermione.'
Once they pulled apart the three of them looked down at Harry who was still sitting on the sofa. He hadn't moved one inch since Hermione put the silencing charm around them. He listened to everything she said but it didn't make him feel any better. He was still hurt. He could still see the images of her and Malfoy.
Ron and Ginny sensing the tension between the two, knowing that they had to talk, left the two of them and went to their separate dorms.
Hermione turned to Harry.
'Harry?'
He didn't look up. She sighed and looked down at her hands.
'Harry, sweetheart, please.'
She sat down beside him and took his hands in hers.
'Please look at me.'
He reluctantly turned to face her. He saw the tears stinging in her eyes.
'Say something. Please anything.'
'What do you want me to say? That I forgive you for making me look like a complete idiot? That I forgive you for cheating on me with Malfoy no less? That I forgive you for-'
Tears pilled over her eyes and down her cheeks.
'O please Harry. I know. Im so sorry. I never meant it to happen this way.'
'Then tell me, how did you mean it to happen?'
'I don't know.'
Hermione couldn't look him in the eyes anymore. Shame filled her. She hurt him. She hurt him bad.
Harry watched as each tear left her eye, fell onto her cheeks and down to her hands. He knew she was hurting as much as he was.
Could he really let something this good slip away that easy? Did he want to spend the rest of his life wondering whether or not things could have worked out in their relationship? He knew what she was doing was for the order and that it wasn't real. That their was no true feelings behind anything she did.
Taking a deep breath he lifted her chin with his forefinger and made her look him dead in the eye.
'Is it over with Malfoy?'
She nodded.
'Mi, I'm sorry I made you cry. I just don't want you acting like a whore in front of me. I know that you are doing this for your mission and it's for the Order. I know that you don't mean it and I also know you have no other choice. But I don't like it being shoved in my face.'
'I know Harry and I'm sorry.'
'You know I care for you too much to let you go that easy,'
She smiled weakly at him, tears were still overflowing down her cheeks. He returned the smile and wiped the tears away with his thumb. He pulled her into his lap and kissed her forehead.
'What am I going to do with you, humm?'
'Dump me and go out with Ginny?'
'Never! You're the only one for me!'
'Good to hear it.'
The two of them laughed. This is what they liked. Being comfortable in each others arms.
A.N so what do you all think? Let me know!
Raven
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