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chapter 10 : Paradox...
If I kiss you like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
That's my religion , that's my duty to never leave you.Our fate is in your hands , don't ever stop loving me because i never did either. Don't make me cry and please don't betray my heart.It's funny , cause i told you to leave and you left , now i regret saying all those nasty things to you and now i want you to never leave me.At least please be with me for one day.In my heart even lovers become strangers.Our fate together is in your hands , it's your decision.Please choose me...My Haruka.
Neptune sat on a bench in the backyard of the big house the four outer senshi shared , just thinking.
Flashback , year- 3052 ( Future , already happened ) Settings , Crystal Tokyo...
'' Michi please let me explain , you can't avoid me forever.''
'' Uranus give it up , we are no longer a couple , you should move on and accept the fact we are through !'' Neptune yelled with a stern voice , never losing her cool.'' I know it's has been awhile since we last seen eachother but if you would just wake up for a moment , just because we have to work together in order to protect Serenity and crystal Tokyo it doesn't mean we are together again.''
'' We would've never broke up if you had listened.'' Uranus said , not showing any of the annoyance and pain she felt.
'' Uranus , please.It's the past and past is past , wake up.Welcome to the real world.This isn't a fairytail and i'm not some item you can buy in the store then trow away and asked me back ! I'm a human being ! Dammit , get lost !'' Neptune yelled losing her cool for the very first time in years.
'' Michi...'' But the blonde was cut off by Neptune's hand slapping her across her face.
'' I said get lost and don't call me Michi ever again , you bitch.I hate that name , i always have !'' The smaller girl lied.She loved that name.But only if Haruka called her that.But somehow she just wanted to hurt the woman who had hurt her so much too.She was actually suprised she had hit the blonde who stared at her in disbelieve.
'' If that's true , i'm sorry.'' Uranus whispered.She sounded sad and broken but Neptune ignored that fact.'' I will leave you alone but ...one more thing...'' Neptune looked up at the blonde suprised before putting up her cold glaring face again.'' I'm not sorry i loved you. And i'm not sorry for trying.i hope one day you'll listen to me and we'll be together again.''
With that Neptune watched Uranus walk away.That had been the last time Uranus had ever tried to talk to her.
End flashback...
Neptune stood up from the bench and gazed at the night sky above her. Then she closed her eyes.Her heart was aching.She had just found out it was her own fault she broke up with her lover after all those years of blaming the blonde for it.Now maybe she was too late and had lost her lover...forever.
Then Neptune remembered she had only been given two hours in this time before Sailor Pluto would orb her back to the future.She still had half an hour but she wasn't planning on leaving before she had the answer she came for. Did Uranus , Haruka still love her , yes or no ?
With that thought in mind she walked back into the house with a determined look on her face but it showed cracks.It was clearly written in her face she feared the worst. She was so afraid she would get rejected. She knew that if Uranus would succeed in changing their past it would also mean that Neptune would forget everything that happened here , it was part of the whole paradox.But still , Neptune needed to know how the blonde felt for her even after these years.
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
Year 3054 ( Future ) Settings , Crystal Tokyo
Pluto sat in the mainroom across Serenity.Both didn't say anything.They just sat there as if they were both willing to say something but they couldn't.Pluto took a deep breath and decided she should be the one to break this uncomfortable silence.'' She has less that 30 minutes.'' Was all that came out even though she wanted to say something else.
Her words seemed to have worked because Serenity finally looked up at the green haired woman.'' I hope she'll get her answers.'' The queen said.It sounded strange to say that.She didn't want to talk to Setsuna about this , she wanted to talk about all kinds of stuff but not about this even though she hoped Neptune and Uranus would get together again.
'' Me too.'' Pluto answered with a soft whisper.'' Serenity...i...'' She stopped.She just couldn't , it felt wrong to say.Not at this time at least.It wasn't the right time for her queen to hear such news.
'' Pluto , Setsuna , you know you can tell me everything right ?'' The blonde suddenly asked sounding hopeful and concerned. Sailor Pluto just nodded.What else could she do ?'' Then tell me what's wrong.'' Serenity added causing Pluto to blush.
'' It's nothing , i just don't want to worry you right now...you know because of the whole thing that's going on right now.'' The green haired woman lied.Serenity stood up and walked over to her guardian who shifted uneasily.
'' Setsuna , if it concerns you , it does me too.'' She softly said as she bent down , placing her hands on Pluto's bare knees.They looked at straight at eachother not daring to blink.'' Please , tell me...'' The queen begged causing Pluto to wake up from her trance.
'' It's...about Chibi-Usa.'' She finally answered not looking at the blonde in front of her.'' She's...I can't see her...she's gone...I mean , i can't find her.I think the time line got damaged when Neptune entered to follow Uranus.
'' Don't worry.'' Serenity said with a smile as she took one of Pluto's hands in hers.'' This was meant to happen and i don't think you can blame it on Neptune's travel to the past. Me and Endymion haven't been...you know very close lately , we are constantly fighting.I think that's the problem.''
Pluto first looked at her own hand which was still in Serenity's grip and then looked into the blue eyes of her queen.Those eyes were so innocent , it made Pluto wonder why someone would put a burden like saving the world on the shoulders of such a innocent girl.'' W-what are you two fighting about ?''
Serenity looked down at the ground and smiled bitterly.'' It's about you actually...''
'' Me ?'' Pluto asked suprised by the answer.The queen just nodded.
'' You know what , when both Neptune and Uranus arrive back here i'll tell you , but not now okay ?'' The blonde asked knowing Pluto would agree.Pluto just confirmed her answer by nodding.'' So...how long before Neptune arrives again ?''
Pluto smiled.It was obvious Serenity wanted to change the subject.She decided it was the best to just play along before answering Neptune still had twenty minutes left.
Year 2005 ( Present ) Settings - Tokyo
Michiru walked though the city with a sad and confused look on her face.Everything was going so fast.She really thought Haruka had changed , but if it was true about what the future Haruka had told her it really wasn't Haruka's fault. Amnesia ? Who would have thought. She smiled bitterly to herself as she walked past a cafe. When she looked through the window it was more than she wanted to see.There was HER Haruka , kissing and touching another woman.Michiru wanted to run in there , hit the girl who dared to touch her Haruka and then scold Haruka's heart out but she knew she couldn't.
Haruka wasn't herself.Michiru reminded herself. Neptune had told her all about the past knowing that when she did that she risked changing the whole future.Michiru assumed that her future self was afraid of losing her lover too.
It was then when Haruka spotted the aqua haired woman. It didn't take the blonde too long to realise the aqua haired beauty she woke up with yesterday morning was crying.Immidiatly Haruka left the girl who she was kissing just a minute ago and run out of the cafe to Michiru.
'' Are you following me ?'' Haruka asked softly.It seemed as if the blonde was actually relieved she had found Michiru.The smaller girl just shook her head and tried to fake a smile.She failed when a tear managed to slip.
'' No...'' Michiru said not daring to look up at her lover.
'' Look at me.'' The blonde demanded and was kind of suprised when the smaller girl obeyed her.It hurted to see this girl like this.'' You don't have to pretend.'' She added and wiped away the tear from Michiru's face but new ones kept coming and before one of them even realised it they stood there , out side of the cafe , holding eachother tightly.
'' Haruka ?'' Suddenly someone asked causing both woman to part and turn around to see a raven haired girl Michiru recalled kissing Haruka earlier.'' Who's she ?'' The girl asked.
'' I honestly don't know.'' Haruka answered.It somehow felt wrong to sat that.She just hugged the smaller woman a few second ago and now she told the raven haired girl she didn't know Michiru.
'' It didn't look like you two don't know eachother just a minute ago.'' The girl said.She sounded hurt but angry at the same time.This was the conversation Michiru hoped to avoid.She couldn't use this.Not now.
'' I'll go , i guess.'' Michiru whispered and pulled out of Haruka's arms.Pulling back hurted her more than she could ever imagine.I was like she was giving her lover away to this girl.
'' Wait...'' Haruka stopped Michiru by grabbing her arm without hurting the smaller girl ofcourse.Michiru turned around to face the blonde.
'' Don't do that Ruka , go home with your girlfriend.'' As Michiru said that tears fell down her face like a rain storm.It made Haruka feel really bad about herself because somehow she knew it was her fault this girl was hurt.
'' I'll go with you.'' Haruka then offered.Causing both Michiru and the raven haired girl to gasp.
'' But you are my boyfriend !'' The girl yelled.
'' I'm not even a boy , what would you know , i don't even know your name.'' The blonde stated as if it didn't matter.'' By the way , what's your name ?''
The raven haired girl seemed to get angrier every moment.'' I don't care , let go of that bitch , you belong to me ! I made you mine ! You belong to me !'' The girl raged.'' And my name is Chu Tomizawa , don't forget that name!'' With that Chu ran away.
It fully struck Michiru on that moment.Chu Tomizawa , the reason Haruka lost her memory , it had to be this obsessed girl.'' Are you okay ?'' She could hear the blonde ask.Michiru didn't answer.Uranus was right , she was innocent.
'' I'm okay , please take me home.'' Michiru pleaded as she turned around to face the tomboy who was looking at her concerned.
Meanwhile at the outer senshi's home
But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you
since then
Neptune walked into the house looking around for Haruka who was suppossed to be in here.' Ten minutes left , please Haruka , where are you.' After she was done searching the first floor she went on to the second where she found Haruka , the Haruka from her time.
When the blonde heard footsteps behind her she turned around fastly but calmed down when she saw it was only Neptune.'' Haruka , about what i asked before..you know , if you could love me again or at least try , did you think about it ?'' The blonde just shook her head.
'' I don't know Michiru , i came here to change the past so i could have you back.But now you are here and everything is messed up , i don't even know what i want anymore.''
'' Haruka , remember when i said i hated that you called me Michi ?'' The aqua haired girl asked her lover who still sat on he bed.
'' How can i forget , it was the day you made it very clear you hated me.''
Neptune hung her head down in shame.'' I didn't hate you back then and i still don't hate you now.I just wanted to let you know , i don't hate that name.I enjoy it when you call me that.It makes me feel marked you know ? I makes me feel like i belong to you and that feeling is something i lost awhile ago.I only have five more minutes left here before i'm called back to the future , i just wanted to know how you feel about me before i go.''
Haruka looked up to her ex-lover.'' I understand.'' She started.'' But if i answer that question now , it may be a false one and a not when thought about it one.''
'' I don't care , i just want to know where i stand in your life.'' Neptune whispered.Haruka stood up and walked over to the smaller girl and without any warning she kissed her long lost lover. First it felt so strange.She hadn't kissed this woman for a long time but it was so right at the same time. Soon just kissing wasn't enough for both of them and their tongues entered eachothers mouths.
'' Haruka-pappa , Michiru-momma !'' Suddenly a childish voice screamed causing both woman to jump up and pull back.When they looked down they saw their adopted daughter.
'' She is still so small.'' Neptune said with a smile.
'' Michiru-momma why are you transformed is there danger and I'M NOT SMALL ! I'm a big girl okay ?'' The child stated looking very sure of herself.Then she remembered the conversation between Setsuna and Michiru this morning.'' Haruka-pappa ?''
Haruka looked down at the child with a smile.'' Yes Hime-chan ?''
Hotaru blushed for a moment when also the reactions from Setsuna and Michiru flooded back into her mind.But she had to know.'' What is getting laid ?'' Both woman turned very pale all of a sudden and looked at eachother , then back to the small girl in front of them.
But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And if I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
Well that was it so far , Hope you liked it , let me know what you think ...I don't really know what's going to happen in the next chapter so you'll just have to wait and see that one out ! Again thanxx for all the reviews ...
Auraluna7 : Thank you ! it really made me smile when i read your review , i'm glad it got clear for you to read again , i hope this chapter will be easy to read to0 ! Oh and about your fic : Please don't make Haruka cheat on po0r Michi again ,
Tonker : Hehe didn't see that one coming , ne ? Thanks for your review !
Joe who can't ge...: Ja ze is inderdaad koppig maar als jij vo0r zo'n keuze stond zou je 0ok niej zomaar weer in bed duiken met je lover...oh wacht...nee dat zou jij wel doen !Sorry mijn fout...
Asagi-niichan : OMG what's horrible ? Hehe just kidding...
Baka gaijin30 : You think that's stubborn ? Ha you haven't seen me in action , she can be much more stubborn , just wait until a few chapters !
Skymaiden : I'm glad you decided to give it another chance , I'm glad you like the story !
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