Chapter Four:

Defenselessness

Midnight

It was late, Hakkai knows that. There was something in his mind that kept him awake…kept him from sleep, kept him from being peaceful. It was awfully quite in the room as everyone continued to rest. He watched the ceiling for a while, how dull and depressing it was making him feel.

He sighed heavily. Tired of thinking, of that day, when someone precious to him completely faded away. It hurt; he slowly rose himself and peered out of the window seeing the stars as they glittered in the sky. This was a pretty cold and depressing night…no…correction midnight. Funny how the situation between Gayia and Kagato was so very much like him and Kanan, when one of them is stuck in depression the other one will feel the same. In his case though, that was only because him and Kanan were twins.

Author's note: Kanan is only a couple of minutes older than him…got it off a script which was taken from the manga…it was only a manga translation though……

But somehow their bond seemed to be a little bit different from them…for one the age difference and two Kagato is already married so whatever it is that Hakkai is thinking It's properly false, Hakkai knew that their relationship isn't that close like he was with his sister. Then again there was something about Gayia that made him feel a bit uneasy.

When the talk about the 'Almost Rape' came out, Gayia seemed a little bit scared and terrified and when she screamed out that it wasn't true then there was a diffident hint of defiance coming out of her voice.

He looked over to the door for a while but then his eyes widened as he seen Kanan there and smiling at the door way as she raised one hand and waved at him then took out a knife the same one from that incident and stabbed it into herself as tears dribbled down her pale cheeks and then blood came unto the floor as she dropped down limp.

Hakkai shock his head violently then looked back to see that she was no longer there. His mind must be playing tricks on him. Why does that always happen when he's thinking about her…then a sudden rush of sadness began to fill in him and he placed his head gently on the pillow, maybe if he goes to sleep then just maybe he'll be able to dream of something else…but no good…sadness still continues to build up. That is preventing him from sleeping. Oh how he longs to take out his other eye so he won't be able to see anything then maybe he'll be able to sleep soundly.

Then again what would that accomplish? He'll only get another artificial eye anyway…he let out another deep sigh. He looked over to Gojyo to see that he was sleeping well. Oh how he envied him that he can sleep so well. He made a sad face.

Then a sudden thought popped into his head. If he took a walk around the place would that help him? Worth giving it a shot anyway. He slowly rose and placed one foot unto the cold wooden floor feeling the rush of coldness emanating from it. He took his monocle which was settled in the bedside cabinet and placed it on his face. He stood up and excited the room making sure that he doesn't wake up his room mate. Not to mention Hakuryu who was sleeping on his bed. How he ever gives him the slip Hakkai will never know.

He walked down the dark dreary hallway as he past the other room. Who Sanzo and Goku were currently resting in, He didn't dare enter incase he wakes either of them. The stairs then slowly came into view. He placed one foot on a step then one after another as he walked down, a step following. The sound of creaking filling his ears.

Entering Gojyo, he opened his eyes then closed them. Then something surprised him, as they shot open again. Hakkai was no longer resting in the bed across. He pushed himself up and came into a sitting position. His eyes partly open. He looked round the room to scope him out, but no such luck.

"Damn Hakkai…" he moaned as he placed one foot on the ground followed by the other. As he left the room and wondered into the darkened hallway. He took sight of the stairs and boldly ventured down them, wanting to find the annoying brunette who went up and left the room without telling him…he felt so angry at him for not telling him…well sure he did it a couple of times…which he did over a thousand and twenty three…but he made sure to tell him where he was going…only twice by his count…which was a pretty good rate at his standards but he never dreamed that Hakkai would do that…so unlike him…so out of character.

Back to Hakkai who was still wondering around looks in front of him as he slowly came to a sudden stop. There was someone here, someone out in the darkness, could it be a youkai? Another assassin? Or just another couple of unfortunate souls ready for the kill…but if that was so…then why didn't he sense them. This is making him feel uneasy now…he looked round him as he placed his right hand unto his left arm. Feeling even more uneasy.

Maybe it's just my imagination…he reassured himself as he clenched his arm tightly. Still the sense of uncertainly continued to haunt him and fill in the air. He narrowed his eyes. There was still the feeling as if something was there…the dark wasn't really making him feel any easier and sure as hell wasn't making him any safer.

It felt like that the darkness was going to consume him at any moment…it was freaking him out so badly that he wish he could see what was going on…wish that a light would come on at any minute and make him feel at least a little bit calm. A voice that would say…'Hello anyone out there?' or a 'What you doin' up so late?' any phrase will do only as long it was from a customer or member or one of his comrades would do, anything that would set his mind at ease.

Then there was a sudden slap on his shoulder he jumped and turned round as he flung his fist forward, only cascading into Gojyo's face. Ooops. He watched as Gojyo slouched down as the blood came out of his nose. Hakkai panicked as he helped his friend up seeing the blood dripping unto the floor.

"Well that was smart wasn't it Hakkai?" Gojyo scolded as he frowned angrily at him. Hakkai made a nervous smile as he held his friend. What could he do he didn't mean to hit him…but then again neither did he suspect the perverted kappa walking into the darkened hallway. Not his style…how…out of character…

"Sorry Gojyo…" Gojyo looked at him as a vein popped out on his head.

"So you should be, I got all worried , came out of the room walk down the hallway…I finally found you and what do you do…punch me in the face…Damn Hakkai how dare you even do that next time look before you lash out and next time why don't you use a chi blast on me too huh?" Hakkai quivered a bit at the sound of Gojyo's voice.

"I'm sorry Gojyo…you caught me off guard…" There was a sudden sound of metal coming from the kitchen. They both looked at each other, and then carefully tip toed to the door which leads to the kitchen. Hakkai peered over the door, Gojyo placing his head a couple of paces up from him as he held his nose. Hakkai could feel Gojyo's breath on his back.

Gayia was there shuffling a couple of things in the drawer. Hakkai watched her closely her body language quite easy to tell. There were sounds of sobbing escaping from her. She took out a knife and observed it as she slowly dropped down unto her knees.

"Kagato and Toma would be better off with out me…maybe then they wouldn't have to worry…" She looked at the knife and held it at her throat. Like she was about to strike her own throat, as sights of blood begun to dribble out and land unto the floor like a rain drop.

"What the heck is she doing?" Hakkai jumped up and ran over as he grabbed the silver blade and flung it unto the floor. Gayia looked up startled at him.

"What are you doing here…" she hesitated. Hakkai looked down on her with a pair of saddened emerald eyes as they twinkled out of the darkness.

"What were you doing Gayia-san?"

To be continued

Sanzo's Guardian Angel: Hmmmm? (Looks at title) I don't really know why I thought up that title…? One of my mysterious unsolved…anyway I know this chapter was lame and anything but I thought I should do a chapter on Hakkai and Gojyo's view for once instead of Gayia. Oh and sorry if it took me so long…A lot of things were bothering me…I got to see my granddad in hospital today (YAHOO!) Another thing on my list fufiled and proud of it I hope he comes out soon...so until next chapter…see yeah.