An insight into Veronica's twisted mind after season one. Kinda OOC
Disclaimer: You know the drill: it's not mine, all belongs to other ppl
Twisted Feeling
Lily's murderer has been caught, but my problems aren't over. I've just lost my cause. I lost my best friend and fighting for her was the only thing I had left.
Knowing Lily's killer was still out there is what's driven me for the last year, I knew I had to find him. Now Aaron is behind bars and I have nothing left to fight for.
Maybe that's why I'm lying here exhausted and just a little sore. When I sleep I still dream of Lily, but she's just mocking me now. I see a warped version of her, the worst and it's proud of me. I'm turning into a little clone now. I have Duncan doing whatever I want, it's obviously a very different kind of relationship, but the control is still there, just like she used to have.
Then there's Logan, I have him wrapped around my little finger now, just like Lily did. I pushed him away, I've accused him of rape, murder and he still comes back to me, begging for another chance, just like with Lily. I think he needs me to be like her, so he can pretend for a moment that she's still here. Maybe that's why I don't complain when it's her name he calls out rather than mine.
But then there's the man I'm lying next to now. He's another of Lily's cast offs but then who in Neptune isn't. I think this is my curse for not letting Lily go a year ago, I have to forever walk her path now. I wonder would she be proud of me as I jump from bed to bed, the beds that have finally started to cool since she left them.
There's no chance of sleeping here tonight so I finally climb from the bed, careful not to wake Weevil. I stop to look at him for a moment, it is not love I find with him, I guess it's just another of my twisted attempts at feeling.